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[simoneee]

hi, it's me again, Simoneee, Simone is my real name. Crazy huh? Well, everything is just like going wrong for some reason for me and my family. I feel like crying every minute. It's a horrible feeling. I am 51 years old, and I don't know if it's menepause, or just what is going on. I am stuck in a big giant pickle, and i don't know if I will ever be happy again. I must be depressed cuz i dont' care about my hair, or wear make-up like i use to, or even care about what i wear for clothes anymore. I take care of the elderly, so it really does not matter what i look like. I mean, clean, and shiny, but not made up at all. That's not me. My daughters are going through some real horrible stuff, and my man is going through some stuff too. His daughter is 30 and she is in some real trouble. ANd we can't help her. It seems like our first year was awesome, then all of a sudden, shit started happening. Like bad, bad stuff. that's why my belief in God is questioned,,,,,,,,,why does he let this stuff happen????????? My daughter's little boy is Autistic, my other daughter's little girl is chromosome defective, and now my boyfriend's daughter is in jail. And it could be for a long time, cuz of drugs.
And we can't help her, cuz we have no money as it is............ I am just so sad. I feel like running away to somewhere where nobody knows me.
Ok, i gotta go for now.......................love eveyone........me