Title: "Crossing to Adulthood"
princess_charming: you there?
shoutingviolet: hey! was just about to head to bed. thought you were over at emmas tonight
princess_charming: we went to a party then I went to lukes place
shoutingviolent: luke as in chem class luke?
princess_charming: XD
shoutingviolet: omg! AND?!!
princess_charming: his parents were out to dinner
princess_charming: their anniversary he said
shoutingviolet: ok so what? you guys were on ur own? i like where this is heading
shoutingviolet: details please!!
princess_charming: lol
shoutingviolet: so???!!!
princess_charming: yes
shoutingviolet: yes?! yes what?
princess_charming: *blushes*
shoutingviolet: you guys did it?!!
princess_charming: I feel weird typing this
shoutingviolet: oh wow.
princess_charming: ikr?
shoutingviolet: so....
shoutingviolet: um... what was it like?
shoutingviolet: where were you?
princess_charming: I dunno.. it was different to how I expected it would be. nice I guess.
princess_charming: in his bedroom.
shoutingviolet: was he a gentleman?
princess_charming: ?
shoutingviolet: lol idk, i mean are you guys together now?
princess_charming: yeah I guess. he texted me after I got home.
shoutingviolet: omg omg this is so exciting!!
princess_charming: lol
princess_charming: hang on my mum is at the door
shoutingviolet: ok
princess_charming: she wanted to have a hot chocolate with me b4 bed. lol. better go
shoutingviolet: haha, ok. talk later?
princess_charming: send me a txt when you get up
shoutingviolet: ok. night.
I’m staring at my computer. I feel so much younger than I did when I logged into Facebook 10 minutes ago. Megan did it! With Luke! I guess … and she didn’t say much. She is going to tell me what it was like, right? All those hours we spent talking about, what does it feel like? Who does what first? How much is hot and how much is just slutty?
Now, I guess she knows the answers or at least knows a whole lot more about it than I do. I wonder if she hurts. Doesn’t it hurt the first time? Is she like, walking all weird because she hurts or does she look just the same? OMG, I wonder if he gave her hickeys? Lucy once said Chad put a big hickey on her boob that turned into this huge bruise. It didn’t go away for weeks!
But was it wonderful, with soft music and passionate kissing?
Why does Megan do everything first? I mean, here she is 4 months younger than me and now she knows what it’s like and I’m still well … at least I have kissed someone. Once. And it was almost a French kiss, even if it didn’t last long.
But why do they like her better? I mean, my hair is just as long (I should know, we measured it one night.) I’m a blonde and people always say guys like blonds better but somehow … she draws them in like likes on a funny picture in facebook while I’m … it seems like I’m invisible sometimes.
I don’t know what the problem is. She can dance and honestly, she looks so stupid when she dances but she doesn’t stop. No matter how stupid she looks, there are always boys coming up to dance by her and smile back at her. You wouldn’t thought they would want to dance with such an awkward girl, out making a fool of herself like that.
I have to ask her, surely she used something. Is she on the pill? Is that another thing she didn’t tell me? OMG what if she ends up pregnant? Surely not. That can never happen with your first time anyways, that’s what Lucy told me. She said that as long as the sex doesn’t last longer than 15 minutes, it’s impossible to get pregnant. I said, “Does that mean you have to watch the clock?” and she said, “Violet, if you meet a guy who can last longer than that, send him my way. Chad practically lets it go the minute he gets in.”
And I had questions I wanted to ask her like, “So, is it like difficult to put it in? What if it slips out? Does he kiss you during sex or just before?” But Lucy was acting all superior and experienced and I just … I just nodded and laughed like my clock comment was meant to be a joke and I knew all along that 15 minutes is a long time. It is, right? Because in novels, it seems to last longer but maybe that’s just with older guys?
I don’t know. I have so many questions! Honestly, I thought Megan was going to wait until Junior prom. That was the plan. We’d both have dates, split after the prom and compare notes in the morning. That way we would cross into being women at EXACTLY the SAME TIME instead of … I mean, what happened? When did she decide last night was the perfect night?
What did he say to let her know it was time?
Luke is hot, that’s for sure. Those dark, dark eyes and that smile. I can’t blame her for giving in. Hey, if he wasn’t dating her, I have a feeling I’d crush on him myself. But who am I kidding? A guy like Luke would never look at a fat cow like me.
Megan curves out where I curve in. Is that the key? You have to have big boobs and dark hair and then some guy will want you?
I just can’t believe Megan didn’t get back on the computer yet. It’s been an hour already! Lucy said sex makes you tired, that Chad always falls asleep right away. Is that what happened?
But why didn’t she sign back on? I’m not just anyone. We always swore, if one of us lost our virginity first, the other would IM right away with all the details and where is she now? I bet she’s on but IMing Luke. Or maybe she’s texting him … or sending a topless photo. I heard that once you have sex with a guy, you have to text topless photos, it’s practically mandatory.
So now she’ll be out there. I wonder if she’ll sit with me at lunch tomorrow? Or she is going to hang out with Lucy and Rachel? It seems like all the girls who do it hang out together and the ones who haven’t …. Well that group is getting smaller and smaller.
Why can’t I join them? What’s wrong with me? Even when Ernie kissed me that time, I wiggled, you know, rubbing myself against him and he didn’t try to lift up my shirt.
Is it me?
I’m happy for Megan, just surprised that it was now. Does this change everything? I never thought I would be the one left behind.
This week, my partner was the blushing Megan, I mean, the amazing ecosopher You can read what really happened over at:
Megan's story
shoutingviolet: hey! was just about to head to bed. thought you were over at emmas tonight
princess_charming: we went to a party then I went to lukes place
shoutingviolent: luke as in chem class luke?
princess_charming: XD
shoutingviolet: omg! AND?!!
princess_charming: his parents were out to dinner
princess_charming: their anniversary he said
shoutingviolet: ok so what? you guys were on ur own? i like where this is heading
shoutingviolet: details please!!
princess_charming: lol
shoutingviolet: so???!!!
princess_charming: yes
shoutingviolet: yes?! yes what?
princess_charming: *blushes*
shoutingviolet: you guys did it?!!
princess_charming: I feel weird typing this
shoutingviolet: oh wow.
princess_charming: ikr?
shoutingviolet: so....
shoutingviolet: um... what was it like?
shoutingviolet: where were you?
princess_charming: I dunno.. it was different to how I expected it would be. nice I guess.
princess_charming: in his bedroom.
shoutingviolet: was he a gentleman?
princess_charming: ?
shoutingviolet: lol idk, i mean are you guys together now?
princess_charming: yeah I guess. he texted me after I got home.
shoutingviolet: omg omg this is so exciting!!
princess_charming: lol
princess_charming: hang on my mum is at the door
shoutingviolet: ok
princess_charming: she wanted to have a hot chocolate with me b4 bed. lol. better go
shoutingviolet: haha, ok. talk later?
princess_charming: send me a txt when you get up
shoutingviolet: ok. night.
I’m staring at my computer. I feel so much younger than I did when I logged into Facebook 10 minutes ago. Megan did it! With Luke! I guess … and she didn’t say much. She is going to tell me what it was like, right? All those hours we spent talking about, what does it feel like? Who does what first? How much is hot and how much is just slutty?
Now, I guess she knows the answers or at least knows a whole lot more about it than I do. I wonder if she hurts. Doesn’t it hurt the first time? Is she like, walking all weird because she hurts or does she look just the same? OMG, I wonder if he gave her hickeys? Lucy once said Chad put a big hickey on her boob that turned into this huge bruise. It didn’t go away for weeks!
But was it wonderful, with soft music and passionate kissing?
Why does Megan do everything first? I mean, here she is 4 months younger than me and now she knows what it’s like and I’m still well … at least I have kissed someone. Once. And it was almost a French kiss, even if it didn’t last long.
But why do they like her better? I mean, my hair is just as long (I should know, we measured it one night.) I’m a blonde and people always say guys like blonds better but somehow … she draws them in like likes on a funny picture in facebook while I’m … it seems like I’m invisible sometimes.
I don’t know what the problem is. She can dance and honestly, she looks so stupid when she dances but she doesn’t stop. No matter how stupid she looks, there are always boys coming up to dance by her and smile back at her. You wouldn’t thought they would want to dance with such an awkward girl, out making a fool of herself like that.
I have to ask her, surely she used something. Is she on the pill? Is that another thing she didn’t tell me? OMG what if she ends up pregnant? Surely not. That can never happen with your first time anyways, that’s what Lucy told me. She said that as long as the sex doesn’t last longer than 15 minutes, it’s impossible to get pregnant. I said, “Does that mean you have to watch the clock?” and she said, “Violet, if you meet a guy who can last longer than that, send him my way. Chad practically lets it go the minute he gets in.”
And I had questions I wanted to ask her like, “So, is it like difficult to put it in? What if it slips out? Does he kiss you during sex or just before?” But Lucy was acting all superior and experienced and I just … I just nodded and laughed like my clock comment was meant to be a joke and I knew all along that 15 minutes is a long time. It is, right? Because in novels, it seems to last longer but maybe that’s just with older guys?
I don’t know. I have so many questions! Honestly, I thought Megan was going to wait until Junior prom. That was the plan. We’d both have dates, split after the prom and compare notes in the morning. That way we would cross into being women at EXACTLY the SAME TIME instead of … I mean, what happened? When did she decide last night was the perfect night?
What did he say to let her know it was time?
Luke is hot, that’s for sure. Those dark, dark eyes and that smile. I can’t blame her for giving in. Hey, if he wasn’t dating her, I have a feeling I’d crush on him myself. But who am I kidding? A guy like Luke would never look at a fat cow like me.
Megan curves out where I curve in. Is that the key? You have to have big boobs and dark hair and then some guy will want you?
I just can’t believe Megan didn’t get back on the computer yet. It’s been an hour already! Lucy said sex makes you tired, that Chad always falls asleep right away. Is that what happened?
But why didn’t she sign back on? I’m not just anyone. We always swore, if one of us lost our virginity first, the other would IM right away with all the details and where is she now? I bet she’s on but IMing Luke. Or maybe she’s texting him … or sending a topless photo. I heard that once you have sex with a guy, you have to text topless photos, it’s practically mandatory.
So now she’ll be out there. I wonder if she’ll sit with me at lunch tomorrow? Or she is going to hang out with Lucy and Rachel? It seems like all the girls who do it hang out together and the ones who haven’t …. Well that group is getting smaller and smaller.
Why can’t I join them? What’s wrong with me? Even when Ernie kissed me that time, I wiggled, you know, rubbing myself against him and he didn’t try to lift up my shirt.
Is it me?
I’m happy for Megan, just surprised that it was now. Does this change everything? I never thought I would be the one left behind.
This week, my partner was the blushing Megan, I mean, the amazing ecosopher You can read what really happened over at:
Megan's story