Well here I am
Had a little meltdown at work yesterday.
So much in my head its rather full.
So much has been going on over the last few adrenaline pumped months.
I need a break.
My boss is demanding I say "no" to people - lol.
He doesn't understand that people don't like it when Sim says no.
It doesn't fit their mould of who they want me to be.
Like Trashy's post I'm sitting back watching a small brew of people slowly target someone.
I'm sure they don't realise it.
I've explained this to them but that type of behaviour is insidious, it creeps in slowly through people's attitudes before it blows up into actions.
But the person is feeling it.
New laptop has carked it.
Black screen no load up.
Think I can find the receipt?
Not writing has been killing me.
Spent 34 minutes on the phone with a client yesterday having her meltdown over being alone at Xmas.
Thankfully her staff member understands that she's just upset at the pressure Xmas places on people when you have no one to share it with.
I felt dreadfully for the poor woman.
I used have those feelings myself.
Used to : )
My sister is doing better and so mum and dad haven't been in contact.
No need for my help anymore.
The pattern continues.
Was invited to a get2gether on Boxing day but the old group will be there.
I said no and explained why.
Speaking out. I'm doing that better.
Am not going to the work Xmas party either.
Again its at a seafood restaurant and there's no vegetarian option but they can do me a pasta dish with tomato and basil sauce.
How lovely, something plain and boring, a dish I cook at home and for the wonderful price of $25.
So not worth the money and I'm stretched tight at the moment.
I'm over being nice and polite about such things.
I might just go for drinks afterward, as I do work with fun people : )
Have settled into a routine of niceness despite the clanger dropped on me this year.
Keeping pretty much to my own company over the last few months has been good.
People have stepped up to the plate and provided more balanced friendships.
Just wish I paid them more attention before now.
It's funny she told me once how women as close friends made her feel.
It was pretty awful and something I'd never experienced myself.
Now she has made me feel the same way.
Turns the mirror around.
Am looking forward to the summer, its full of promise.
So much in my head its rather full.
So much has been going on over the last few adrenaline pumped months.
I need a break.
My boss is demanding I say "no" to people - lol.
He doesn't understand that people don't like it when Sim says no.
It doesn't fit their mould of who they want me to be.
Like Trashy's post I'm sitting back watching a small brew of people slowly target someone.
I'm sure they don't realise it.
I've explained this to them but that type of behaviour is insidious, it creeps in slowly through people's attitudes before it blows up into actions.
But the person is feeling it.
New laptop has carked it.
Black screen no load up.
Think I can find the receipt?
Not writing has been killing me.
Spent 34 minutes on the phone with a client yesterday having her meltdown over being alone at Xmas.
Thankfully her staff member understands that she's just upset at the pressure Xmas places on people when you have no one to share it with.
I felt dreadfully for the poor woman.
I used have those feelings myself.
Used to : )
My sister is doing better and so mum and dad haven't been in contact.
No need for my help anymore.
The pattern continues.
Was invited to a get2gether on Boxing day but the old group will be there.
I said no and explained why.
Speaking out. I'm doing that better.
Am not going to the work Xmas party either.
Again its at a seafood restaurant and there's no vegetarian option but they can do me a pasta dish with tomato and basil sauce.
How lovely, something plain and boring, a dish I cook at home and for the wonderful price of $25.
So not worth the money and I'm stretched tight at the moment.
I'm over being nice and polite about such things.
I might just go for drinks afterward, as I do work with fun people : )
Have settled into a routine of niceness despite the clanger dropped on me this year.
Keeping pretty much to my own company over the last few months has been good.
People have stepped up to the plate and provided more balanced friendships.
Just wish I paid them more attention before now.
It's funny she told me once how women as close friends made her feel.
It was pretty awful and something I'd never experienced myself.
Now she has made me feel the same way.
Turns the mirror around.
Am looking forward to the summer, its full of promise.