Miss You
TITLE : Miss You
length : One-Shot (3,884)
pairing : Broken!KyuMin (Kyuhyun & Sungmin), KyuWook
genre : ANGSSST
rating : PG-13
summary : The reason why Kyuhyun and Sungmin broke up in Can't Let You Go
NO BETA
better summary: ME BEING ANGSTY AND MEAN TO MY OTP
i dedicate this to fanaticstory because she's d one i was talking to last.. saturday? though i dont know if u shud read this bb ^^, don't kill me haha
haha okay! before anyone complains on why do I even have to write a reason for KyuMin breaking up on that already angsty FAIL FIC...! >> well actually, this was supposed to be a one-shot, but I seriously don't know how to end it, so i just taught to connect it to CLYG ..
heck i know this is even more of a fail than CLYG (if you're one of those who thought it was a fail, i suggest to you to not read this ^^) because this is just MORE FAIL AND ME BEING MEAN TO KYUMIN.. bow
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Kyuhyun flashed the best smile he had ever worn for ages as he stares at the far right corner of the room.
There, he sees the most important persons in his life, huddles together.
He cherished the moment in his mind for a while before walking slowly towards them.
“Talking about me?”
“Kyuhyun!” Kyuhyun’s mother immediately hugged the tall boy upon seeing her precious son.
“We’re just talking about Sungmin. You have some great friend here, we’re glad that you have a great hyung to take care of you while.”
“Yeah, Sungmin really do take great care of me.” Kyuhyun looked at the older boy with a knowing smile, making the latter blush.
“I really can’t believe that he still doesn’t have a girlfriend. I’m sure girls are dying to be on that role.”
“Yeah and he’s pretty handsome.” Mr. Cho added.
Kyuhyun just laughed as he throws his arms at his blushing hyung, keeping their knowing thoughts in their mind.
“I’m also handsome; the person I’ll marry would be the luckiest person in the world. Right?” He looked at Sungmin who dodges his head lower, hoping to hide his tinted red cheeks.
“Aiyo, of course you are.” Mrs. Cho coddled.
They we're having fun talking and teasing when a girl suddenly interrupted them.
“I’m sorry for disturbing you. But Sungmin, Kyuhyun we’re leaving in a few minutes so please get your things ready.”
Kyuhyun wore an apologetic look at his parents who just hugged him in return. “It’s okay, we have to leave anyways. Take care of yourself okay? We love you.”
“I love you too.” Kyuhyun hugged both his parents before watching them leave.
The two then headed to their room to get their things.
Upon reaching their destination, Kyuhyun immediately closed the door and hugged Sungmin at the back.
He rested his head on Sungmin’s shoulder, inhaling his sweet relaxing scent.
Sungmin just smiled at the gesture as he leans his head onto Kyuhyun’s, intertwining their fingers together as they both took time to lavish the sweet moment.
“Kyu?” Sungmin murmured, deciding to cut the silence after a few moment of sweet bliss.
“Mmmm?” Kyuhyun replied, matching it with a chaste kiss on his lover’s cheeks.
Sungmin bit his lips, unassured of sharing his sudden thoughts. Kyuhyun noticed it so he nudges his lover to go and share it.
After a few seconds of hesitation, Sungmin finally gave in. He broke from Kyuhyun’s hug and faces his lover as he continue letting out his thoughts.
“It’s just that.. I suddenly thought about it after talking to your parents. Why.. why don’t, why don’t we already tell them about our relationship?”
Kyuhyun stared at his lover before exhaling a puff of breath he didn’t even know was there.
“Min.. We’ve already talked about this right?”
Sungmin just looked down at the ground, face failing to hide his disappointment.
“Min please..”
“I just don’t get it! We’ve been together for three years. I do understand and can endure the fact that we have to hide it to the world but I just don’t get it why do we have to hide it to our families as well.”
“Please Min! Are we going to argue about this again?! You know how much expectations my parents has for me, I can’t just tell them that.. that I’m gay.” Kyuhyun muttered, murmuring the last words in a whisper, afraid that someone might hear him.
“What’s wrong with being gay?! Sometimes I, Sometimes I think you’re being ashamed of me.” Sungmin sulked.
“Sungmin!”
Kyuhyun was already irritated. For the years that they’ve been together, Sungmin has always been opening this topic and he has always have been telling him why they can’t. Yet, Sungmin stills keep on pushing it. Plus it even adds that they’ve been fighting over petty things recently that he’s getting tired of it.
He doesn't want this argument to turn into another fight and he’s too tired of explaining over and over again so he just turned his back and left the room. Which was deemed to be a bad decision because it just made his lover more furious.
Before Kyuhyun could go any further, Sungmin was already clutching at his arm.
“Yah how could you walk out into me just like that?!”
“Min! This argument is pointless!” Kyuhyun continued walking.
“Don’t you dare walk out on me!”
Kyuhyun stopped and closed his eyes for a second but then continued on his steps leaving a furious and broken Sungmin.
*
The moment the slam of the door echoes in Kyuhyun’s ears, his knees started to get weak. He feels his hand trembles as it stays its grip at the knob.
The cries inside the room clench his heart until it’s impossible for him to breathe.
He could feel his heart crying in pain asking him to break the block that’s been breaking him from the other.
But his pride won’t let him. With much resistance, he broke away from the knob and ran away from that place.
*
That night, their group celebrated the success of their recent KRY concert.
Sungmin and Kyuhyun are still on not speaking terms so they tried their best to avoid each other, saved by the constant stares they throw from time to time.
It made both of them furious. Thus, reverting their pain at the alcohol in front of them. Both, gulping it in one swift turn.
Their companions just stared at the two as they feel the tension between the couple.
After a few glasses, Sungmin was already tipsy so Donghae volunteered on bringing him back to the hotel before he got more drank and cause a commotion at the public.
Kyuhyun having high alcohol tolerance just stayed there and continue drowning himself with alcohol.
“Kyuhyun, you’ve already drank too much. You should stop it.”
“Do I look drank?” Kyuhyun muttered confidently even if it's already obvious to the other that he's a little bit tipsy. He then fills both his and Ryeowook’s glass with more alcohol.
“Cheers!” Kyuhyun shout as he brings the glass into his mouth.
Ryeowook doesn’t have a choice because he knows how stubborn the magnae can be so he just took his glass and drinks it preparing for the long night ahead.
*
“How could you be so heavy?!” Ryeowook complained as he throws the swaying Kyuhyun at his bed.
He was already too tired as well and the alcohol is starting to get to his head so he slump his body at the bed and try to catch his breath.
All of a sudden, he could feel his heart calm down as he feels Kyuhyun’s arms wrapping around him; making him smile of the sudden comfort.
Though, he didn’t know how to react when Kyuhyun’s arms suddenly roam inside his shirt, making him hot all thru out his body.
He then felt the other leaving chaste kisses on his neck, making him lose his sanity with the pleasure it gives.
He wanted to stop it but that deep longing in his heart for the guy he had always admired, stubbornly wants to break through, making all the deep feeling that’s buried deep in his heart for the younger staying awake from its grave.
So seconds after, he found himself kissing back and returning all of Kyuhyun’s sinful touches, as they both fall at the trap the devil has setup for them, leaving them no chance to turn back.
*
The next day, Kyuhyun woke up at the blinding sunlight illuminating from the window that sends great shocks of pain in his head.
He buried his face at the body beside him as he brings it closer and hugs the small figure tightly.
He was almost drifting into sleep when a sound of broken glass and loud gasp awakes him. Kyuhyun could feel the noise bringing back the excruciating pain in his head. So he shifts his head up and was ready to scream to whoever was in the door but he didn’t expect to face the greatest shock of his life.
“Su- Sungmin?” Kyuhyun stuttered as he stares at a wide-eyed Sungmin, lips parted in shock and eyes clearly in verge of tears.
Kyuhyun immediately looked at the person beside him who is now wide awake as well.
When he saw who it was and the state they’re in, bodies naked, scratches and marks visibly seen in every parts of their skin he started to mentally curse himself immediately trying to find an incomprehensible explanation to his lover who’s still in shock.
“Sungmin this.. Sungmin wait!”
Kyuhyun bolted up from the bed as he sees Sungmin ran away but realized that he was naked so he halted at his spot as he curses himself from the mistake he had done.
*
The whole morning, Kyuhyun went around to look for Sungmin, but the guy was nowhere in sight.
He was starting to get worried and blames himself if something happen to his precious hyung.
So he was really glad when he finally saw Sungmin. A wide grin of relief paste on his face and he just wants to grab and hug Sungmin at that moment.
“Sungmin” Kyuhyun held his hands but the latter pushed it away as he continues walking towards the plane.
Kyuhyun didn’t stop following him as the other continues to ignore him until he sees Donghae’s seat unoccupied and immediately sat on it.
“Sungmin please let’s talk.” The older didn’t budge in his seat, acting as if he didn’t hear anything.
Kyuhyun know it’s useless so he turns to his other hyung.
“Donghae hyung, can I please take your seat?”
“Don’t!” Sungmin quickly muttered.
Donghae looked at Sungmin’s pleading eyes and then to Kyuhyun who is as desperate for his pleads. He looks at the two not knowing who to give in to. After a few seconds of confusion he just gave up and moves up from his seat.
“I’m sorry but I don’t want to have any part of this!”
He then stayed away from the couple, making Kyuhyun grin as he seats on the now unoccupied seat while Sungmin throws curses at Donghae.
“Min. Min please talk to me.” Sungmin continued ignoring the magnae but Kyuhyun still continued. “Look what you saw is.. we’re drunk, it was a mistake. It..”
“I don’t want to hear it.” Sungmin stood up from his seat and prepared to leave but Kyuhyun immediately grabs his hand. “I love you Sungmin, Please forgive me. I’m so sorry.”
Sungmin feels his heart weakens at the words but the pain in his heart mains him so he gathers up all his defenses and tried to push his arms away, but Kyuhyun just tightened his grip.
“If you don’t let go, then we’re really over.” Kyuhyun was taken aback by the threat.
“5, 4, 3,..”
He could feel all his breath being sucked out of him as his mind stops functioning.
“2..”
Sungmin feels Kyuhyun’s grip from his arm slowly loosening. But instead of being happy of getting what he wants, he feels his heart being crushed into pieces as it cries for the touch they’ve always leaned on to.
Kyuhyun just hid his face, not wanting to see Sungmin slipping away from him. But it doesn’t lessen even a single bit of the pain that he feels at the moment. It even got worse every second that he realizes how much a fool he is.
“Kyuhyun..” The said man tilted his head up to see Ryeowook who now occupied the seat that Sungmin left.
“I, I’m really sorry, it’s my fault. I should have stopped it. I..”
“It’s not your fault. We’re both drunk.” Kyuhyun assured the smaller man.
But Ryeowook cried more as he continues blaming himself. So Kyuhyun brings him in his arms and tries to hush him.
While, a few seats away from them, Sungmin’s watching them as the building pain in the man’s heart increases even more.
*
The next time Kyuhyun had a chance to talk to Sungmin was when they arrived in the dorm, they we’re sharing a room so it was impossible for Sungmin to run away from Kyuhyun. The younger took this as an opportunity and locked the door and cornered his hyung.
“Can we please talk about this?! Please Sungmin I’m really sorry.” The younger pleads.
“Why don’t you just talk to Ryeowook? He seems to like being by your side.”
“What?! Could you listen to me and not put Ryeowook into this?”
“So now you’re protecting him?!”
“Fuck Sungmin, we’re drunk!”
“Even if you’re drunk, it still didn't mean that you’re not aware of what you’re doing. But still, you let it happened, Ryeowook let it happened!”
“Sungmin could you stop this?! I’m trying to apologize to you, and yet you’re being childish?! I’m getting tired of this!”
“So you’re tired of this?! Then why don’t you just go to Ryeowook, it seems that you both enjoy each other’s company anyways.”
“You know what?! Fine!!” Kyuhyun frustratedly opened the door and looked for Ryeowook.
Sungmin was confused with the action and could only gape at the next thing Kyuhyun did.
Ryeowook’s eyes double its size as it stares at Kyuhyun who’s now kissing him.
*
They didn’t know how it happened but the next thing they know. Kyuhyun started to be affectionate to the eternal magnae. At first, Ryeowook was uncomfortable with the sudden attention but the feelings inside him are getting stronger that it stops him from fleeing away from the magnae. So even if he knows in his mind that something’s severely wrong, his heart mains him, making him an idiot fool.
Sungmin’s still in shock, the thought of Kyuhyun now being owned by another person still won’t register in his mind.
It all happened so quickly that it all seemed impossible, but on moments he sees Kyuhyun with Ryeowook, it all starts to imprint in his mind that this isn't a dream. This is all happening, he had lost his Kyuhyun.
*
Sungmin lazily sits on the floor looking at his overly excited dongsaengs and hyungs. They we’re all gathered in the living room, as they wait for SM the ballad’s debut performance. He might not show it but deep inside he was as elated as well, he was so proud of Kyuhyun, but he knows that he has no right to do so anymore.
So he just silently waits for the group’s turn then he noticed Ryeowook giggling at the side while the other members are teasing him. He looked down at his phone and understood why.
He was burning with jealousy, as he gripped the phone tighter and tries his best to fight away his tears.
In this time, he’s thankful that his tears are pretty obedient, so he tried to push it farther inside, even in return is his heart drowning, suffocating him.
The clench in his heart is tightening, making him lose air to breathe but it all suddenly feels so light and hazy as he hears the voice that always brings him to eternal paradise.
Geureuritji mothaeso apahanayo (It hurts since I can’t forget that)
Geudaega isseul jariga yogin anin gayo (Looks like here is not the place where you’re supposed to be)
A smile suddenly crawls into his face, and he mentally chuckles at the thought of by only hearing the younger man's voice already makes his heart ecstatic.
Nareul wihan goramyon chameul piryon opjyo(You don’t have to hold back for me)
Onjen-gan kkeutnaboril teni (It all will end someday too anyway)
Nae sarangi jejariro oji mothago (My love just can’t seem to reach you)
Heulin nunmul mankeum molli ganeyo (Just as much as the amount of tears that flowed, it’s still far away to go)
Naneun ijoya hajyo geudae nomu geuriwo( I have to forget you, I miss you so much)
Nareul apeuge haljineun mollado ijoyo (Even if you never know how much it hurts, I will forget)
Memories of Kyuhyun singing to him, only for him as the younger man tells him how much he loves him then kisses him until they both fall asleep in each other’s arms comes flashing back into his mind. His heart cries in pain as he realizes how much he misses those moments. Now he asks in his mind, does it really have to end? Does he really have to forget all of it?
Babo gateun naran gol geudaen anayo (I’m a fool, you know me)
Gaseumi jjijojineunde useumman naojyo (My heart’s been ripped apart, but I can only smile)
Onjekkajirado nan gidaryo ( I’ll still be waiting for you till forever)
Nae nunmul gamchumyo (As I will keep hiding my tears)
Naega doraogin haneun gon-gayo (Would you come back to me?)
Nae sarangi jejariro oji mothago (My love just can’t seem to reach you)
Heulin nunmul mankeum molli ganeyo (Just as much as the amount of tears that flowed, it’s still far away to go)
Naneun ijoya hajyo geudae nomu geuriwo (I have to forget you, I miss you so much)
Nareul apeuge haljineun mollado ijoyo (Even if you never know how much it hurts, I will forget)
Ijoya haneun gon jiwoya haneun gon (To forget you, even to erase you)
[Jonghyun] Negen nomuna oryoun irijyo (For me they are very difficult things to do)
Nae sarangi jejariro oji mothago (My love just can’t seem to reach you)
Heulin nunmul mankeum molli ganeyo (Just as much as the amount of tears that flowed, it’s still far away to go)
Naneun ijoya hajyo geudae nomu geuriwo (I have to forget you, I miss you so much)
Nareul apeuge haljineun mollado ijoyo (Even if you never know how much it hurts, I will forget)
The other members are now screaming and spazzing around, telling how great Kyuhyun was but all that plays in his head is Kyuhyun’s voice sending millions of emotions in his heart.
Despite of the feeling of his heart being ripped apart, he tried to smile as he listens to the song until it reach it ends.
Now, is it their love that has to end?
He tilted his head to the man that now owns the man that once was his. He sees him talking to Kyuhyun at the phone and it slowly dawns into him the answer to all of his question.
He can’t take it anymore, he feels his shield starting to crumble so before he breaks down in front of the members, he silently went his way out of the dorm and ran away out from that place where he could throw off his mask and let out the stream that’s been killing him inside.
He was crying in one corner when he suddenly feels warm hands giving him soothing rubs at the back, making more of his tears escape from their hiding place.
“Sssh… Just let it all out.”
Sungmin settles on the comfort he finds on Eunhyuk’s arms. Even deep inside his heart still deeply longs for the comfort they’ve been used to.
After Sungmin have let out all of his tears he started breaking the silence.
“Hyuk, this is all my fault right?” Sungmin murmured softly.
“Who even gave you that idea?”
“ I- I can’t live without him, but I’m the one who pushed him away. This is my fault. I deserve all of this.”
Sungmin muttered as fresh tears starts to escape his eyes.
“No, Sungmin. This isn’t your fault. Don’t blame yourself, and no, you don’t deserve this. Remember that okay?” He lifted up Sungmin’s head hoping to send the message to his brain.
Sungmin looks at his friends eyes and was about to nod when they heard a faint cough
They both look up and were surprised to see Kyuhyun walking towards them.
“Shocks hyungs, get a room.”
Eunhyuk wanted to stand up and knock Kyuhyun for being disrespectful but Sungmin stopped him. So he just turned his head back to Sungmin and ignored the snarky magnae.
“That bastard!” Eunhyuk hugged Sungmin tighter and accompanied that looks even more crushed than he already was.
*
Sungmin was so exhausted from crying that he just wanted to slump his body at his bed and sleep. He was about to drift off to dreamland when he hear stifle giggles from the other side of the room. He noticed that it was from the new formed lover.
Ever since that moment Kyuhyun kissed Ryeowook, they’ve been irritably sweet in front of him. He doesn’t know why but there’s something in him that senses that Kyuhyun has been teasing him, but he just shrugs it off as he doesn’t want to expect and hurt himself more than he already is. So he just buried his head from his pillows, hoping it could block away the sounds that have been stomping his heart.
He was confused when the giggles were suddenly replaced by soft murmurs. He didn’t even wants to know what the two we’re talking about so he slumps his head farther, but what he heard next killed him.
Just when he thought that he had already experienced the greatest of pains and nothing could be even more extreme; he had just proven himself wrong as he feels his heart being thoroughly clenched, the pain he felt being doubled, tripled even, as he feels every inch of him being slowly killed bit by bit.
“Mmm.. Ah.. Kyu.. ngh stop.”
“Ssh.”
Sungmin could here Kyuhyun's giggles and Ryeowook’s moans getting louder. All as if mocking him, laughing at his sorrows.
It was too much that he swears he can’t really breathe anymore. So he bolted up from the bed and ran out of the door, trying to block the mocking sounds that have been echoing in his head, making his mind scrunched in pain.
He immediately closed the door and lets his legs fall down, as he try to scream all the pain out of him, wishing it could at least take even just a little pain with it because he seriously doesn’t know if he could still take the great amount of pain that’s been pooling inside him.
He can’t take the pain anymore as he screams and cries it away, not caring any longer of the other members seeing him.
He’s too broken that nothing matters anymore. He just wanted to let out all the pain, wishes to let out all the pain. He can’t take it, anymore as he pleads God to take it away. Someone, to please take it all away.
Ryeowook stood up from his position and badly wants to comfort his hyung. But he knows that he’s partly to blame by the pain of the other so he just stayed at his place, as guilt enraptures him. Even doubling, as he knows he can’t do anything as he listens to the screams and tears of pain that’s filling his ear.
He looked at Kyuhyun who was stilled on his place, since Sungmin left the room. As his mind and heart starts to argue on that familiar battle they had been having the past few weeks.
“Let’s sleep.” Kyuhyun suddenly murmured as he turns around to face the wall and brings the blanket into his head. His body slightly failing to hide his feelings as a lone tear escapes from his eyes.
haha i think it's pretty obvious on what's my inspirations are for this fic haha
sorry for the weird scenes like d Min Hyuk scenes.. i was also asking, how long was they even there that Kyuhyun was already home?! haha ( me even revealing my mistakes.. woah! haha)
at least they ended happy in CLYG ryt?.. no? okay runs away
length : One-Shot (3,884)
pairing : Broken!KyuMin (Kyuhyun & Sungmin), KyuWook
genre : ANGSSST
rating : PG-13
summary : The reason why Kyuhyun and Sungmin broke up in Can't Let You Go
NO BETA
better summary: ME BEING ANGSTY AND MEAN TO MY OTP
i dedicate this to fanaticstory because she's d one i was talking to last.. saturday? though i dont know if u shud read this bb ^^, don't kill me haha
haha okay! before anyone complains on why do I even have to write a reason for KyuMin breaking up on that already angsty FAIL FIC...! >> well actually, this was supposed to be a one-shot, but I seriously don't know how to end it, so i just taught to connect it to CLYG ..
heck i know this is even more of a fail than CLYG (if you're one of those who thought it was a fail, i suggest to you to not read this ^^) because this is just MORE FAIL AND ME BEING MEAN TO KYUMIN.. bow
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Kyuhyun flashed the best smile he had ever worn for ages as he stares at the far right corner of the room.
There, he sees the most important persons in his life, huddles together.
He cherished the moment in his mind for a while before walking slowly towards them.
“Talking about me?”
“Kyuhyun!” Kyuhyun’s mother immediately hugged the tall boy upon seeing her precious son.
“We’re just talking about Sungmin. You have some great friend here, we’re glad that you have a great hyung to take care of you while.”
“Yeah, Sungmin really do take great care of me.” Kyuhyun looked at the older boy with a knowing smile, making the latter blush.
“I really can’t believe that he still doesn’t have a girlfriend. I’m sure girls are dying to be on that role.”
“Yeah and he’s pretty handsome.” Mr. Cho added.
Kyuhyun just laughed as he throws his arms at his blushing hyung, keeping their knowing thoughts in their mind.
“I’m also handsome; the person I’ll marry would be the luckiest person in the world. Right?” He looked at Sungmin who dodges his head lower, hoping to hide his tinted red cheeks.
“Aiyo, of course you are.” Mrs. Cho coddled.
They we're having fun talking and teasing when a girl suddenly interrupted them.
“I’m sorry for disturbing you. But Sungmin, Kyuhyun we’re leaving in a few minutes so please get your things ready.”
Kyuhyun wore an apologetic look at his parents who just hugged him in return. “It’s okay, we have to leave anyways. Take care of yourself okay? We love you.”
“I love you too.” Kyuhyun hugged both his parents before watching them leave.
The two then headed to their room to get their things.
Upon reaching their destination, Kyuhyun immediately closed the door and hugged Sungmin at the back.
He rested his head on Sungmin’s shoulder, inhaling his sweet relaxing scent.
Sungmin just smiled at the gesture as he leans his head onto Kyuhyun’s, intertwining their fingers together as they both took time to lavish the sweet moment.
“Kyu?” Sungmin murmured, deciding to cut the silence after a few moment of sweet bliss.
“Mmmm?” Kyuhyun replied, matching it with a chaste kiss on his lover’s cheeks.
Sungmin bit his lips, unassured of sharing his sudden thoughts. Kyuhyun noticed it so he nudges his lover to go and share it.
After a few seconds of hesitation, Sungmin finally gave in. He broke from Kyuhyun’s hug and faces his lover as he continue letting out his thoughts.
“It’s just that.. I suddenly thought about it after talking to your parents. Why.. why don’t, why don’t we already tell them about our relationship?”
Kyuhyun stared at his lover before exhaling a puff of breath he didn’t even know was there.
“Min.. We’ve already talked about this right?”
Sungmin just looked down at the ground, face failing to hide his disappointment.
“Min please..”
“I just don’t get it! We’ve been together for three years. I do understand and can endure the fact that we have to hide it to the world but I just don’t get it why do we have to hide it to our families as well.”
“Please Min! Are we going to argue about this again?! You know how much expectations my parents has for me, I can’t just tell them that.. that I’m gay.” Kyuhyun muttered, murmuring the last words in a whisper, afraid that someone might hear him.
“What’s wrong with being gay?! Sometimes I, Sometimes I think you’re being ashamed of me.” Sungmin sulked.
“Sungmin!”
Kyuhyun was already irritated. For the years that they’ve been together, Sungmin has always been opening this topic and he has always have been telling him why they can’t. Yet, Sungmin stills keep on pushing it. Plus it even adds that they’ve been fighting over petty things recently that he’s getting tired of it.
He doesn't want this argument to turn into another fight and he’s too tired of explaining over and over again so he just turned his back and left the room. Which was deemed to be a bad decision because it just made his lover more furious.
Before Kyuhyun could go any further, Sungmin was already clutching at his arm.
“Yah how could you walk out into me just like that?!”
“Min! This argument is pointless!” Kyuhyun continued walking.
“Don’t you dare walk out on me!”
Kyuhyun stopped and closed his eyes for a second but then continued on his steps leaving a furious and broken Sungmin.
*
The moment the slam of the door echoes in Kyuhyun’s ears, his knees started to get weak. He feels his hand trembles as it stays its grip at the knob.
The cries inside the room clench his heart until it’s impossible for him to breathe.
He could feel his heart crying in pain asking him to break the block that’s been breaking him from the other.
But his pride won’t let him. With much resistance, he broke away from the knob and ran away from that place.
*
That night, their group celebrated the success of their recent KRY concert.
Sungmin and Kyuhyun are still on not speaking terms so they tried their best to avoid each other, saved by the constant stares they throw from time to time.
It made both of them furious. Thus, reverting their pain at the alcohol in front of them. Both, gulping it in one swift turn.
Their companions just stared at the two as they feel the tension between the couple.
After a few glasses, Sungmin was already tipsy so Donghae volunteered on bringing him back to the hotel before he got more drank and cause a commotion at the public.
Kyuhyun having high alcohol tolerance just stayed there and continue drowning himself with alcohol.
“Kyuhyun, you’ve already drank too much. You should stop it.”
“Do I look drank?” Kyuhyun muttered confidently even if it's already obvious to the other that he's a little bit tipsy. He then fills both his and Ryeowook’s glass with more alcohol.
“Cheers!” Kyuhyun shout as he brings the glass into his mouth.
Ryeowook doesn’t have a choice because he knows how stubborn the magnae can be so he just took his glass and drinks it preparing for the long night ahead.
*
“How could you be so heavy?!” Ryeowook complained as he throws the swaying Kyuhyun at his bed.
He was already too tired as well and the alcohol is starting to get to his head so he slump his body at the bed and try to catch his breath.
All of a sudden, he could feel his heart calm down as he feels Kyuhyun’s arms wrapping around him; making him smile of the sudden comfort.
Though, he didn’t know how to react when Kyuhyun’s arms suddenly roam inside his shirt, making him hot all thru out his body.
He then felt the other leaving chaste kisses on his neck, making him lose his sanity with the pleasure it gives.
He wanted to stop it but that deep longing in his heart for the guy he had always admired, stubbornly wants to break through, making all the deep feeling that’s buried deep in his heart for the younger staying awake from its grave.
So seconds after, he found himself kissing back and returning all of Kyuhyun’s sinful touches, as they both fall at the trap the devil has setup for them, leaving them no chance to turn back.
*
The next day, Kyuhyun woke up at the blinding sunlight illuminating from the window that sends great shocks of pain in his head.
He buried his face at the body beside him as he brings it closer and hugs the small figure tightly.
He was almost drifting into sleep when a sound of broken glass and loud gasp awakes him. Kyuhyun could feel the noise bringing back the excruciating pain in his head. So he shifts his head up and was ready to scream to whoever was in the door but he didn’t expect to face the greatest shock of his life.
“Su- Sungmin?” Kyuhyun stuttered as he stares at a wide-eyed Sungmin, lips parted in shock and eyes clearly in verge of tears.
Kyuhyun immediately looked at the person beside him who is now wide awake as well.
When he saw who it was and the state they’re in, bodies naked, scratches and marks visibly seen in every parts of their skin he started to mentally curse himself immediately trying to find an incomprehensible explanation to his lover who’s still in shock.
“Sungmin this.. Sungmin wait!”
Kyuhyun bolted up from the bed as he sees Sungmin ran away but realized that he was naked so he halted at his spot as he curses himself from the mistake he had done.
*
The whole morning, Kyuhyun went around to look for Sungmin, but the guy was nowhere in sight.
He was starting to get worried and blames himself if something happen to his precious hyung.
So he was really glad when he finally saw Sungmin. A wide grin of relief paste on his face and he just wants to grab and hug Sungmin at that moment.
“Sungmin” Kyuhyun held his hands but the latter pushed it away as he continues walking towards the plane.
Kyuhyun didn’t stop following him as the other continues to ignore him until he sees Donghae’s seat unoccupied and immediately sat on it.
“Sungmin please let’s talk.” The older didn’t budge in his seat, acting as if he didn’t hear anything.
Kyuhyun know it’s useless so he turns to his other hyung.
“Donghae hyung, can I please take your seat?”
“Don’t!” Sungmin quickly muttered.
Donghae looked at Sungmin’s pleading eyes and then to Kyuhyun who is as desperate for his pleads. He looks at the two not knowing who to give in to. After a few seconds of confusion he just gave up and moves up from his seat.
“I’m sorry but I don’t want to have any part of this!”
He then stayed away from the couple, making Kyuhyun grin as he seats on the now unoccupied seat while Sungmin throws curses at Donghae.
“Min. Min please talk to me.” Sungmin continued ignoring the magnae but Kyuhyun still continued. “Look what you saw is.. we’re drunk, it was a mistake. It..”
“I don’t want to hear it.” Sungmin stood up from his seat and prepared to leave but Kyuhyun immediately grabs his hand. “I love you Sungmin, Please forgive me. I’m so sorry.”
Sungmin feels his heart weakens at the words but the pain in his heart mains him so he gathers up all his defenses and tried to push his arms away, but Kyuhyun just tightened his grip.
“If you don’t let go, then we’re really over.” Kyuhyun was taken aback by the threat.
“5, 4, 3,..”
He could feel all his breath being sucked out of him as his mind stops functioning.
“2..”
Sungmin feels Kyuhyun’s grip from his arm slowly loosening. But instead of being happy of getting what he wants, he feels his heart being crushed into pieces as it cries for the touch they’ve always leaned on to.
Kyuhyun just hid his face, not wanting to see Sungmin slipping away from him. But it doesn’t lessen even a single bit of the pain that he feels at the moment. It even got worse every second that he realizes how much a fool he is.
“Kyuhyun..” The said man tilted his head up to see Ryeowook who now occupied the seat that Sungmin left.
“I, I’m really sorry, it’s my fault. I should have stopped it. I..”
“It’s not your fault. We’re both drunk.” Kyuhyun assured the smaller man.
But Ryeowook cried more as he continues blaming himself. So Kyuhyun brings him in his arms and tries to hush him.
While, a few seats away from them, Sungmin’s watching them as the building pain in the man’s heart increases even more.
*
The next time Kyuhyun had a chance to talk to Sungmin was when they arrived in the dorm, they we’re sharing a room so it was impossible for Sungmin to run away from Kyuhyun. The younger took this as an opportunity and locked the door and cornered his hyung.
“Can we please talk about this?! Please Sungmin I’m really sorry.” The younger pleads.
“Why don’t you just talk to Ryeowook? He seems to like being by your side.”
“What?! Could you listen to me and not put Ryeowook into this?”
“So now you’re protecting him?!”
“Fuck Sungmin, we’re drunk!”
“Even if you’re drunk, it still didn't mean that you’re not aware of what you’re doing. But still, you let it happened, Ryeowook let it happened!”
“Sungmin could you stop this?! I’m trying to apologize to you, and yet you’re being childish?! I’m getting tired of this!”
“So you’re tired of this?! Then why don’t you just go to Ryeowook, it seems that you both enjoy each other’s company anyways.”
“You know what?! Fine!!” Kyuhyun frustratedly opened the door and looked for Ryeowook.
Sungmin was confused with the action and could only gape at the next thing Kyuhyun did.
Ryeowook’s eyes double its size as it stares at Kyuhyun who’s now kissing him.
*
They didn’t know how it happened but the next thing they know. Kyuhyun started to be affectionate to the eternal magnae. At first, Ryeowook was uncomfortable with the sudden attention but the feelings inside him are getting stronger that it stops him from fleeing away from the magnae. So even if he knows in his mind that something’s severely wrong, his heart mains him, making him an idiot fool.
Sungmin’s still in shock, the thought of Kyuhyun now being owned by another person still won’t register in his mind.
It all happened so quickly that it all seemed impossible, but on moments he sees Kyuhyun with Ryeowook, it all starts to imprint in his mind that this isn't a dream. This is all happening, he had lost his Kyuhyun.
*
Sungmin lazily sits on the floor looking at his overly excited dongsaengs and hyungs. They we’re all gathered in the living room, as they wait for SM the ballad’s debut performance. He might not show it but deep inside he was as elated as well, he was so proud of Kyuhyun, but he knows that he has no right to do so anymore.
So he just silently waits for the group’s turn then he noticed Ryeowook giggling at the side while the other members are teasing him. He looked down at his phone and understood why.
He was burning with jealousy, as he gripped the phone tighter and tries his best to fight away his tears.
In this time, he’s thankful that his tears are pretty obedient, so he tried to push it farther inside, even in return is his heart drowning, suffocating him.
The clench in his heart is tightening, making him lose air to breathe but it all suddenly feels so light and hazy as he hears the voice that always brings him to eternal paradise.
Geureuritji mothaeso apahanayo (It hurts since I can’t forget that)
Geudaega isseul jariga yogin anin gayo (Looks like here is not the place where you’re supposed to be)
A smile suddenly crawls into his face, and he mentally chuckles at the thought of by only hearing the younger man's voice already makes his heart ecstatic.
Nareul wihan goramyon chameul piryon opjyo(You don’t have to hold back for me)
Onjen-gan kkeutnaboril teni (It all will end someday too anyway)
Nae sarangi jejariro oji mothago (My love just can’t seem to reach you)
Heulin nunmul mankeum molli ganeyo (Just as much as the amount of tears that flowed, it’s still far away to go)
Naneun ijoya hajyo geudae nomu geuriwo( I have to forget you, I miss you so much)
Nareul apeuge haljineun mollado ijoyo (Even if you never know how much it hurts, I will forget)
Memories of Kyuhyun singing to him, only for him as the younger man tells him how much he loves him then kisses him until they both fall asleep in each other’s arms comes flashing back into his mind. His heart cries in pain as he realizes how much he misses those moments. Now he asks in his mind, does it really have to end? Does he really have to forget all of it?
Babo gateun naran gol geudaen anayo (I’m a fool, you know me)
Gaseumi jjijojineunde useumman naojyo (My heart’s been ripped apart, but I can only smile)
Onjekkajirado nan gidaryo ( I’ll still be waiting for you till forever)
Nae nunmul gamchumyo (As I will keep hiding my tears)
Naega doraogin haneun gon-gayo (Would you come back to me?)
Nae sarangi jejariro oji mothago (My love just can’t seem to reach you)
Heulin nunmul mankeum molli ganeyo (Just as much as the amount of tears that flowed, it’s still far away to go)
Naneun ijoya hajyo geudae nomu geuriwo (I have to forget you, I miss you so much)
Nareul apeuge haljineun mollado ijoyo (Even if you never know how much it hurts, I will forget)
Ijoya haneun gon jiwoya haneun gon (To forget you, even to erase you)
[Jonghyun] Negen nomuna oryoun irijyo (For me they are very difficult things to do)
Nae sarangi jejariro oji mothago (My love just can’t seem to reach you)
Heulin nunmul mankeum molli ganeyo (Just as much as the amount of tears that flowed, it’s still far away to go)
Naneun ijoya hajyo geudae nomu geuriwo (I have to forget you, I miss you so much)
Nareul apeuge haljineun mollado ijoyo (Even if you never know how much it hurts, I will forget)
The other members are now screaming and spazzing around, telling how great Kyuhyun was but all that plays in his head is Kyuhyun’s voice sending millions of emotions in his heart.
Despite of the feeling of his heart being ripped apart, he tried to smile as he listens to the song until it reach it ends.
Now, is it their love that has to end?
He tilted his head to the man that now owns the man that once was his. He sees him talking to Kyuhyun at the phone and it slowly dawns into him the answer to all of his question.
He can’t take it anymore, he feels his shield starting to crumble so before he breaks down in front of the members, he silently went his way out of the dorm and ran away out from that place where he could throw off his mask and let out the stream that’s been killing him inside.
He was crying in one corner when he suddenly feels warm hands giving him soothing rubs at the back, making more of his tears escape from their hiding place.
“Sssh… Just let it all out.”
Sungmin settles on the comfort he finds on Eunhyuk’s arms. Even deep inside his heart still deeply longs for the comfort they’ve been used to.
After Sungmin have let out all of his tears he started breaking the silence.
“Hyuk, this is all my fault right?” Sungmin murmured softly.
“Who even gave you that idea?”
“ I- I can’t live without him, but I’m the one who pushed him away. This is my fault. I deserve all of this.”
Sungmin muttered as fresh tears starts to escape his eyes.
“No, Sungmin. This isn’t your fault. Don’t blame yourself, and no, you don’t deserve this. Remember that okay?” He lifted up Sungmin’s head hoping to send the message to his brain.
Sungmin looks at his friends eyes and was about to nod when they heard a faint cough
They both look up and were surprised to see Kyuhyun walking towards them.
“Shocks hyungs, get a room.”
Eunhyuk wanted to stand up and knock Kyuhyun for being disrespectful but Sungmin stopped him. So he just turned his head back to Sungmin and ignored the snarky magnae.
“That bastard!” Eunhyuk hugged Sungmin tighter and accompanied that looks even more crushed than he already was.
*
Sungmin was so exhausted from crying that he just wanted to slump his body at his bed and sleep. He was about to drift off to dreamland when he hear stifle giggles from the other side of the room. He noticed that it was from the new formed lover.
Ever since that moment Kyuhyun kissed Ryeowook, they’ve been irritably sweet in front of him. He doesn’t know why but there’s something in him that senses that Kyuhyun has been teasing him, but he just shrugs it off as he doesn’t want to expect and hurt himself more than he already is. So he just buried his head from his pillows, hoping it could block away the sounds that have been stomping his heart.
He was confused when the giggles were suddenly replaced by soft murmurs. He didn’t even wants to know what the two we’re talking about so he slumps his head farther, but what he heard next killed him.
Just when he thought that he had already experienced the greatest of pains and nothing could be even more extreme; he had just proven himself wrong as he feels his heart being thoroughly clenched, the pain he felt being doubled, tripled even, as he feels every inch of him being slowly killed bit by bit.
“Mmm.. Ah.. Kyu.. ngh stop.”
“Ssh.”
Sungmin could here Kyuhyun's giggles and Ryeowook’s moans getting louder. All as if mocking him, laughing at his sorrows.
It was too much that he swears he can’t really breathe anymore. So he bolted up from the bed and ran out of the door, trying to block the mocking sounds that have been echoing in his head, making his mind scrunched in pain.
He immediately closed the door and lets his legs fall down, as he try to scream all the pain out of him, wishing it could at least take even just a little pain with it because he seriously doesn’t know if he could still take the great amount of pain that’s been pooling inside him.
He can’t take the pain anymore as he screams and cries it away, not caring any longer of the other members seeing him.
He’s too broken that nothing matters anymore. He just wanted to let out all the pain, wishes to let out all the pain. He can’t take it, anymore as he pleads God to take it away. Someone, to please take it all away.
Ryeowook stood up from his position and badly wants to comfort his hyung. But he knows that he’s partly to blame by the pain of the other so he just stayed at his place, as guilt enraptures him. Even doubling, as he knows he can’t do anything as he listens to the screams and tears of pain that’s filling his ear.
He looked at Kyuhyun who was stilled on his place, since Sungmin left the room. As his mind and heart starts to argue on that familiar battle they had been having the past few weeks.
“Let’s sleep.” Kyuhyun suddenly murmured as he turns around to face the wall and brings the blanket into his head. His body slightly failing to hide his feelings as a lone tear escapes from his eyes.
haha i think it's pretty obvious on what's my inspirations are for this fic haha
sorry for the weird scenes like d Min Hyuk scenes.. i was also asking, how long was they even there that Kyuhyun was already home?! haha ( me even revealing my mistakes.. woah! haha)
at least they ended happy in CLYG ryt?.. no? okay runs away