If the Feeling is Gone (Chap. 8)
TITLE : If the Feeling is Gone (Chap. 8)
length : Chaptered
pairing : KyuMin (Kyuhyun & Sungmin), Siwon & Heechul
genre : romance, drama, fluff
rating : PG-13
summary: Could it be possible for Sungmin to fall in love that fast?
a/n: No Beta... mlss_he 's pc is broken at the moment... so i decided to post it already.. i hope your pc wud be fixed soon bb... so i'll just dedicate this chap to you even if it's a crap! haha hugs!
and also dedicating this to casanova7 and fumikux3 because they say they'll wait for it.. sorry if i cut it,.. this was supposed to end until the oh so obvious next part but my hand and head hurts haha.. anyways.. i hope ul still enjoy it? :( haha
chap.7
Sungmin didn’t know when it actually started, was it that night Kyuhyun asked him for dinner? Or was it that night he held his hands… maybe it was when Kyuhyun hugged him that he can’t sleep all night still feeling the wonderful feeling of the lingering warmth of Kyuhyun all trough out his body.
He’s not really sure when, all he knows is he can’t get Kyuhyun off his mind, no matter how hard he tries he can’t erase Kyuhyun in his heart, those crazy feelings he felt just slowly grows into something he’s now certain of. That he is in love with Cho Kyuhyun. He’s madly head over heels in love with his boss and it feels amazing.
**
Kyuhyun is lounging on his chair, head aching with the pile of work presented to him. He really loves this job, but it can be really stressful at times.
His frown was immediately replaced with a smile when his secretary went inside, a cup of coffee in hand. All his stress and exhaustion seems to fade just seeing Sungmin smiling towards him. Everything feels so calm and fine.
“You should take a break and relax a bit Sir.. too much stress is bad” Sungmin muttered as he set the coffee in front of Kyuhyun.
He was about to leave when he felt his heart suddenly jumped out of his body as he felt Kyuhyun slowly wrapped his arms at his waist and rest his head on Sungmin’s tummy.
“S- sir?” Sungmin managed to say despite the fast beating of his heart.
“Sssh.. You told me to relax right?” Sungmin can’t help but blush hard as Kyuhyun tightened his hug, being comfortable at his position. Sungmin doesn’t know what to do but his hands as if with a mind of its own, rested at Kyuhyun’s back and started stroking it lovingly, making Kyuhyun’s smile widen, both wishing for the time to stop and they could just stay there for the rest of their lives.
Sungmin loved the relaxing breeze Kyuhyun’s scent and warmth brings to his soul but as much as he hated it, he knows he has to let go of it anytime soon. “Sir.. We need to go back to work.” Kyuhyun just groan in protest “Im your boss and I order you to stay here.” Sungmin chuckled at Kyuhyun’s childishness. “But being a pillow isn’t part of my work SIR Kyuhyun-ssi”
Kyuhyun laughed back, savoring Sungmin’s comfort for a last second before letting go. “I guess I just need to pay for this then.” Sungmin looked at Kyuhyun with a confused look.
“How about dinner tonight?” Sungmin suddenly felt his heart smile nodding in return, melting with Kyuhyun’s lovely gaze. Kyuhyun just smiled back as Sungmin went towards the door while he came back to his work all charged up and inspired having something to look forward for the day.
**
Sungmin keep on looking at his watch as if wishing that he could just magically speed up the time, anticipating the night to come.
“Looks like someone has a date” Sungmin looked up to see the owner of the voice and saw Heechul, Siwon’s boyfriend that he once taught was a girl, sexily leaning on his desk. Well it’s not really his fault to think so. Heechul has a long slender body matched with flawless milky white skin that could make him easily pass as a girl, added with his lovely lashes and smile with the touch of alluring aura, a perfect match for Siwon’s manly appearance and perfectly built body. They’re a match made in heaven, which makes Sungmin think of Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun is perfect! He has the looks no one can rival with added with the height, and the brains to top it all. And he could go on and on all day, telling reasons how perfect that man is, which made him think if a simple guy like him deserves such.
“It’s not a date.”
“Yah right!” Heechul rolled his eyes not believing in Sungmin. “It’s too obvious that you guys are dating. What do you call all those dinners and night out together then?” Sungmin just lowered his head not knowing what to answer.”
Their conversation was stopped when Kyuhyun came bolting out of the office.
“Sir?” Sungmin asked but seems Kyuhyun didn’t hear him because he just continued his steps without a word leaving the two confused.
“Where is that guy going? It’s still early.” Heechul murmured looking at the clock. “Well looks like there really is no date.” He then left, leaving Sungmin alone and more confused. Maybe he’s still coming back? Sungmin tried to assured himself but his questions was later on changed to Maybe he forgot? Or Maybe something important came up? When it’s already way past office hours making Sungmin went home with a depressed heart.
Sungmin has spent all the night assuring himself that there’s indeed a good reason why Kyuhyun just left without a word, completely forgetting the dinner he promised. Yet the wall he built can’t help but stumble down with his boss’ sudden change of attitude the next day.
Kyuhyun was suddenly backed to being hot headed, greeting Sungmin with a bad temper.
“Haven’t I told you to do that a week ago?! Shouldn’t that be done by now?!” Sungmin flinch, scared at this side of Kyuhyun making him not being able to utter a word.
“Look! Not just because I’m being nice to you, you’ll act as if you can just go taking advantage of it. Remember you’re just my secretary!” Sungmin was taken a back with Kyuhyun’s words. Each word waking him up to his make up dream. His tears started to drop, each tear dropping from him is as if each happiness slowly being taken away, being replaced with immense pain.
Even Kyuhyun was shock with his own words, only realizing how much a fool he was seeing the man in front of him in tears. He saw the pain in Sungmin’s eyes that he wants to kill himself at that moment for bringing pain on such beautiful soul who doesn’t deserve this. “Sungmin… I..”
“Kyuhyun! Is it.. “ Kyuhyun dind’t had the chance to say what he felt when Siwon came rushing in his office making Sungmin escape from that cruel moment. Kyuhyun wanted to ran after him and say how sorry he is, say that he didn’t mean any of it, that he doesn’t meant nor want to hurt him ever; but his feet just won’t move making Kyuhyun bolt up in frustration banging whatever he could to release even just a little frustration in his system. Though, even the sound of fallen things and shattered glasses doesn’t make the anger and regret he felt falter even a bit.
“Looks like what I heard is true. What the heck is wrong with you?!”
“Shut up!!”
“Look! Could you just get out?!” Siwon was shock making him speechless and stilled in his place. “GET OUT!”
He was immediately woken up with Kyuhyun increasing his tone higher. Making him mad at the other’s attitude even deep inside he could still feel the want to just run to his baby brother and comfort him from the pain he is in.
“I just hope you won’t realize that there’s actually people who cares and loves you when it’s already too late and you have already pushed each of them away.”
Siwon then left, leaving Kyuhyun more furious, furious of himself for acting that way. He doesn’t know what’s gotten into him. He knows and acknowledges the people who care for him, who always stay by his side making him happy. Siwon, Sungmin.. Sungmin, Sungmin’s name kept repeating on his head making him realize how much a fool he really is. Sungmin had brought him back his life, had brought him back his smiles, the light in his heart and the reason to live but what he did was push him away. After all the wonderful things that Sungmin gave him, what he gave in return is pain. And Sungmin doesn’t deserve that.
He slowly gets his phone hesitant at first but the burning desire on his heart to see Sungmin’s smile again is enough for him to continue. His hands are shaking with every ring vibrating in his ears. And his heart was almost crushed when the ringing stopped and only the sound of an irritating girl repeatedly saying whatever that’s already not registering in his mind greeted him. He hang up. A tear suddenly stroll down from his face.
His heart hurts but then understands the other, even he is angry of himself right now. But he wanted to see and explain himself to Sungmin badly so he choked back his tears and dialed another number. A pinch of hope was brought into him when it was answered. “Hyung?
**
Sungmin loves to have occasional wines every now and then but he isn’t really much of a drinker, knowing that his alcohol tolerance is low. But he has no energy to resist when Siwon and Heechul asked him out for a drink. All he could feel is his strongly aching heart that his mind isn’t functioning anymore. He felt like a dead corpse and the only thing alive from his lifeless body is his heart, alive to make him feel each and every bit of punches and blade, sending agonizing pain he never taught he could feel. He did only felt the outmost happiness, sending him in heavens from Kyuhyun but it only dawned into him that also he could give him the exact opposite, pain like hell.
“Sungmin..” Sungmin’s lifeless body as if immediately woke up upon hearing the voice it knows so well of. It’s funny how could Kyuhyun can bring him two intense polar opposite emotions and at the same time bring two opposites together making Sungmin frustrated at the power Kyuhyun has over him. Being in immense pain yet he can’t help to feel small butterflies flying over his wounded heart by just hearing and the mere taught of his presence. But then, along with the sweet butterflies are bees stinging him with the thought that he’s a crazy fool longing for someone he can never have.
He’s afraid to make a bigger fool of himself than he already is and he knows that’s what would he make himself when he face Kyuhyun. So he stayed on his place sending stares to Siwon with the feeling of betrayal. Siwon bit his lips shaking his head “I Swear, I didn’t.”
“Yah.. I did, so stop staring at my Siwon like that!”
Both gazes were turn into Heechul who just returned them an innocent look. “What?”
“Kim Heechul!” Siwon mutter firmly, scolding his lover.
“Look, we both know that they do need to talk. Can’t you see how miserable they both look right now?!”
Siwon stared at the two and indeed agree at Heechul and it hurts for him to see how broken they are.
“Sungmin.. Heechul’s right, you guys need to talk. We’ll be leaving the two of you to sort things out.” He was about to leave but then saw Sungmin tensed so he put his hands at the others’ shoulder hoping to relax him a bit. “Im sorry, but this is for the better.” He then turned around making him face his brother. He exhaled before enrapturing the other in a hug and patted his back. No matter how mad he is with Kyuhyun, he loves and cares for him so much, so with just Kyuhyun returning the hug is already an enough apology for him. He then smiled after breaking the hug giving his brother another pat before leaving with Heechul.
Suingmin felt his almost dead heart beating uncontrollably when Kyuhyun occupied the seat next to him, making his once lifeless body suddenly feel the agonizing heat of the bar they we’re in, making sweat flood all trough his body. He could feel his throat drying up, making him grab and gulp down the glass of alcohol in front of him. He greatly welcomed the stinging pain in his body, hoping it could at least over power the pain in his heart.
Kyuhyun’s eyes widen when Sungmin was about to bring the bottle of beer in his mouth, immediately grabbing Sungmin’s hands to stop him.
“Yah! You have no right to stop me!” Sungmin jerked Kyuhyun’s hands away, swallowing the content of the bottle in one go. Kyuhyun grab the bottle before Sungmin could finish it, making Sungmin furious trying to get the bottle back. “Stop it! Your drank!” Kyuhyun was worried seeing the hurt he caused Sungmin, making guilt running over him. “I’m.. I’m sorry.”
“Why are you saying sorry?! What you said was just a given fact anyway. I was just too much of a fool to forget it. I should be even thanking you for reminding it to me.” Sungmin laughed but Kyuhyun could still clearly see the hurt in his eyes making him feel guiltier.
Then Sungmin pout making Kyuhyun mentally smack himself for still having the time to think how cute Sungmin is in such situation. “But you do have to say sorry for getting my bottle. So give it back! I want it back!” Sungmin whined getting the bottle well more like the air. “Your drank, let me bring you home.”
“Noooooooooo.. im not ra..nk. I want mowr!” Sungmin started screaming like a baby wanting to have his milk making Kyuhyun frustrated. So he gulped down the remaining alcohol in the bottle before swiftly carrying a protesting Sungmin and bringing him in his car.
chap.9
length : Chaptered
pairing : KyuMin (Kyuhyun & Sungmin), Siwon & Heechul
genre : romance, drama, fluff
rating : PG-13
summary: Could it be possible for Sungmin to fall in love that fast?
a/n: No Beta... mlss_he 's pc is broken at the moment... so i decided to post it already.. i hope your pc wud be fixed soon bb... so i'll just dedicate this chap to you even if it's a crap! haha hugs!
and also dedicating this to casanova7 and fumikux3 because they say they'll wait for it.. sorry if i cut it,.. this was supposed to end until the oh so obvious next part but my hand and head hurts haha.. anyways.. i hope ul still enjoy it? :( haha
chap.7
Sungmin didn’t know when it actually started, was it that night Kyuhyun asked him for dinner? Or was it that night he held his hands… maybe it was when Kyuhyun hugged him that he can’t sleep all night still feeling the wonderful feeling of the lingering warmth of Kyuhyun all trough out his body.
He’s not really sure when, all he knows is he can’t get Kyuhyun off his mind, no matter how hard he tries he can’t erase Kyuhyun in his heart, those crazy feelings he felt just slowly grows into something he’s now certain of. That he is in love with Cho Kyuhyun. He’s madly head over heels in love with his boss and it feels amazing.
**
Kyuhyun is lounging on his chair, head aching with the pile of work presented to him. He really loves this job, but it can be really stressful at times.
His frown was immediately replaced with a smile when his secretary went inside, a cup of coffee in hand. All his stress and exhaustion seems to fade just seeing Sungmin smiling towards him. Everything feels so calm and fine.
“You should take a break and relax a bit Sir.. too much stress is bad” Sungmin muttered as he set the coffee in front of Kyuhyun.
He was about to leave when he felt his heart suddenly jumped out of his body as he felt Kyuhyun slowly wrapped his arms at his waist and rest his head on Sungmin’s tummy.
“S- sir?” Sungmin managed to say despite the fast beating of his heart.
“Sssh.. You told me to relax right?” Sungmin can’t help but blush hard as Kyuhyun tightened his hug, being comfortable at his position. Sungmin doesn’t know what to do but his hands as if with a mind of its own, rested at Kyuhyun’s back and started stroking it lovingly, making Kyuhyun’s smile widen, both wishing for the time to stop and they could just stay there for the rest of their lives.
Sungmin loved the relaxing breeze Kyuhyun’s scent and warmth brings to his soul but as much as he hated it, he knows he has to let go of it anytime soon. “Sir.. We need to go back to work.” Kyuhyun just groan in protest “Im your boss and I order you to stay here.” Sungmin chuckled at Kyuhyun’s childishness. “But being a pillow isn’t part of my work SIR Kyuhyun-ssi”
Kyuhyun laughed back, savoring Sungmin’s comfort for a last second before letting go. “I guess I just need to pay for this then.” Sungmin looked at Kyuhyun with a confused look.
“How about dinner tonight?” Sungmin suddenly felt his heart smile nodding in return, melting with Kyuhyun’s lovely gaze. Kyuhyun just smiled back as Sungmin went towards the door while he came back to his work all charged up and inspired having something to look forward for the day.
**
Sungmin keep on looking at his watch as if wishing that he could just magically speed up the time, anticipating the night to come.
“Looks like someone has a date” Sungmin looked up to see the owner of the voice and saw Heechul, Siwon’s boyfriend that he once taught was a girl, sexily leaning on his desk. Well it’s not really his fault to think so. Heechul has a long slender body matched with flawless milky white skin that could make him easily pass as a girl, added with his lovely lashes and smile with the touch of alluring aura, a perfect match for Siwon’s manly appearance and perfectly built body. They’re a match made in heaven, which makes Sungmin think of Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun is perfect! He has the looks no one can rival with added with the height, and the brains to top it all. And he could go on and on all day, telling reasons how perfect that man is, which made him think if a simple guy like him deserves such.
“It’s not a date.”
“Yah right!” Heechul rolled his eyes not believing in Sungmin. “It’s too obvious that you guys are dating. What do you call all those dinners and night out together then?” Sungmin just lowered his head not knowing what to answer.”
Their conversation was stopped when Kyuhyun came bolting out of the office.
“Sir?” Sungmin asked but seems Kyuhyun didn’t hear him because he just continued his steps without a word leaving the two confused.
“Where is that guy going? It’s still early.” Heechul murmured looking at the clock. “Well looks like there really is no date.” He then left, leaving Sungmin alone and more confused. Maybe he’s still coming back? Sungmin tried to assured himself but his questions was later on changed to Maybe he forgot? Or Maybe something important came up? When it’s already way past office hours making Sungmin went home with a depressed heart.
Sungmin has spent all the night assuring himself that there’s indeed a good reason why Kyuhyun just left without a word, completely forgetting the dinner he promised. Yet the wall he built can’t help but stumble down with his boss’ sudden change of attitude the next day.
Kyuhyun was suddenly backed to being hot headed, greeting Sungmin with a bad temper.
“Haven’t I told you to do that a week ago?! Shouldn’t that be done by now?!” Sungmin flinch, scared at this side of Kyuhyun making him not being able to utter a word.
“Look! Not just because I’m being nice to you, you’ll act as if you can just go taking advantage of it. Remember you’re just my secretary!” Sungmin was taken a back with Kyuhyun’s words. Each word waking him up to his make up dream. His tears started to drop, each tear dropping from him is as if each happiness slowly being taken away, being replaced with immense pain.
Even Kyuhyun was shock with his own words, only realizing how much a fool he was seeing the man in front of him in tears. He saw the pain in Sungmin’s eyes that he wants to kill himself at that moment for bringing pain on such beautiful soul who doesn’t deserve this. “Sungmin… I..”
“Kyuhyun! Is it.. “ Kyuhyun dind’t had the chance to say what he felt when Siwon came rushing in his office making Sungmin escape from that cruel moment. Kyuhyun wanted to ran after him and say how sorry he is, say that he didn’t mean any of it, that he doesn’t meant nor want to hurt him ever; but his feet just won’t move making Kyuhyun bolt up in frustration banging whatever he could to release even just a little frustration in his system. Though, even the sound of fallen things and shattered glasses doesn’t make the anger and regret he felt falter even a bit.
“Looks like what I heard is true. What the heck is wrong with you?!”
“Shut up!!”
“Look! Could you just get out?!” Siwon was shock making him speechless and stilled in his place. “GET OUT!”
He was immediately woken up with Kyuhyun increasing his tone higher. Making him mad at the other’s attitude even deep inside he could still feel the want to just run to his baby brother and comfort him from the pain he is in.
“I just hope you won’t realize that there’s actually people who cares and loves you when it’s already too late and you have already pushed each of them away.”
Siwon then left, leaving Kyuhyun more furious, furious of himself for acting that way. He doesn’t know what’s gotten into him. He knows and acknowledges the people who care for him, who always stay by his side making him happy. Siwon, Sungmin.. Sungmin, Sungmin’s name kept repeating on his head making him realize how much a fool he really is. Sungmin had brought him back his life, had brought him back his smiles, the light in his heart and the reason to live but what he did was push him away. After all the wonderful things that Sungmin gave him, what he gave in return is pain. And Sungmin doesn’t deserve that.
He slowly gets his phone hesitant at first but the burning desire on his heart to see Sungmin’s smile again is enough for him to continue. His hands are shaking with every ring vibrating in his ears. And his heart was almost crushed when the ringing stopped and only the sound of an irritating girl repeatedly saying whatever that’s already not registering in his mind greeted him. He hang up. A tear suddenly stroll down from his face.
His heart hurts but then understands the other, even he is angry of himself right now. But he wanted to see and explain himself to Sungmin badly so he choked back his tears and dialed another number. A pinch of hope was brought into him when it was answered. “Hyung?
**
Sungmin loves to have occasional wines every now and then but he isn’t really much of a drinker, knowing that his alcohol tolerance is low. But he has no energy to resist when Siwon and Heechul asked him out for a drink. All he could feel is his strongly aching heart that his mind isn’t functioning anymore. He felt like a dead corpse and the only thing alive from his lifeless body is his heart, alive to make him feel each and every bit of punches and blade, sending agonizing pain he never taught he could feel. He did only felt the outmost happiness, sending him in heavens from Kyuhyun but it only dawned into him that also he could give him the exact opposite, pain like hell.
“Sungmin..” Sungmin’s lifeless body as if immediately woke up upon hearing the voice it knows so well of. It’s funny how could Kyuhyun can bring him two intense polar opposite emotions and at the same time bring two opposites together making Sungmin frustrated at the power Kyuhyun has over him. Being in immense pain yet he can’t help to feel small butterflies flying over his wounded heart by just hearing and the mere taught of his presence. But then, along with the sweet butterflies are bees stinging him with the thought that he’s a crazy fool longing for someone he can never have.
He’s afraid to make a bigger fool of himself than he already is and he knows that’s what would he make himself when he face Kyuhyun. So he stayed on his place sending stares to Siwon with the feeling of betrayal. Siwon bit his lips shaking his head “I Swear, I didn’t.”
“Yah.. I did, so stop staring at my Siwon like that!”
Both gazes were turn into Heechul who just returned them an innocent look. “What?”
“Kim Heechul!” Siwon mutter firmly, scolding his lover.
“Look, we both know that they do need to talk. Can’t you see how miserable they both look right now?!”
Siwon stared at the two and indeed agree at Heechul and it hurts for him to see how broken they are.
“Sungmin.. Heechul’s right, you guys need to talk. We’ll be leaving the two of you to sort things out.” He was about to leave but then saw Sungmin tensed so he put his hands at the others’ shoulder hoping to relax him a bit. “Im sorry, but this is for the better.” He then turned around making him face his brother. He exhaled before enrapturing the other in a hug and patted his back. No matter how mad he is with Kyuhyun, he loves and cares for him so much, so with just Kyuhyun returning the hug is already an enough apology for him. He then smiled after breaking the hug giving his brother another pat before leaving with Heechul.
Suingmin felt his almost dead heart beating uncontrollably when Kyuhyun occupied the seat next to him, making his once lifeless body suddenly feel the agonizing heat of the bar they we’re in, making sweat flood all trough his body. He could feel his throat drying up, making him grab and gulp down the glass of alcohol in front of him. He greatly welcomed the stinging pain in his body, hoping it could at least over power the pain in his heart.
Kyuhyun’s eyes widen when Sungmin was about to bring the bottle of beer in his mouth, immediately grabbing Sungmin’s hands to stop him.
“Yah! You have no right to stop me!” Sungmin jerked Kyuhyun’s hands away, swallowing the content of the bottle in one go. Kyuhyun grab the bottle before Sungmin could finish it, making Sungmin furious trying to get the bottle back. “Stop it! Your drank!” Kyuhyun was worried seeing the hurt he caused Sungmin, making guilt running over him. “I’m.. I’m sorry.”
“Why are you saying sorry?! What you said was just a given fact anyway. I was just too much of a fool to forget it. I should be even thanking you for reminding it to me.” Sungmin laughed but Kyuhyun could still clearly see the hurt in his eyes making him feel guiltier.
Then Sungmin pout making Kyuhyun mentally smack himself for still having the time to think how cute Sungmin is in such situation. “But you do have to say sorry for getting my bottle. So give it back! I want it back!” Sungmin whined getting the bottle well more like the air. “Your drank, let me bring you home.”
“Noooooooooo.. im not ra..nk. I want mowr!” Sungmin started screaming like a baby wanting to have his milk making Kyuhyun frustrated. So he gulped down the remaining alcohol in the bottle before swiftly carrying a protesting Sungmin and bringing him in his car.
chap.9