TITLE : If the Feeling is Gone (Chap. 10)
TITLE : If the Feeling is Gone (Chap. 10)
length : Chaptered; 1309 words
pairing/characters : KyuMin (Kyuhyun & Sungmin), KyuWook, Yesung
genre : drama,
rating : PG-13
CHAP.1 /CHAP.2 /CHAP.3 /CHAP.4 /CHAP.5 /CHAP.6/CHAP.7 /CHAP.8 /CHAP.9
a/n: after 9 months! (im betting no one remembers dis >< >< >< T.T)
i almost thought i wont finish dis in tym , well was supposed to post dis for my lj anniv.. but i seriously think dat dis isnt "anniversary-worthy" (>> really short sorry = = ) .. but who knows.. i myt actualy finish anader one by den.. no promises thou ^^"
beta by lavender_lace12 thank you soo much!!!!
The whole room suddenly became hotter like hell; opposite from the heaven-like feeling it exudes when Kyuhyun walked in earlier.
The young man could feel his heart beating like a drum that he didn’t notice his feet acting on its own and has already found its way to the figure.
Hot tears slid from his eyes as he enraptures the other’s cold and way much thinner body. His heart breaks, not remembering Ryeowook being this fragile before, too fragile as though he would break in a snap.
But his heart relaxes as he remembers that familiar warmth that used to be the only thing he needed for living.
When he first received an email from the other guy, simply stating that he’ll be back, he was enraged. He hated the guy for leaving him just like that, and now he even has the nerve, to express his want to come back as if nothing happened? Memories of the times when he was still hurting came flashing, that he concluded to never want the man back in his life again.
But now… now that the man is in front of him, body fitting perfectly in his arms, as if knowing that it once belonged there, their hearts once a perfect match, like two puzzles that would only be complete if matched with the other; he realizes that he really can’t bear that feeling of hatred for him. The guy was too special, too precious that it encompasses all the pain he brought upon him.
But still, there’s this one question that had been forever bugging him.
“Why?” He felt a huge thorn being pulled off from his body as the question escapes his lips. Months of silently asking that to himself piled so much pain in his heart, that it feels so great to finally let it out.
“Why?” He asked again, this time much louder, and the pain more visible, making the man in his arms flinch.
The younger broke the hug and looked at Kyuhyun’s face with so much guilt… too many words… apologies that wanted to be said.
He was about to speak when he realized they weren’t alone in the room.
Kyuhyun gasped as he realized who was with them. He was too caught up at the reunion that he didn’t hear the heart silently breaking at the mere sight of them.
“S..Sungmin” His heart breaks as he looks at said man’s eyes, those eyes that were full of joy and happiness earlier, now bear questions... pain.
“I.. I’m sorry.. I’ll be leaving the two of you.” Sungmin murmured as he finally found a way to speak through the bottled tears that were now flooding down his chest, making it hard for him to breathe.
He bowed down and was about to walk away when he felt a tight grip in his arm, preventing him from going further. He tilted his head upwards and met Kyuhyun’s eyes, staring firmly to his as if delivering a silent plead, asking him to stay, begging him to stay.
“I’m sorry, am I interrupting something? Ill just come back some other time.”
“-No wait!” Kyuhyun shouted, preventing Ryeowook from stepping further. He stared at Ryeowook, also wanting him to stay, he can’t let him go, not now that he has the chance to have the answers to all the questions that have been bugging him for far too long, but… Sungmin… He then shifted his gaze to said guy as his grip on the other’s hand tightened, and that burning sensation in his heart came lighting up again.
Ryeowook stared at the two figures and he felt sharp daggers stabbing him as he sees how the two looks at each other, he knows that kind of look Kyuhyun has for Sungmin. He remembers when he was once on the other end, and it breaks his fragile heart, wondering if he’s already too late. Not knowing how to bare the pain by looking at the two, he decided to walk out of the room and leave. But by instinct, Kyuhyun quickly held Ryeowook to prevent him from scooting outside, however, by doing so he didn’t realize that he had let go of Sungmin’ s hand.
*
Kyuhyun looked at the empty space Sungmin left and he couldn’t deny the emptiness he suddenly felt.
He looked at Ryeowook and then back to the empty space. He bit his lip as his head hurt at the tug of war his thoughts were in, so in the end he gave up by letting go of the other side of the rope, letting the other side of his thoughts fall freely from his mind. It can wait.
He gave an apologetic smile to Ryeowook before dashing his way out of the room in search for Sungmin.
*
His breathing quickened in its pace as he looked for Sungmin at every corner of the building, not caring over the questioning stares his workers were throwing at him.
He was already panting hard when he reached the lobby, but he didn’t stop as he grabbed on one of the guards at the entrance and ask him if he saw Lee Sungmin, his secretary.
“I.. I saw him walk out of the building a few minutes ago Sir Cho.” The guard stuttered at the sudden appearance of his boss, but then added, “He.. he was crying and..” He trailed off as Kyuhyun’s body slumped on the floor, his body weakening as he imagined Sungmin crying… all because of him. Sungmin had always given him joy but all he ever gave him was pain.
Determined to kiss Sungmin’s pain away, he bolted up from his miserable state and ran to the parking lot with the intention of following Sungmin, but he was stopped as he was about to open the door of his sleek car.
He glared at the intruder and he wanted to hit the man right there and then when he saw who it was. It was the guy from earlier who was also the one who interrupted him from his supposed to be sweet confession to Sungmin. This guy sure knows good timing, huh?
“What now?!” he screamed, not even caring to hide his irritation over the other.
“I’m Kim Jongwoon, I’m Ryeowook’s friend.”
“So!?” Kyuhyun blurted out, he didn’t meant to be rude, but this guy really irks him to the bone.
“We need to talk.” The Jongwoon guy said firmly, not caring about Kyuhyun’s attitude.
“Look can we talk another time? I have something important to do.” He was about to enter the car but Yesung pulled him. “Please... just give me a minute” Kyuhyun stared at the other guy now seeing the desperation on his hot coal eyes.
“Please”
*
Kyuhyun is now on his car, his heart heavy with tears as Jongwoon’s words clearly played on repeat in his mind. How he felt stupid for not knowing all along, guilty for actually hating Ryeowook when the guy didn’t deserve it at all. His head hurts from all the thoughts that were swimming in his head, making him want to just break free.
He stopped his car when the light suddenly turned red and his face visibly became paler when he realized why this road always seemed so familiar. He looked at one side, the road that’ll bring him to Ryeowook.
Then he looked at the other side, where he knew will bring him to where his heart is, to Sungmin.
The light turned Yellow. A drop of sweat dripped from the side of his face, his knuckles turned white as he tightened his grip at the steering wheel, trying to calm the fast beating of his heart.
The light turned green. He closed his eyes, trying to tell himself that this is the right decision before opening it again and turning left.
length : Chaptered; 1309 words
pairing/characters : KyuMin (Kyuhyun & Sungmin), KyuWook, Yesung
genre : drama,
rating : PG-13
CHAP.1 /CHAP.2 /CHAP.3 /CHAP.4 /CHAP.5 /CHAP.6/CHAP.7 /CHAP.8 /CHAP.9
a/n: after 9 months! (im betting no one remembers dis >< >< >< T.T)
i almost thought i wont finish dis in tym , well was supposed to post dis for my lj anniv.. but i seriously think dat dis isnt "anniversary-worthy" (>> really short sorry = = ) .. but who knows.. i myt actualy finish anader one by den.. no promises thou ^^"
beta by lavender_lace12 thank you soo much!!!!
The whole room suddenly became hotter like hell; opposite from the heaven-like feeling it exudes when Kyuhyun walked in earlier.
The young man could feel his heart beating like a drum that he didn’t notice his feet acting on its own and has already found its way to the figure.
Hot tears slid from his eyes as he enraptures the other’s cold and way much thinner body. His heart breaks, not remembering Ryeowook being this fragile before, too fragile as though he would break in a snap.
But his heart relaxes as he remembers that familiar warmth that used to be the only thing he needed for living.
When he first received an email from the other guy, simply stating that he’ll be back, he was enraged. He hated the guy for leaving him just like that, and now he even has the nerve, to express his want to come back as if nothing happened? Memories of the times when he was still hurting came flashing, that he concluded to never want the man back in his life again.
But now… now that the man is in front of him, body fitting perfectly in his arms, as if knowing that it once belonged there, their hearts once a perfect match, like two puzzles that would only be complete if matched with the other; he realizes that he really can’t bear that feeling of hatred for him. The guy was too special, too precious that it encompasses all the pain he brought upon him.
But still, there’s this one question that had been forever bugging him.
“Why?” He felt a huge thorn being pulled off from his body as the question escapes his lips. Months of silently asking that to himself piled so much pain in his heart, that it feels so great to finally let it out.
“Why?” He asked again, this time much louder, and the pain more visible, making the man in his arms flinch.
The younger broke the hug and looked at Kyuhyun’s face with so much guilt… too many words… apologies that wanted to be said.
He was about to speak when he realized they weren’t alone in the room.
Kyuhyun gasped as he realized who was with them. He was too caught up at the reunion that he didn’t hear the heart silently breaking at the mere sight of them.
“S..Sungmin” His heart breaks as he looks at said man’s eyes, those eyes that were full of joy and happiness earlier, now bear questions... pain.
“I.. I’m sorry.. I’ll be leaving the two of you.” Sungmin murmured as he finally found a way to speak through the bottled tears that were now flooding down his chest, making it hard for him to breathe.
He bowed down and was about to walk away when he felt a tight grip in his arm, preventing him from going further. He tilted his head upwards and met Kyuhyun’s eyes, staring firmly to his as if delivering a silent plead, asking him to stay, begging him to stay.
“I’m sorry, am I interrupting something? Ill just come back some other time.”
“-No wait!” Kyuhyun shouted, preventing Ryeowook from stepping further. He stared at Ryeowook, also wanting him to stay, he can’t let him go, not now that he has the chance to have the answers to all the questions that have been bugging him for far too long, but… Sungmin… He then shifted his gaze to said guy as his grip on the other’s hand tightened, and that burning sensation in his heart came lighting up again.
Ryeowook stared at the two figures and he felt sharp daggers stabbing him as he sees how the two looks at each other, he knows that kind of look Kyuhyun has for Sungmin. He remembers when he was once on the other end, and it breaks his fragile heart, wondering if he’s already too late. Not knowing how to bare the pain by looking at the two, he decided to walk out of the room and leave. But by instinct, Kyuhyun quickly held Ryeowook to prevent him from scooting outside, however, by doing so he didn’t realize that he had let go of Sungmin’ s hand.
*
Kyuhyun looked at the empty space Sungmin left and he couldn’t deny the emptiness he suddenly felt.
He looked at Ryeowook and then back to the empty space. He bit his lip as his head hurt at the tug of war his thoughts were in, so in the end he gave up by letting go of the other side of the rope, letting the other side of his thoughts fall freely from his mind. It can wait.
He gave an apologetic smile to Ryeowook before dashing his way out of the room in search for Sungmin.
*
His breathing quickened in its pace as he looked for Sungmin at every corner of the building, not caring over the questioning stares his workers were throwing at him.
He was already panting hard when he reached the lobby, but he didn’t stop as he grabbed on one of the guards at the entrance and ask him if he saw Lee Sungmin, his secretary.
“I.. I saw him walk out of the building a few minutes ago Sir Cho.” The guard stuttered at the sudden appearance of his boss, but then added, “He.. he was crying and..” He trailed off as Kyuhyun’s body slumped on the floor, his body weakening as he imagined Sungmin crying… all because of him. Sungmin had always given him joy but all he ever gave him was pain.
Determined to kiss Sungmin’s pain away, he bolted up from his miserable state and ran to the parking lot with the intention of following Sungmin, but he was stopped as he was about to open the door of his sleek car.
He glared at the intruder and he wanted to hit the man right there and then when he saw who it was. It was the guy from earlier who was also the one who interrupted him from his supposed to be sweet confession to Sungmin. This guy sure knows good timing, huh?
“What now?!” he screamed, not even caring to hide his irritation over the other.
“I’m Kim Jongwoon, I’m Ryeowook’s friend.”
“So!?” Kyuhyun blurted out, he didn’t meant to be rude, but this guy really irks him to the bone.
“We need to talk.” The Jongwoon guy said firmly, not caring about Kyuhyun’s attitude.
“Look can we talk another time? I have something important to do.” He was about to enter the car but Yesung pulled him. “Please... just give me a minute” Kyuhyun stared at the other guy now seeing the desperation on his hot coal eyes.
“Please”
*
Kyuhyun is now on his car, his heart heavy with tears as Jongwoon’s words clearly played on repeat in his mind. How he felt stupid for not knowing all along, guilty for actually hating Ryeowook when the guy didn’t deserve it at all. His head hurts from all the thoughts that were swimming in his head, making him want to just break free.
He stopped his car when the light suddenly turned red and his face visibly became paler when he realized why this road always seemed so familiar. He looked at one side, the road that’ll bring him to Ryeowook.
Then he looked at the other side, where he knew will bring him to where his heart is, to Sungmin.
The light turned Yellow. A drop of sweat dripped from the side of his face, his knuckles turned white as he tightened his grip at the steering wheel, trying to calm the fast beating of his heart.
The light turned green. He closed his eyes, trying to tell himself that this is the right decision before opening it again and turning left.