please take me away
I just had a miserable internal battle over whether to call Eric. and I said no. I hate this. I want to go home, right now. right this instant. I can't stand being here any longer. I'm gonna lose it.
meanwhile I lost another 8 hour shift today because of the snow. goddammit.
I'm listening to simple plan. this is really ridiculous. I want to paint but I'd rather sleep. I miss people. I miss being touched. I get no affection on a constant basis like I do at school. this is torture.
I'm going to sleep.
not holding your hand is even worse, knowing it's going to be that much harder to show you how I feel when I go back, wishing you'd change your mind but knowing you won't. but I can't help how I feel. I can't just turn it off. so I only hope you'll just humor me for awhile.
meanwhile I lost another 8 hour shift today because of the snow. goddammit.
I'm listening to simple plan. this is really ridiculous. I want to paint but I'd rather sleep. I miss people. I miss being touched. I get no affection on a constant basis like I do at school. this is torture.
I'm going to sleep.
not holding your hand is even worse, knowing it's going to be that much harder to show you how I feel when I go back, wishing you'd change your mind but knowing you won't. but I can't help how I feel. I can't just turn it off. so I only hope you'll just humor me for awhile.