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again with the need to cry and the lack of tears.
I find it discouraging that when something emotionally cleansing needs to happen, your body won't let it. I find that extremely discouraging. I need a good, long cry to purge myself.
I was an hour and a half late to work today. bad. bad bad bad. joel wasn't very happy. so even though it's almost 1 and I'm not asleep yet I have to go to work on time tomorrow because otherwise I think he's actually going to get mad. but if he tells me I need to do a better job of cleaning out cases one more time I think I'm going to scream. he is honestly one of the most finicky people I know. holy fuck. it's a speck of dust. the customer is not going to freak out. they're just going to make it MORE DIRTY. okay, end rant. my lips hurt from playing trumpet. bleh.
I had to say goodbye to cameron; I won't see him for two years. it's so depressing.
and on another random note, the fact that Heath Ledger died makes me really sad because he was so young and full of talent and promise and had a two year old daughter who's never going to know her daddy now. that's the saddest part to me. I do agree though, that while it's very tragic, it shouldn't be front page and national news. there are more important things going on in the world. like the unrest in the congo, or the riots in kenya, or the fact that palestinian militants broke down the fucking wall on the gaza strip. there's so many more important events that ledger's death is overshadowing thanks to the media who sucks.
my thoughts and prayers are with his family, but the media needs to get its act together. at least in this country. bbc's not too bad.
two more days and then I can sleep in. goodnight.
I find it discouraging that when something emotionally cleansing needs to happen, your body won't let it. I find that extremely discouraging. I need a good, long cry to purge myself.
I was an hour and a half late to work today. bad. bad bad bad. joel wasn't very happy. so even though it's almost 1 and I'm not asleep yet I have to go to work on time tomorrow because otherwise I think he's actually going to get mad. but if he tells me I need to do a better job of cleaning out cases one more time I think I'm going to scream. he is honestly one of the most finicky people I know. holy fuck. it's a speck of dust. the customer is not going to freak out. they're just going to make it MORE DIRTY. okay, end rant. my lips hurt from playing trumpet. bleh.
I had to say goodbye to cameron; I won't see him for two years. it's so depressing.
and on another random note, the fact that Heath Ledger died makes me really sad because he was so young and full of talent and promise and had a two year old daughter who's never going to know her daddy now. that's the saddest part to me. I do agree though, that while it's very tragic, it shouldn't be front page and national news. there are more important things going on in the world. like the unrest in the congo, or the riots in kenya, or the fact that palestinian militants broke down the fucking wall on the gaza strip. there's so many more important events that ledger's death is overshadowing thanks to the media who sucks.
my thoughts and prayers are with his family, but the media needs to get its act together. at least in this country. bbc's not too bad.
two more days and then I can sleep in. goodnight.