spinning empty bottles, it's the five of us
three finals left; I'm happy.
tomorrow nothing but time; I'll study and go christmas shopping.
the evening, hopefully a chance to cuddle; if he'll let me I'll hold his hand again.
sometimes I get the vibe he wants to talk to me about this. he reads me really well. that is sort of inconvenient at times. though I suppose I'd rather have him curious and caring than completely clueless.
tonight was the first night in three weeks that I have not been at his apartment in some way, shape, or form. it was weird. and somewhat lonely. it gave me a taste of how break will be, of how next semester will be. and it made me sad but also part of me became even more determined to hold onto what we have. there's my emotional outburst of the day.
watched harry potter 5 today...ate more than I ever have. it's ridiculous, I don't even understand. and it was all crap. I haven't eaten this bad since the summer. not doing that again anytime soon!
I fell asleep on the music building couch today...must've swallowed my gum while I was sleeping because I woke up and it was no longer in my mouth. which kind of freaked me out haha. didn't get too much theory work done...I just can't seem to concentrate enough. I'm trying. I think if I could just make some music...jam with someone, listen to a really chill show...then I'd feel better. I felt better when Eric was playing me stuff last night...I mean it wasn't helping that he was singing me a cutesy song and playing guitar...agh. he's not making this easy. I think he sort of knows that. I can't help liking him though. I'm listening to john mayer...haven't for awhile. it's nice.
I'm home in three days; ecstatic to see you all but not so hot on the whole going home thing. like the parents thing. I'm not crazy about it at all. I should stop complaining about it though. I sound like a whiner. slash I am a whiner.
tomorrow nothing but time; I'll study and go christmas shopping.
the evening, hopefully a chance to cuddle; if he'll let me I'll hold his hand again.
sometimes I get the vibe he wants to talk to me about this. he reads me really well. that is sort of inconvenient at times. though I suppose I'd rather have him curious and caring than completely clueless.
tonight was the first night in three weeks that I have not been at his apartment in some way, shape, or form. it was weird. and somewhat lonely. it gave me a taste of how break will be, of how next semester will be. and it made me sad but also part of me became even more determined to hold onto what we have. there's my emotional outburst of the day.
watched harry potter 5 today...ate more than I ever have. it's ridiculous, I don't even understand. and it was all crap. I haven't eaten this bad since the summer. not doing that again anytime soon!
I fell asleep on the music building couch today...must've swallowed my gum while I was sleeping because I woke up and it was no longer in my mouth. which kind of freaked me out haha. didn't get too much theory work done...I just can't seem to concentrate enough. I'm trying. I think if I could just make some music...jam with someone, listen to a really chill show...then I'd feel better. I felt better when Eric was playing me stuff last night...I mean it wasn't helping that he was singing me a cutesy song and playing guitar...agh. he's not making this easy. I think he sort of knows that. I can't help liking him though. I'm listening to john mayer...haven't for awhile. it's nice.
I'm home in three days; ecstatic to see you all but not so hot on the whole going home thing. like the parents thing. I'm not crazy about it at all. I should stop complaining about it though. I sound like a whiner. slash I am a whiner.