I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck.
I guess I shouldn't be so morose about this; there is still a huge upside but last night I was just too sad to see it I guess.
the timing is off, and he wants to get to know me better. both completely understandable. but I guess you can't help wanting something that seemed so close. but nothing's changed. he still holds me the way he did before, he still holds my hand, still touches my hair and looks at me like I'm the only thing he cares about at that moment. so you see I can't let go and I don't want to. I'm going to get what I can in this week that we have. I don't care what people think. this is the last week I'll be able to walk to his apartment to hang out. the last week I can call him up anytime and ask him if he wants to talk or watch a movie or help me with music theory. ask him his place or mine.
I care about him a lot. but he's right. we should get to know each other better. and I'm going to be gone for two months. I knew that would be a problem. but there are so many good things about this I'm seeing now.
holy hell, he said I was cute. he said he loved spending time with me.
no guy has ever called me cute before. it kind of made my life, despite the situation.
he still gives me butterflies. and I have his hairband and my jacket smells like him. how weird is that.
let's get these teen hearts beating faster, faster.
the timing is off, and he wants to get to know me better. both completely understandable. but I guess you can't help wanting something that seemed so close. but nothing's changed. he still holds me the way he did before, he still holds my hand, still touches my hair and looks at me like I'm the only thing he cares about at that moment. so you see I can't let go and I don't want to. I'm going to get what I can in this week that we have. I don't care what people think. this is the last week I'll be able to walk to his apartment to hang out. the last week I can call him up anytime and ask him if he wants to talk or watch a movie or help me with music theory. ask him his place or mine.
I care about him a lot. but he's right. we should get to know each other better. and I'm going to be gone for two months. I knew that would be a problem. but there are so many good things about this I'm seeing now.
holy hell, he said I was cute. he said he loved spending time with me.
no guy has ever called me cute before. it kind of made my life, despite the situation.
he still gives me butterflies. and I have his hairband and my jacket smells like him. how weird is that.
let's get these teen hearts beating faster, faster.