Today
well, i didnt go to irish fest, or even Bristol Reni fair over the weekend. It was just not a really good day, all rainy and dreary. I did go to a movie with my family though. we went to see Bourne Ultimatum. It was pretty good, but i think they are starting to streatch the whole thing too much.
Christine is gone, apperently she got to Florida safe and sound (although she threw up 3 times from motion sickness).
No news on how chad is doing, he goes in for the prep work for his transplant the 24th.
Also, i have been writing notes to Lis on her account. I dont think she has even gone on it since 2004, and i doubt she even uses this account or her email adress anymore, so i think it should be fairly safe for me to write her letters, prettending i am talking to her. I hope it will help me resolve some issues.
I wish i could talk to her in person, oh god how i wish that. but not only does she not want to talk to me anymore, but i dont want to risk upsetting her life. I did that before, and i know it was hard on her.and now she has a new life, and a new guy, and i dont want to come walking in from out of the past begging for her to take me back. I dont want to even risk casting that kind of doubt on her, or make her have to chose between us. Im sure i would lose anyway, so why put her through that kind of pain? I just miss her so much.....better for me to suffer than her....
Christine is gone, apperently she got to Florida safe and sound (although she threw up 3 times from motion sickness).
No news on how chad is doing, he goes in for the prep work for his transplant the 24th.
Also, i have been writing notes to Lis on her account. I dont think she has even gone on it since 2004, and i doubt she even uses this account or her email adress anymore, so i think it should be fairly safe for me to write her letters, prettending i am talking to her. I hope it will help me resolve some issues.
I wish i could talk to her in person, oh god how i wish that. but not only does she not want to talk to me anymore, but i dont want to risk upsetting her life. I did that before, and i know it was hard on her.and now she has a new life, and a new guy, and i dont want to come walking in from out of the past begging for her to take me back. I dont want to even risk casting that kind of doubt on her, or make her have to chose between us. Im sure i would lose anyway, so why put her through that kind of pain? I just miss her so much.....better for me to suffer than her....