always on the fly
ok, its all settled. i was stoned out of my mind the night before last and i thought that really and truly the only logical step is to come back to nashville on august 5th. its a mature and adult decision, i have to make them sometimes, even though i hates it. i love it here. i love my friends here. i love sitting by the hudson river for hours on end crumpling my toes in the fake grass on my favorite peir. i love waking up and going to get coffee and mozying about the city with jason durham and having push fights. i love buying an umbrella almost every other day and then losing it before the nights over. i love eating vegetarian hot dogs with wendi and drinking cold beer at the jazz bar on ave. c called louis while supposedly having "book club". but really we only drink and giggle and talk about boys. i love my job where my manager hugs me and brings in special cds like jefferson airplane that we both love because we're soul mates. and all of my regulars.
but.
my mom has offered to drive to new york on the 5th and take me away back to nashville with jackie o. and all of my things. august 5th is the only day she can do it. and i have to leave at some point soon anyway so i might as well get it over with. and jason's planning on taking a trip to nashville in august anyway. and new york will always be here and hopefully i'll be based in new york, but unfortunately i still don't know whether its in new york, boston or chicago. arg. but hopefully new york. that's what i say.
i feel sad because there is a boy named troy who is very sweet and wears his heart on his sleeve that still does like me even though i've tried to convey to him that i am dating jason. like yesterday when he got back from maine he came into the coffee shop and jason was sitting at a table drawing and troy starts talking to me and i got very nervous and shakey and he asked me what i was doing last night and i told him i was hanging out with jason...and he just said "ok, well call me tomorrow". i hate hurting people's feelings. dammit. anyway. i'm being boring, later taters.
but.
my mom has offered to drive to new york on the 5th and take me away back to nashville with jackie o. and all of my things. august 5th is the only day she can do it. and i have to leave at some point soon anyway so i might as well get it over with. and jason's planning on taking a trip to nashville in august anyway. and new york will always be here and hopefully i'll be based in new york, but unfortunately i still don't know whether its in new york, boston or chicago. arg. but hopefully new york. that's what i say.
i feel sad because there is a boy named troy who is very sweet and wears his heart on his sleeve that still does like me even though i've tried to convey to him that i am dating jason. like yesterday when he got back from maine he came into the coffee shop and jason was sitting at a table drawing and troy starts talking to me and i got very nervous and shakey and he asked me what i was doing last night and i told him i was hanging out with jason...and he just said "ok, well call me tomorrow". i hate hurting people's feelings. dammit. anyway. i'm being boring, later taters.