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Today I feel a very breathtaking sadness,like my heart has been replaced with repetitive images of fires burning low and blowing out. I feel a cold grief and the reason is unknown why, I would best guess it is that I haven't slept well for the past three days I am just getting over a sever throat infection and am probably just depressed for that reason. It was so very bad that when I was ready for bed I would have to try and put a cup under my mouth so i woulden't have to swallow.I do feel somwhat luckey... I may be one of few to accuratley know what it feels like to be terrified of my own body fluids.
[incert emotion: anoyance]
On a different subject I am getting somwhat concerned about a friendship I have with a certain Chad Baker. It seems as though we have went from a thing valuable and fun, to something somewhat uncomfortable. I guess it's no ones fault but sometimes I wish the great things that you obtain would last longer then a few years or less. Sometimes I think about all the different people I have come to know and become friends with I am saddend with the reality that they are not at all a critical part of my life as they once were... without others to be there to experiance our life's triumph, and our lives insecure times, we have no life at all.
New Experiances people and places will make me whole again.
[incert emotion: anoyance]
On a different subject I am getting somwhat concerned about a friendship I have with a certain Chad Baker. It seems as though we have went from a thing valuable and fun, to something somewhat uncomfortable. I guess it's no ones fault but sometimes I wish the great things that you obtain would last longer then a few years or less. Sometimes I think about all the different people I have come to know and become friends with I am saddend with the reality that they are not at all a critical part of my life as they once were... without others to be there to experiance our life's triumph, and our lives insecure times, we have no life at all.
New Experiances people and places will make me whole again.