In A Cold Corner, my passion is my Kindling, my Life is a Blaze

[silvershark4242]

For some reason I think after me and Alex fell through I stopped looking for someone that made me happy and instead tried to find someone to impress others. I was looking for the most attractive quality's that most others find attractive and not myself. I guess maybe I was trying to show people that I can obtain whatever I want... but I think I matured recentley in the fact that I no longer care about impressing people with my significant other... I find beauty in areas most people over-look. Sure a sculpted body is nice, sure hairless smooth skin is glorious. What about the way a neck line comes down and forms a shoulder? what about the slender curve of somones back, or the way thier glassy eyes gaze back at you in a ill-lighted room. That is truley the stuff of passion to me, when somone can brush upon you and the luke warm feeling of compassion comes over you like a does of spreading euphoria. I no longer seek somone to take me into the spotlight of social acceptance what I really want is somone that overtakes my heart so much that it makes me take thoes extra steps the deep seeded sensation of wanting to say I love you, and the extra shot of feeling that makes it hard to pull away from them.

I actually think I found him, but I don't want anyone to know of him, he is my personal treasure and I wish to discover him without the influence of the external forces that do not belong with us.

This time around when I am in love I will make it right, none of the outside forces will be able to effect me, no one with upset my relationship, and no one will even hear his name untill I reside with him, then it will not matter.

I no longer will tolerate people being critics to my actions, and I will never again tolorate being swayed by thier judgment.

for him I will suffer the slings and arrows.