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it's over. he left. and with it any feeling except complete utter loss.
i feel like death. i feel like someone died. i feel tragic.
i don't know if i want words of encouragement. i was so sure i wouldn't need them.
i feel completely exposed and raw.
i don't care about work. or you. or them. i just don't want to feel the crash of the wall i am headed towards.
i was happy. sincerely. bottom of my heart happy. and was safe.
it's all gone.
please just let me deal with this alone. i was a fool in love. it's just all gone.
suddenly nothing seems to matter at all.
i feel like death. i feel like someone died. i feel tragic.
i don't know if i want words of encouragement. i was so sure i wouldn't need them.
i feel completely exposed and raw.
i don't care about work. or you. or them. i just don't want to feel the crash of the wall i am headed towards.
i was happy. sincerely. bottom of my heart happy. and was safe.
it's all gone.
please just let me deal with this alone. i was a fool in love. it's just all gone.
suddenly nothing seems to matter at all.