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I rely too much on my fantasies of what love should be that the reality seems too harsh.
Why do I wait on my prince charming or my princess love to whisk me away?
Leon and Kayleigh are only manifestations of my image of love. I do believe in Leon, but whatever he may be, spirit or something else, it doesn't help me to wait on him to take me away. Perhaps he is also just a figment of my imagination, my desperation to be seen and have an impact on someone.
Angel is gone. It saddens me, but perhaps she'll come back, just as always.
Maybe I truly am crazy.
Maybe I am only desperate.
I wish the world could be as I imagine.
Reality sucks.
Men suck.
My father has been avoiding me because I know he has been calling his girlfreind (not his wife) more than me or my sis.
I think Mom is avoiding me too.
Scotty is pissed off at me. (but why do I care so much? I'm the one that broke up with HIM.)
My sister is mad that I broke up with Scotty.
Willy is upset that I don't want to be more than friends.
And I am sick.
But I guess it could be worse.
I guess.
Why do I wait on my prince charming or my princess love to whisk me away?
Leon and Kayleigh are only manifestations of my image of love. I do believe in Leon, but whatever he may be, spirit or something else, it doesn't help me to wait on him to take me away. Perhaps he is also just a figment of my imagination, my desperation to be seen and have an impact on someone.
Angel is gone. It saddens me, but perhaps she'll come back, just as always.
Maybe I truly am crazy.
Maybe I am only desperate.
I wish the world could be as I imagine.
Reality sucks.
Men suck.
My father has been avoiding me because I know he has been calling his girlfreind (not his wife) more than me or my sis.
I think Mom is avoiding me too.
Scotty is pissed off at me. (but why do I care so much? I'm the one that broke up with HIM.)
My sister is mad that I broke up with Scotty.
Willy is upset that I don't want to be more than friends.
And I am sick.
But I guess it could be worse.
I guess.