The Dollar Heart
oh i just love how life likes to teach me lessons. in silly things too. either that or i just think too much into things. nonetheless this story is still pretty amusing/eye opening
first off yay for traditions! hanging out with the committee folk this week has been so much fun! auditions also were so amazing and they even reminded me why i got into the whole OA business in the first place. its just something i love to do! and yay for our great cast too!
okay well back to the original story, sorry i get sidetracked
so we had auditions on sunday, monday, and tuesday. monday was the longest day since we had our meeting right before and went straight into auditions. so we all were at burdine from like 6:30 until 11. midway into auditions we all got really tired so we decided to go get some ice cream to help us with energy. me and rali went to the ice cream machine in burdine and then i realized that i spent my dollar in change yesterday getting a mountain dew. the only bill i had was this dollar heart, that i told myself i wasn't going to spend. but of course, hell i was hungry and tired... stupid stomach. rali was like thats cool can u make me one? and i was like sure! and then stupid brain starting thinking. i was like hmm it would be easier to just exchange dollars with rali so i wouldn't have to try to feed a crumpled dollar into the vending machine? its like solving two problems with one solution. so i just "gave my heart away" to her and took a dollar for it. (i'll explain the quotes later) and then i bought myself a nice little strawberry breyer's popsicle.
THAT FROZE TO MY LIPS!
okay lets backtrack a little bit so this makes more sense. lemme give a little more background. today in math class, natt was enticing us to solve this math problem by offering a dollar to someone who tried to solve it cuz morale was low in the class. i wanted the dollar, not as money, but as a memory, so i tried to solve the problem and i managed to do one half of it. he gave me the dollar and immediately i labeled it with a post it saying "the dollar i got from natt for helping solve 1/2 of hilbert's problem dealing with diophantine equations -3/22/2005" i am just really big on memories. i made myself a little memory box before i left for college so i wouldn't forget everything. i have a box with all the old notes i ever received from friends. yes i'm a little sap. but the point is, people in the class were like dang he's being greedy. and i really wasn't! memories and love and all that sappy shit is so much more important to me than money is! it was only a dollar in money, but it meant so much to me!
except when i get hungry anyway and i go giving away my heart for some ice cream.
more background- that money heart meant alot to me. i have had in my wallet probably since like the beginning of last semester or something and it was something i told myself i wasn't going to spend, like the dollar i got from natt. it always meant alot to me since it in some way or form did symbolize my heart, something i folded intricately with my own hands and kept with me for so long.
and when i gave it away, disaster happened
my lips freakin froze to that stupid popsicle bar thingy. it was so bad. rali was like are u okay? omg? and of course i couldn't respond. i was so hungry i took a huge bite out of that stupid shit and the insides of my lips were frozen solid to it. so i ran over to the water fountain and ran some water over it to thaw it out and i managed to get it unstuck. the pain afterwards was pretty intense but it was only brief. that freaking thing pulled off some of the skin on my lip; my lips were chapped and sorry i'm getting graphic but i think its a necessary element of the story. after that, i ate it happily but it kept dripping everywhere cuz of the water that i splashed on it. after i finished it off i thought the disaster was over. but it wasn't
so wednesday was fine. nothing too bad happened as an aftermath
today is not so fine. the insides of my lips are starting to hurt and the skin is all puffy and white and gross. so sorry if this is getting graphic. i'll just sum it up in a nutshell. it hurts like a bitch. and i really have no idea what the **** to do about it cuz its inside my mouth and no medicine is really gonna work. the saliva would just dissolve the ointment away. so yea i guess i learned a lesson the tough way but hey i needed it
LOVE WITH UR DAMN HEART AND NOT UR BRAIN OR FOR THAT PART YOUR STOMACH!
loves not that logical you stupid ho!
and of course, i need this lesson. everytime i'm seriously attracted to someone i'm just like oh no i can't do that, i can't do this, thats not logical, you need to take the logical approach blah blah blah. i just keep making myself all these excuses cuz my brain tells me to do it! oh sweetie, hes straight he can't possibly like you, or even worse hes gay and he still can't possibly like you, maybe u are thinking too much into his hint, are u sure he was flirting with you, blah blah blah
okay end of story, BRAIN SHUT UP AND LET ME LOVE!
sorry that was a big mess. thanks for reading. and please sympathize with my funky and incoherent writing which i am not going to edit, i'm just in a lot of pain
first off yay for traditions! hanging out with the committee folk this week has been so much fun! auditions also were so amazing and they even reminded me why i got into the whole OA business in the first place. its just something i love to do! and yay for our great cast too!
okay well back to the original story, sorry i get sidetracked
so we had auditions on sunday, monday, and tuesday. monday was the longest day since we had our meeting right before and went straight into auditions. so we all were at burdine from like 6:30 until 11. midway into auditions we all got really tired so we decided to go get some ice cream to help us with energy. me and rali went to the ice cream machine in burdine and then i realized that i spent my dollar in change yesterday getting a mountain dew. the only bill i had was this dollar heart, that i told myself i wasn't going to spend. but of course, hell i was hungry and tired... stupid stomach. rali was like thats cool can u make me one? and i was like sure! and then stupid brain starting thinking. i was like hmm it would be easier to just exchange dollars with rali so i wouldn't have to try to feed a crumpled dollar into the vending machine? its like solving two problems with one solution. so i just "gave my heart away" to her and took a dollar for it. (i'll explain the quotes later) and then i bought myself a nice little strawberry breyer's popsicle.
THAT FROZE TO MY LIPS!
okay lets backtrack a little bit so this makes more sense. lemme give a little more background. today in math class, natt was enticing us to solve this math problem by offering a dollar to someone who tried to solve it cuz morale was low in the class. i wanted the dollar, not as money, but as a memory, so i tried to solve the problem and i managed to do one half of it. he gave me the dollar and immediately i labeled it with a post it saying "the dollar i got from natt for helping solve 1/2 of hilbert's problem dealing with diophantine equations -3/22/2005" i am just really big on memories. i made myself a little memory box before i left for college so i wouldn't forget everything. i have a box with all the old notes i ever received from friends. yes i'm a little sap. but the point is, people in the class were like dang he's being greedy. and i really wasn't! memories and love and all that sappy shit is so much more important to me than money is! it was only a dollar in money, but it meant so much to me!
except when i get hungry anyway and i go giving away my heart for some ice cream.
more background- that money heart meant alot to me. i have had in my wallet probably since like the beginning of last semester or something and it was something i told myself i wasn't going to spend, like the dollar i got from natt. it always meant alot to me since it in some way or form did symbolize my heart, something i folded intricately with my own hands and kept with me for so long.
and when i gave it away, disaster happened
my lips freakin froze to that stupid popsicle bar thingy. it was so bad. rali was like are u okay? omg? and of course i couldn't respond. i was so hungry i took a huge bite out of that stupid shit and the insides of my lips were frozen solid to it. so i ran over to the water fountain and ran some water over it to thaw it out and i managed to get it unstuck. the pain afterwards was pretty intense but it was only brief. that freaking thing pulled off some of the skin on my lip; my lips were chapped and sorry i'm getting graphic but i think its a necessary element of the story. after that, i ate it happily but it kept dripping everywhere cuz of the water that i splashed on it. after i finished it off i thought the disaster was over. but it wasn't
so wednesday was fine. nothing too bad happened as an aftermath
today is not so fine. the insides of my lips are starting to hurt and the skin is all puffy and white and gross. so sorry if this is getting graphic. i'll just sum it up in a nutshell. it hurts like a bitch. and i really have no idea what the **** to do about it cuz its inside my mouth and no medicine is really gonna work. the saliva would just dissolve the ointment away. so yea i guess i learned a lesson the tough way but hey i needed it
LOVE WITH UR DAMN HEART AND NOT UR BRAIN OR FOR THAT PART YOUR STOMACH!
loves not that logical you stupid ho!
and of course, i need this lesson. everytime i'm seriously attracted to someone i'm just like oh no i can't do that, i can't do this, thats not logical, you need to take the logical approach blah blah blah. i just keep making myself all these excuses cuz my brain tells me to do it! oh sweetie, hes straight he can't possibly like you, or even worse hes gay and he still can't possibly like you, maybe u are thinking too much into his hint, are u sure he was flirting with you, blah blah blah
okay end of story, BRAIN SHUT UP AND LET ME LOVE!
sorry that was a big mess. thanks for reading. and please sympathize with my funky and incoherent writing which i am not going to edit, i'm just in a lot of pain