Unexpected Lessons

[silverhawthorn]

Last Tuesday was my fifteenth My Chemical Romance show, and my first since their return. The anticipation for it eclipsed anything else happening this month (i.e., your Xmas cards are all now New Year's cards

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[silverhawthorn]

This is what I was thinking, too. There's a saying that if you don't pay attention to the gods when they are trying to tell you something, they'll resort to a 2 x 4 to get their message across.

Maybe this was my 2 x 4, and it had let go of the past, idiot child scrawled on it. :)

The girl in the black cap line was meant quite literally. My last road trip was one of the best experiences of my life, without exaggeration. I wore this stupid little black cap, it became a good luck charm, but I think it also made me increasingly recognizable from the stage. Each show felt more and more like hanging out with friends, on both sides of the barrier. I miss that, terribly. But it can't be like that again. That was a unique time, with unique conditions, and I need to be grateful for it, and let it go.

And to be honest, I don't know how the guys are now, I don't know how they are onstage anymore, not really. I've only seen one show, and a small handful of televised performances. It's been two years and they aren't the same band. They are all family men now, in each their own way. The focus of their lives has changed, they have changed, and that's good, but it's CHANGE DAMMIT and it usually takes me a while to catch up. Maybe that's a part of why the stage show felt different, too.

And you're right -- I really should give myself a break! lol

I get the feeling that you and I will share the barrier eventually...even if it means going all the way out west to California again. *heehee*

I meet the bestest people through this fandom. ♥