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Its really funny...but this week I have taken time for myself as well as giving time to John...and I feel so intouch with myself at the moment. And I feel beautiful, something alot of people dont really feel very often. I always pray that I would feel this...but through uncertainty, I feel certain...about Love. I will never fully know what the future holds for me, or for anyone, but I do know this much. A love like this is once and forever, I will never love again like I do today. and I will take that to the grave with me. Never before this...actually before yesterday...when I held him in my arms...I never felt him like that...I felt him, how he was secure in what he felt was right, even without me. He was scared, and so was I but in his eyes, I found what I have wanted for so long. I felt his stare bear down into mysoul like never before, and from that I have realized that this is it. No matter what he decides for us, I will never lose the unconditional faith that I have in him, in his world, and in my feelings. he is all I will ever need in my world. as long as he is there, I can make it through everything in this world.
Today I was watching a movie that I never thought I would be watching. yeah I thought it was dumb at first, like everyother movie I have seen involving the typical teen world...but this was so different. I never thought I could relate to this in my life, but I did and it made me think for a long time. and I realized that love is something that with time will change. and it may get harder and with every hard step comes a building of faith. And I have faith. I will wait forever for him, I will, because there is no one in this world that will ever amount to the man that he is. I am completely taken by his smile, his dreams, his thoughts, his heart, his body, his soul.
I also never realized how wise the bible was until today...that yes when instilling religion, it sux royaly. but for motivation and wisdome, it is as pure as it gets...and when I heard this quote it made me cry. I fell in love with it because I realized it was everything I needed to do, things I wasnt doing before. things I realized was important for me to achieve, and this was it.
Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not envy. It does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered. It keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.
1 Corinthians 13
I guess this tells me something about myself. I am fully prepared to do this and I have grown patient, I no longer envy, I am no longer jelouse, I shall not boast, I will notbe prod (except for him), I shall not be angered by wrongs commited towards me, I will not seek for myself in a selfish manner, I shall keep no tally of how he has wronged me and be forgiving of his faults, for we all have them. I will protect him in every aspect, and love him for the truth he shows me. no matter what happens in this life, in this relationship, I know he is the soulmate I have always searched for and because I searched so hard, I never realized what was infront of me. there are so many other things I want to say and I looked at quotes to maybe explain them better than I can...so here they are.
Friendship is love with understanding.
The road of life is made smoother when traveled with someone we love.
If I give you a reason for loving, I give me a reason for living.
If loving is touching, then you have touched.
Love sees all, forgives all, and remembers.
Love in the heart wasn't put there to stay;
Love isn't love 'til it's given away.
Choose your love, then love your choice.
If I had a flower for every time I thought of you,
I could walk in my garden forever.
Happiness is being married to your best friend.
She is not fair to outward view
As many maidens be:
Her loveliness I never knew
Until she smiled on me.
Hartley Coleridge
What comes from the heart goes to the heart.
Coleridge
Absence extinguishes small passions and increases great ones, as the wind will blow out a candle, and blow in a fire.
Duc de La Rochefoucauld
Happiness is a perfume which you cannot pour on someone without getting some on yourself.
Ralph Waldo Emerson
Romance is the glamour which turns the dust of everyday life into a golden haze.
Elinor Glyn
Love is not blind - it sees more, not less.
Rabbi Julius Gordon
Give smiles to those who love you less, But keep your tears for me.
Thomas Moore
We can do no great things... only small things with great love.
Mother Theresa
The ultimate test of a relationship is to disagree but hold hands.
Alexander Penny
Thou wast that all to me, love,
For which my soul did pine--
A green isle in the sea, love,
A fountain and shrine,
All wreathed with fairy fruits and flowers,
And all the flowers were mine.
Edgar Allen Poe
Thank you, my dear
You came, and you did
well to come: I needed
you. You have made
love blaze up in
my breast-bless you!
Bless you as often
as the hours have
been endless to me
while you were gone.
Sappho
Doubt thou the stars are fire;
Doubt that the sun doth move;
Doubt truth to be a liar;
But never doubt I love.
William Shakespeare
Life is to be fortified by many friendships. To love and to be loved is the greatest happiness of existence.
Sydney Smith
The first duty of love is to listen.
Paul Tillich
Do you not see that you and I are as the branches in one tree? With your rejoicing comes my laughter; with your sadness start my tears. Love, could life be otherwise with You and Me?
Tzu Yeh
All these have touched my heart in different ways no matter how sappy they may be to everyone else, they each hold some bit of truth to them...But there is one thing that I will never forget as long as I am here in this existence...
"I would die for you" I said....
"But dont die for me, Love, Live for me"
John Anthony Pizzirusso
Yesterday, was the first time I have smiled in a full week...I dont mean an empty smile, but a smile of complete feeling and emotion, so much I didnt know where to put it all...and though his uncertainty in me, in us, is all still a mystery to me, I will be as patient as I can possibly be, for my love for him goes beyond any that I can feel for anyone.
I hope he sees this one day...hears my words, then believes like he never has before. because through all this, pain that I have felt, I have recieved something greater than I could ever dream, and now I am content. forever an always will I be content. because I have felt something greater than the love I felt before. I felt a friendship and lover all in one....
And all it took was one hug last night.
Today I was watching a movie that I never thought I would be watching. yeah I thought it was dumb at first, like everyother movie I have seen involving the typical teen world...but this was so different. I never thought I could relate to this in my life, but I did and it made me think for a long time. and I realized that love is something that with time will change. and it may get harder and with every hard step comes a building of faith. And I have faith. I will wait forever for him, I will, because there is no one in this world that will ever amount to the man that he is. I am completely taken by his smile, his dreams, his thoughts, his heart, his body, his soul.
I also never realized how wise the bible was until today...that yes when instilling religion, it sux royaly. but for motivation and wisdome, it is as pure as it gets...and when I heard this quote it made me cry. I fell in love with it because I realized it was everything I needed to do, things I wasnt doing before. things I realized was important for me to achieve, and this was it.
Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not envy. It does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered. It keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.
1 Corinthians 13
I guess this tells me something about myself. I am fully prepared to do this and I have grown patient, I no longer envy, I am no longer jelouse, I shall not boast, I will notbe prod (except for him), I shall not be angered by wrongs commited towards me, I will not seek for myself in a selfish manner, I shall keep no tally of how he has wronged me and be forgiving of his faults, for we all have them. I will protect him in every aspect, and love him for the truth he shows me. no matter what happens in this life, in this relationship, I know he is the soulmate I have always searched for and because I searched so hard, I never realized what was infront of me. there are so many other things I want to say and I looked at quotes to maybe explain them better than I can...so here they are.
Friendship is love with understanding.
The road of life is made smoother when traveled with someone we love.
If I give you a reason for loving, I give me a reason for living.
If loving is touching, then you have touched.
Love sees all, forgives all, and remembers.
Love in the heart wasn't put there to stay;
Love isn't love 'til it's given away.
Choose your love, then love your choice.
If I had a flower for every time I thought of you,
I could walk in my garden forever.
Happiness is being married to your best friend.
She is not fair to outward view
As many maidens be:
Her loveliness I never knew
Until she smiled on me.
Hartley Coleridge
What comes from the heart goes to the heart.
Coleridge
Absence extinguishes small passions and increases great ones, as the wind will blow out a candle, and blow in a fire.
Duc de La Rochefoucauld
Happiness is a perfume which you cannot pour on someone without getting some on yourself.
Ralph Waldo Emerson
Romance is the glamour which turns the dust of everyday life into a golden haze.
Elinor Glyn
Love is not blind - it sees more, not less.
Rabbi Julius Gordon
Give smiles to those who love you less, But keep your tears for me.
Thomas Moore
We can do no great things... only small things with great love.
Mother Theresa
The ultimate test of a relationship is to disagree but hold hands.
Alexander Penny
Thou wast that all to me, love,
For which my soul did pine--
A green isle in the sea, love,
A fountain and shrine,
All wreathed with fairy fruits and flowers,
And all the flowers were mine.
Edgar Allen Poe
Thank you, my dear
You came, and you did
well to come: I needed
you. You have made
love blaze up in
my breast-bless you!
Bless you as often
as the hours have
been endless to me
while you were gone.
Sappho
Doubt thou the stars are fire;
Doubt that the sun doth move;
Doubt truth to be a liar;
But never doubt I love.
William Shakespeare
Life is to be fortified by many friendships. To love and to be loved is the greatest happiness of existence.
Sydney Smith
The first duty of love is to listen.
Paul Tillich
Do you not see that you and I are as the branches in one tree? With your rejoicing comes my laughter; with your sadness start my tears. Love, could life be otherwise with You and Me?
Tzu Yeh
All these have touched my heart in different ways no matter how sappy they may be to everyone else, they each hold some bit of truth to them...But there is one thing that I will never forget as long as I am here in this existence...
"I would die for you" I said....
"But dont die for me, Love, Live for me"
John Anthony Pizzirusso
Yesterday, was the first time I have smiled in a full week...I dont mean an empty smile, but a smile of complete feeling and emotion, so much I didnt know where to put it all...and though his uncertainty in me, in us, is all still a mystery to me, I will be as patient as I can possibly be, for my love for him goes beyond any that I can feel for anyone.
I hope he sees this one day...hears my words, then believes like he never has before. because through all this, pain that I have felt, I have recieved something greater than I could ever dream, and now I am content. forever an always will I be content. because I have felt something greater than the love I felt before. I felt a friendship and lover all in one....
And all it took was one hug last night.