Stupid
I think I'm distracted. I'm making bad decisions.
I walked to work today. It was 98 degrees. The walk was fine. I got to work and had a mild heat stroke. They sent me home. I felt so embarrassed. They were very nice about it and very forgiving. They didn't blame me. If Ms. Cathy was there, she would have insisted on a drug test. That's fine. I'm clean. They can test me if they want. I'm still really embarrassed about what happened. Now I'm at home, very alone.
I'm all alone with my thoughts. I wanted to avoid that. I need to study. I don't want to study. I need to work on my thesis. I don't want to work on my thesis. I need to rest. I don't want to rest.
There's only one thing that I want to do and I can't do it. I don't think I'll ever be able to do it.
I want to admit that I was wrong.
I walked to work today. It was 98 degrees. The walk was fine. I got to work and had a mild heat stroke. They sent me home. I felt so embarrassed. They were very nice about it and very forgiving. They didn't blame me. If Ms. Cathy was there, she would have insisted on a drug test. That's fine. I'm clean. They can test me if they want. I'm still really embarrassed about what happened. Now I'm at home, very alone.
I'm all alone with my thoughts. I wanted to avoid that. I need to study. I don't want to study. I need to work on my thesis. I don't want to work on my thesis. I need to rest. I don't want to rest.
There's only one thing that I want to do and I can't do it. I don't think I'll ever be able to do it.
I want to admit that I was wrong.