Poetry as promised
The first time we kissed
I hoped that it would be endless
The first time I felt your heart racing
Made me more at ease
To think that might end
To see my falling star disappear
Leaves me in an abyss of heart ache
How could I live without you?
The breath in me would vanish
My passion would diminish
And I would be left with bitterness
And a lonely empty heart
Poetry as I promised. Yes it is a little depressing, but I couldn't help but write at a time like this. Needless to say that I had a conversation earlier and it just made me feel really sad and alone in this world. I don't have very many friends as I stated before. It's a bit of a problem and I really need to get out more. Friends are hard to come by, and the few that I do have are scattered. Soon my best friend will be moving down to Texas and I will most likely not see her for a while.
I wish people would know how unstable and alone I really feel. I express things in my art and in my musings. i guess as an artist it is expected of me to be a shut-in of sorts. I wish I had a project to take my mind off of all these depressing things. I've kept quiet and I have retreated into myself for a while, because I think that is best for everyone. Instead I plan on expressing myself in more of my writing and my drawings. Mostly because at least there no pain or harm will come to me and I can control what goes on a page. No one can give me direction or tell me how to act or how to be. Most of all I don't have to behave there in my own world.
I miss painting so much, but I guess that will take a bark drop until I'm done with some of my general education classes. maybe next semester I will take a drawing class of some sort. In the meantime I'm going to sink into the current classes that I have because really that is one of two things good going on in my life right now.
Till next we meet
I hoped that it would be endless
The first time I felt your heart racing
Made me more at ease
To think that might end
To see my falling star disappear
Leaves me in an abyss of heart ache
How could I live without you?
The breath in me would vanish
My passion would diminish
And I would be left with bitterness
And a lonely empty heart
Poetry as I promised. Yes it is a little depressing, but I couldn't help but write at a time like this. Needless to say that I had a conversation earlier and it just made me feel really sad and alone in this world. I don't have very many friends as I stated before. It's a bit of a problem and I really need to get out more. Friends are hard to come by, and the few that I do have are scattered. Soon my best friend will be moving down to Texas and I will most likely not see her for a while.
I wish people would know how unstable and alone I really feel. I express things in my art and in my musings. i guess as an artist it is expected of me to be a shut-in of sorts. I wish I had a project to take my mind off of all these depressing things. I've kept quiet and I have retreated into myself for a while, because I think that is best for everyone. Instead I plan on expressing myself in more of my writing and my drawings. Mostly because at least there no pain or harm will come to me and I can control what goes on a page. No one can give me direction or tell me how to act or how to be. Most of all I don't have to behave there in my own world.
I miss painting so much, but I guess that will take a bark drop until I'm done with some of my general education classes. maybe next semester I will take a drawing class of some sort. In the meantime I'm going to sink into the current classes that I have because really that is one of two things good going on in my life right now.
Till next we meet