Rant
I feel like I don't have very many friends. Most of the ones that I did have all moved away or just pretend to be my friend. It just seems like they put up with me more than anything. I've been left out of hangout sessions, parties, and just all around going out type things. I was never really good with making friends to begin with, and as of late I have been feeling very lonely. I don't know how to fix this. The fact is that I have joined the ranks of the unemployed and I was barely able to afford classes this semester. I am now cleaning a house for 20$ a month and it's enough to put gas in my car. I know that the people who are paying me are taking advantage of me, but money is money I guess.
My current bf is a loving caring man, but he is also an attractive one and has girls falling over him left and right. He makes it seem so easy to make friends. I am really envious of him. At this point I don't know what to do about my being lonely. If only I had redeeming qualities about myself. Truth be told I don't know where my future is going to end up. I just know that these past few weeks I have felt nothing but sadness and bitterness towards everything and everyone. It might be the sinking drama that I am drowning in, but I doubt that. I think I need to get out more.
Or maybe I need to write some poetry to make it all seem like life really is not shattering to pieces around me. I think i will even start with that concept and then post it here to be looked over and commented on. I think I am a little rusty, but at least it will keep me busy. In the meantime I am going to curl up with a chick-flick and attempt to forget that my BF is out partying with people I thought were my friends too.
Till next we meet
My current bf is a loving caring man, but he is also an attractive one and has girls falling over him left and right. He makes it seem so easy to make friends. I am really envious of him. At this point I don't know what to do about my being lonely. If only I had redeeming qualities about myself. Truth be told I don't know where my future is going to end up. I just know that these past few weeks I have felt nothing but sadness and bitterness towards everything and everyone. It might be the sinking drama that I am drowning in, but I doubt that. I think I need to get out more.
Or maybe I need to write some poetry to make it all seem like life really is not shattering to pieces around me. I think i will even start with that concept and then post it here to be looked over and commented on. I think I am a little rusty, but at least it will keep me busy. In the meantime I am going to curl up with a chick-flick and attempt to forget that my BF is out partying with people I thought were my friends too.
Till next we meet