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ahh i know i havent posted in a longgg time so i`ll try to do a recap in my next post... some time this week
but idk i just needed to get my thoughts out >_<
theres this guy.... on my mind... a lotttt >__<
but i dont want to be like all jealous especially since we`re not really "anything"
we've just gone out on dates and stuff >_<
but idk :| i started to think i like him a lot... and im leaving soon so i was going to give him like a special cd present w/ me talking and singing and stuff for him even though i dont like singing x_x;;
but now i dont know... like last night i was kind of talking to him but then he had to go do something else... but when i called him later his phone was busy... so i was like whatever... but i saw on his fb pg that he was talking to this girl on the phone cus she made a fb video of them talking on the phone o_o;; lol i mean its not a crime for him to be talking to another girl.. especially cus we`re not anything...but like watching the video kind of made me think about how flirtyish their phone conversation is...like in the same degree our phone convos are... it kind of makes me think the way he treats me is just like how he treats all the other girls he knows...yeahhh so my head is all jumbled right now...
idk :| i wish i knew if i was special or not >_< or if im just like the "next girl" (cus like basically i met him like right after/while another girl was kind of iffy about their relationship or w/e)
rawwrr :| i wonder if i should just back out now and save myself from getting hurt... or take a risk >_< though idk... xP
but idk i just needed to get my thoughts out >_<
theres this guy.... on my mind... a lotttt >__<
but i dont want to be like all jealous especially since we`re not really "anything"
we've just gone out on dates and stuff >_<
but idk :| i started to think i like him a lot... and im leaving soon so i was going to give him like a special cd present w/ me talking and singing and stuff for him even though i dont like singing x_x;;
but now i dont know... like last night i was kind of talking to him but then he had to go do something else... but when i called him later his phone was busy... so i was like whatever... but i saw on his fb pg that he was talking to this girl on the phone cus she made a fb video of them talking on the phone o_o;; lol i mean its not a crime for him to be talking to another girl.. especially cus we`re not anything...but like watching the video kind of made me think about how flirtyish their phone conversation is...like in the same degree our phone convos are... it kind of makes me think the way he treats me is just like how he treats all the other girls he knows...yeahhh so my head is all jumbled right now...
idk :| i wish i knew if i was special or not >_< or if im just like the "next girl" (cus like basically i met him like right after/while another girl was kind of iffy about their relationship or w/e)
rawwrr :| i wonder if i should just back out now and save myself from getting hurt... or take a risk >_< though idk... xP