Bad times
So here is the update for anyone who is actually interested.
I got back to uni after having the ear infection, to be told that we had a deadline on monday that counted like, 80% or something towards our final grade. This had me stressed out so much you would not believe. First I thought the deadline was friday, and I did not think that we had to have that much. In fact, the amount of work they wanted for me was physically impossible for me to complete.
Thanks to the ear infection, I was put back by at least 2 weeks, if not a little more. I had done barely any work in that time, and yes, maybe I could have done some, but the first week I was in so much pain I could barely concentrate on anything, and the second week I was in and out of hospital and I made the switch to a new laptop, so things got a little busy.
So I had to have a final storyboard, animatic, character designs, and 30 seconds of feasibility tests, amongst other things, like a production bible, that we were never taught about etc. Not only that, but the year before us didn't have to hand in until after christmas, and they started back much earlier than we did too. So we had a tiny amount of time to do all this pre-production in, and I could have applied for extenuating circumstances, but I had to get the notes from the hospital and it was all getting a little stressful.
So I managed to finish things, and how I have no idea. I barely slept or ate in the last few days.... What I had was no where near the quality I wanted, but it was done, and handed in.
Then we had the crit straight afterwards, which is the most stupid idea ever. I was sleep deprived, had eaten barely anything, and I just wanted to go to sleep. First we were told that yes, this deadline did count towards the final grade, but the proper hand in was after christmas, in february. So I had done all that work and it didn't have to mean anything, and yes, it was a giant relief, but i had done all this work and yeah....
So I finally presented my animatic, and to put it frankly, it went awful. I suck at presentations, and was so tired I forgot everything I needed to say, and as I watched my animatic back it was awful. And everyone else knew it was awful too. And so I got ripped apart and I need to completely revise my story. It left me feeling absolutely terrible about myself.
I had no idea where to go with my film then, and when I got home I couldn't even sleep I was so worried and worked up over this. And I kept trying to think about what was wrong with my story and how to make it better, and any creativity I had before was just gone. I spent most of the day trying not to break down in tears, and I wasn't thinking straight and had some kind of mini breakdown.
I want so badly to do well with this film, and to hear that, even though I kinda knew about a lot of it, was kinda heartbreaking.... D':
I'm meeting up with my lecturer on wednesday for an emergency appointment to revise my story, and i'm getting some ideas now that I can think straight, so hopefully things will get better. Some friends have also offered to look over stuff storywise, and if anyone else wants to do the same and offer me honest critiques, it would help so much. On the up side, the lecturer said that the stlye was nice and it could be a really pretty film if I can aobble together a story that actually works...
Apart from that, i'm going home on thursday, and have relised a little too late that I won'tget my british hetalia secret santa until after I come back because I gave my uni address and i'm leaving so early >>;; I need to get started on my own now too!!
Also, gaiz, hetalia mugs.... yay or nay?
I got back to uni after having the ear infection, to be told that we had a deadline on monday that counted like, 80% or something towards our final grade. This had me stressed out so much you would not believe. First I thought the deadline was friday, and I did not think that we had to have that much. In fact, the amount of work they wanted for me was physically impossible for me to complete.
Thanks to the ear infection, I was put back by at least 2 weeks, if not a little more. I had done barely any work in that time, and yes, maybe I could have done some, but the first week I was in so much pain I could barely concentrate on anything, and the second week I was in and out of hospital and I made the switch to a new laptop, so things got a little busy.
So I had to have a final storyboard, animatic, character designs, and 30 seconds of feasibility tests, amongst other things, like a production bible, that we were never taught about etc. Not only that, but the year before us didn't have to hand in until after christmas, and they started back much earlier than we did too. So we had a tiny amount of time to do all this pre-production in, and I could have applied for extenuating circumstances, but I had to get the notes from the hospital and it was all getting a little stressful.
So I managed to finish things, and how I have no idea. I barely slept or ate in the last few days.... What I had was no where near the quality I wanted, but it was done, and handed in.
Then we had the crit straight afterwards, which is the most stupid idea ever. I was sleep deprived, had eaten barely anything, and I just wanted to go to sleep. First we were told that yes, this deadline did count towards the final grade, but the proper hand in was after christmas, in february. So I had done all that work and it didn't have to mean anything, and yes, it was a giant relief, but i had done all this work and yeah....
So I finally presented my animatic, and to put it frankly, it went awful. I suck at presentations, and was so tired I forgot everything I needed to say, and as I watched my animatic back it was awful. And everyone else knew it was awful too. And so I got ripped apart and I need to completely revise my story. It left me feeling absolutely terrible about myself.
I had no idea where to go with my film then, and when I got home I couldn't even sleep I was so worried and worked up over this. And I kept trying to think about what was wrong with my story and how to make it better, and any creativity I had before was just gone. I spent most of the day trying not to break down in tears, and I wasn't thinking straight and had some kind of mini breakdown.
I want so badly to do well with this film, and to hear that, even though I kinda knew about a lot of it, was kinda heartbreaking.... D':
I'm meeting up with my lecturer on wednesday for an emergency appointment to revise my story, and i'm getting some ideas now that I can think straight, so hopefully things will get better. Some friends have also offered to look over stuff storywise, and if anyone else wants to do the same and offer me honest critiques, it would help so much. On the up side, the lecturer said that the stlye was nice and it could be a really pretty film if I can aobble together a story that actually works...
Apart from that, i'm going home on thursday, and have relised a little too late that I won'tget my british hetalia secret santa until after I come back because I gave my uni address and i'm leaving so early >>;; I need to get started on my own now too!!
Also, gaiz, hetalia mugs.... yay or nay?