Today was so amazing....
in a spiritual sense, not my usual loved-up thing although Matt is important in this. I'm gonna copy and paste a post I made at MW for those of you who don't post there - the guy I'm referring to here is obviously Matt.
Here's my post.I had a profound experience today. My grandmother died seven years ago after a long illness, and I was deeply upset by her passing. But ever since she died, which was before I discovered Paganism, I've felt that she's been guiding me from the spirit realm and helping to steer me in the right direction. I've heard her voice several times in my dreams and at times of real crisis, I've felt her presence.
I've been having some emotional instability this last year or so, and I met someone six months ago who has been an absolute rock. Anyway, he and I became fast friends, and about two months into our friendship, he was involved in a motor accident. Luckily he was unhurt, but I began to realise, triggered by the drama of the crash, that I had more than just friendly feelings for him. Three days later, I confessed I was falling in love with him and he admitted that he felt the same. We've been an inseparable couple ever since.
He came to my house today and we went for a walk. I live in a very mountainous region and we walked up the mountain to the cemetery in which she is buried. I wanted, subconsciously, to 'introduce' him to my grandmother by taking him to her grave. Anyway, while we were standing by her grave, I had this overwhelming feeling of love and peace, and I knew she was sending me a message that she approved. At that moment, the sun came out. I was overwhelmed and burst into tears, and he held me tight and cuddled me until I stopped crying. But I just knew that my nan was there and telling me that she approved, and I wanted to share the story with you all here.
That happened today, right up on top of the mountains above the town where I live. The temp was below freezing and it was trying to snow, but somehow it became the most romantic and also the most spiritual experience I have ever had. It was the first time Matt has ever been with me when I've cried, and that felt nice - that he was there to comfort me and he didn't freak out - but the really important part was that Nan was there, and that she approves of my falling in love with him. It just confirms what I knew in my heart anyway - that I do truly love him, and that she's been guiding me. She's with me now, I can feel her presence. And I'm not frightened. I feel warm and happy, just like her presence made me feel when she was alive. I feel a little emotional, knowing that she's so close again, but mostly I am so grateful. Nan helped me to find the Goddess, and I know she's helping me to make the right decisions and live my life the best way I can. I love you, Nanny.
Here's my post.I had a profound experience today. My grandmother died seven years ago after a long illness, and I was deeply upset by her passing. But ever since she died, which was before I discovered Paganism, I've felt that she's been guiding me from the spirit realm and helping to steer me in the right direction. I've heard her voice several times in my dreams and at times of real crisis, I've felt her presence.
I've been having some emotional instability this last year or so, and I met someone six months ago who has been an absolute rock. Anyway, he and I became fast friends, and about two months into our friendship, he was involved in a motor accident. Luckily he was unhurt, but I began to realise, triggered by the drama of the crash, that I had more than just friendly feelings for him. Three days later, I confessed I was falling in love with him and he admitted that he felt the same. We've been an inseparable couple ever since.
He came to my house today and we went for a walk. I live in a very mountainous region and we walked up the mountain to the cemetery in which she is buried. I wanted, subconsciously, to 'introduce' him to my grandmother by taking him to her grave. Anyway, while we were standing by her grave, I had this overwhelming feeling of love and peace, and I knew she was sending me a message that she approved. At that moment, the sun came out. I was overwhelmed and burst into tears, and he held me tight and cuddled me until I stopped crying. But I just knew that my nan was there and telling me that she approved, and I wanted to share the story with you all here.
That happened today, right up on top of the mountains above the town where I live. The temp was below freezing and it was trying to snow, but somehow it became the most romantic and also the most spiritual experience I have ever had. It was the first time Matt has ever been with me when I've cried, and that felt nice - that he was there to comfort me and he didn't freak out - but the really important part was that Nan was there, and that she approves of my falling in love with him. It just confirms what I knew in my heart anyway - that I do truly love him, and that she's been guiding me. She's with me now, I can feel her presence. And I'm not frightened. I feel warm and happy, just like her presence made me feel when she was alive. I feel a little emotional, knowing that she's so close again, but mostly I am so grateful. Nan helped me to find the Goddess, and I know she's helping me to make the right decisions and live my life the best way I can. I love you, Nanny.