I am not an angry animal.
Three weeks from now, I'll be snug in my Franklin bed, the sounds of my family breathing wrapped around me. A month from then, I'll be separated from the US Navy. I haven't quite formulated it yet but I have learned some things about myself.
The first (and the main) thing is that the anger and restlessness (the constant hand twitch, leg bouncing, inability to sit still for more than a half hour) I've always had is not an innate streak of aggression as I thought. It's an extra vein of energy that I think most people don't have. And I have to expend it or it turns into the aforementioned anger.That's the easiest thing for me to convert it to. I'm a human Siberian Husky. This energy can be channeled into friendships, happiness, singing, exercise, cooking, movement of any kind among others. Basically anything, I just need to get rid of it and in a positive way. This also explains my ambition, my work ethic, my over achievement. But, then again, anger and over achievement coexisted for a very long time.
Since I share my personality with my father, I think this explains his anger issues, his quick temper, his twitchiness. Maybe he hasn't come to the understanding I have.
So I can take this information and use it to understand myself. To circumvent issues that have come up in the past. Maybe channel it into some hope.
The first (and the main) thing is that the anger and restlessness (the constant hand twitch, leg bouncing, inability to sit still for more than a half hour) I've always had is not an innate streak of aggression as I thought. It's an extra vein of energy that I think most people don't have. And I have to expend it or it turns into the aforementioned anger.That's the easiest thing for me to convert it to. I'm a human Siberian Husky. This energy can be channeled into friendships, happiness, singing, exercise, cooking, movement of any kind among others. Basically anything, I just need to get rid of it and in a positive way. This also explains my ambition, my work ethic, my over achievement. But, then again, anger and over achievement coexisted for a very long time.
Since I share my personality with my father, I think this explains his anger issues, his quick temper, his twitchiness. Maybe he hasn't come to the understanding I have.
So I can take this information and use it to understand myself. To circumvent issues that have come up in the past. Maybe channel it into some hope.