don't ask.
this is so absurd.
i am literally the only person i know that is up at this late an hour, doing a project that is more or less in vain, being a perfectionist yet blaming the imperfections on my more artistic side expressing/manifesting itself. randomly.
i am the only person i know that is crazy enough to stay up until this hour doing something that i, for one reason or another, actually care about. rather deeply.
especially to put aside all other homework and work on this - masterpiece, for about four or so hours straight. (just tonight.)
even sitting there, with four pieces of tape on my fingers, falling asleep without even realizing it then opening my eyes, surprised that i hadn't fallen over and slept, but just. sat there, on the ground.
i have become expert at rolling tape. ask me to and i can probably roll four pieces of tape in under... however-many seconds.
why? because i am that dedicated. (and awesome. or so it is hoped.)
i am the only person i know that is up @ 3:30 a.m. taping seran/plastic wrap to a science fair tri-fold poster board in wonderfully wonderful/desperate/hopeful hopes that this time,
this energy,
this sacrifice,
all of this,
is in the end,
with result in,
all worth it.
victory.
something positive.
i am literally the only person i know that is up at this late an hour, doing a project that is more or less in vain, being a perfectionist yet blaming the imperfections on my more artistic side expressing/manifesting itself. randomly.
i am the only person i know that is crazy enough to stay up until this hour doing something that i, for one reason or another, actually care about. rather deeply.
especially to put aside all other homework and work on this - masterpiece, for about four or so hours straight. (just tonight.)
even sitting there, with four pieces of tape on my fingers, falling asleep without even realizing it then opening my eyes, surprised that i hadn't fallen over and slept, but just. sat there, on the ground.
i have become expert at rolling tape. ask me to and i can probably roll four pieces of tape in under... however-many seconds.
why? because i am that dedicated. (and awesome. or so it is hoped.)
i am the only person i know that is up @ 3:30 a.m. taping seran/plastic wrap to a science fair tri-fold poster board in wonderfully wonderful/desperate/hopeful hopes that this time,
this energy,
this sacrifice,
all of this,
is in the end,
with result in,
all worth it.
victory.
something positive.