getting IRKed
Seriouslly! Can some men take NO for a fucking answer. Josh and I have been over now for a week and I want to be happy...but he keeps callin/leaving messages on my cell...And I don't have the guts/balls to black calls. And that's just not in my nature to do so. I'm a very calm person at times. But Josh is pushing every fucking button of mine. He lied to me, cheated on me and those things I take very seriously. I know some people forgive...But prolly all but 2 or 3 of my significant others have NOT cheated. Today Josh calls me and says he really needs to talk, I don't give a shit...If he didn't have the respect that I gave to him, with me being loyal and truthful and all that. Why didnt he give me that in return? I'm not going to give that respect after what he did to me. But then he left a message saying he bought me The Crow DVD box set. Now if we were still an item, I'd be thankful and just loving him, 'cause I've wanted this for like a few years. But now, he can send it back, sell it...or shove it up his ass for all that I care, shove it up sideways it might feel better that way. I know I'm bitter now...But It's still a week out from the break up, I'll prolly get better within the next weeks to come, I hope so. Billy and I are drinkin again tonight, but we have 2 more people over, my frind J and his girlfriend Allie, she wont make it. I know her alc tolerance is pretty low and she's 32, lol. But we're going to play the Lord of the Rings Drinking Game...it's gunna be fun...tonight were doing stuff from Two Towers, I'll let you know who wins. But I'm off like a dress on prom night =D
~Wendster~
~Wendster~