tleilaxu! i have not talked to you in a while! yes i believe it definately was simply an experience i created that needed to happen. well i believe we create our own realities.. some underlining lesson i needed to learn. havent quite exactly figured out what i will learn from it. it takes time i suppose. im still undergoing the transition from having someone there and then being alone. it is hard... but its neccessary. im actually surprised at how quickly i feel im letting go.
you know what i think it may be.. i have been in three very similar situations me, my man, and another woman. always. each of the three men i "fell" for in some way brought another female into the picture. and each time i went back to them i took the easy and more painful way out and stayed with them untill eventually id move on.. and what not. but with this last third one.. im not going to go back. i have let go already and know what i need to do. i think that is the lesson tleilaxu.. dont turn back. its time to leave the situation and im actually very positive about it. like with everything. its all just life the good and the bad are both beautiful. its a balance you have to experience one to experience the other. but most people get extremely pessimistic during the bad times. i am not tho. its all just a change.. and change is good. life is amazing! and i want to chill with you some day man have some real conversations in person instead of pursuing our aquiantanship cyberneticly.
yes i believe it definately was simply an experience i created that needed to happen. well i believe we create our own realities..
some underlining lesson i needed to learn.
havent quite exactly figured out what i will learn from it.
it takes time i suppose.
im still undergoing the transition from having someone there
and then being alone.
it is hard...
but its neccessary.
im actually surprised at how quickly i feel im letting go.
you know what i think it may be..
i have been in three very similar situations
me, my man, and another woman.
always.
each of the three men i "fell" for
in some way brought another female into the picture.
and each time i went back to them
i took the easy and more painful way out
and stayed with them
untill eventually id move on.. and what not.
but with this last third one..
im not going to go back.
i have let go already and know what i need to do.
i think that is the lesson tleilaxu..
dont turn back.
its time to leave the situation
and im actually very positive about it.
like with everything.
its all just life
the good and the bad
are both beautiful.
its a balance
you have to experience one to experience the other.
but most people
get extremely pessimistic during the bad times.
i am not tho.
its all just a change..
and change is good.
life is amazing!
and i want to chill with you some day man
have some real conversations in person instead of pursuing
our aquiantanship cyberneticly.
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