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I'm at the point where I really don't know what the fuck is the matter with me anymore. I swear to god i've turned mental. I'm a moody, deppressed, pretty much bitch and that's my story and I've been sticking to it. I just don't know anymore. I'm happy but I'm not. I'm frustrated to the brink. As for school I'm at my last thread, no lie. I'm so tired of doing this shit... by the time I graduate... what will I accomplish??? probably get placed in a horrible fucking job... and here I am, to be a counselor to other women to better their lives... when mine already is fucked up. I don't understand why I'm so negative... but it seems that every free night I have I turn it to shit. I have really no one else to blame except for my actions. right now I feel like a horrible person to my boyfriend. I want to bellieve it's because I'm taking on too much and I'm about to snap... this I knew a long time ago. But still, the nights that I have free, I fucking get all depressed because I miss the life I once had, with the people I miss. I do the same repetitve shit over and over again here in MA, and I'm just tired of it.
i've been to the bar... so i'm sure this isn't making any matters better. I just need to let some shit out- because I feel as though not many people understand right now that I'm about to flip a shit, because I can't take this much longer. I hate grad school. I hate doing internships that have nothing to do with me. I just hate this whole thing right now.
i've been to the bar... so i'm sure this isn't making any matters better. I just need to let some shit out- because I feel as though not many people understand right now that I'm about to flip a shit, because I can't take this much longer. I hate grad school. I hate doing internships that have nothing to do with me. I just hate this whole thing right now.