Today Was A Bad Day.
Current Music: Three Days Grace - Now or Never, Animal I Have Become
I don't feel like saying exactly why but I am very angry right now. Angry at quite a few things. Was just slightly bothering me but it just keeps getting worse because I am holding it in and not saying anything.
Today I woke up and my temper was very blah and then I just got set off and exploded part of my frustrations. It helped for a bit but then I went to work. (Random side note: I went to work feeling somehow I'd end up at door even though I was concession. And when I got there Lane asked me to switch with her at door.) I was lucky though to be at door because I get to be alone at door so there isn't anyone that I'd be forced to really talk to, thus no one to explode at.
Through out the day I was alone though so it was bad being at door a bit because all I could do was think so I slowly just got angrier and angrier. Lane was kinda annoying though cuz when I told her I was going crazy at door alone all she said was "Thats what you get for being nice, Nice guys finish last!". I don't think she meant it but I wasn't in the mood for it. I also got a bit upset when I had to cut my hair tie off my finger because it got too tight. I tied it back on and it was all fine though. My finger also isn't being strangled anymore so thats good. Anyway.. Door started to get maddening because it was really slow today, and there were like two times when no one came in for 45 minutes so I just went a lil crazy standing still with no one really around.
I finally got to go on break and I got someone to switch with me tomorrow so I don't have to fucking close again. I was mad at the schedule again though. I swear I ask every time to get morning shifts and they never do. I fucking hate closing. And I got both fucking days at the stupid Family Shit Festival so I am pissed at that too. Am I just the fucking schedule bitch? Just fill the last spots of the schedule with Mike, yep.
Anyway.. Dan came in today which was cool for like 5 minutes, and when I went on break I went and sat in Batman with him for a bit. I got back and it was a ghost town again. Then I saw someone that just set everything off in my head. Everything that I am upset about just went FUCKING BOOM!! Stupid people, I swear.. I will lose it one of these days. I just started starring straight ahead to keep from losing it until they were gone. After which time I promptly SMASH my fist into the wall several times. My hand was sore as shit and very red but I really didn't care, I just kept hitting the wall. It is kinda bruised now though, still don't really care. That went on for about an hour until the sad little high light of my day came along.
Jessica came in with her mom to see The Mummy and they were like almost and hour early so they couldn't go in yet. So I convinced her to just hang out at door with me until they went in. And by convinced I mean.. Begged. So she just sat there with her mom and we all talked while I was at door for like 45 minutes. It was fun and it kept my mind off other shit so I was happy, if only for a moment.
They went in and then I stood at door for a bit longer.. Punched the wall some more and then got to go help close. I got to then leave and I went to watch the rest of The Mummy with Jessica and her mom.
( A second side note: Like I thought though the movie wasn't very good at all. One saving grace to the movie was that it had really cool and cute yetis.. I totally want one. Overall though it was kinda bad. It was kinda funny but the sappy wannabe romance just annoyed me. It is suppose to be an action-y movie not a boring story with random semi-funny jokes randomly placed in it. The Mummy story just wasn't there for me. Very disappointing. )
When that was over I came home and was hoping to have a reply to what I said before I left for work. It was actually something I was looking forward to reading through out the day. But there was no reply. So my shit-tacular day ended in disappointment which then fueled my insomnia to this time in the morning. I now have to wake up in less than 5 hours to go to work. And with my luck I will get home and find out Jenny isn't gonna be on. Which means I won't be able to talk to here again until fucking Monday or Tuesday. I swear if she isn't on tomorrow I might just explode.
Final Thoughts: I'm sure by the time I wake up all this anger will all just be sadness so I will surely have an amazing day tomorrow. Fun stuff..
I don't feel like saying exactly why but I am very angry right now. Angry at quite a few things. Was just slightly bothering me but it just keeps getting worse because I am holding it in and not saying anything.
Today I woke up and my temper was very blah and then I just got set off and exploded part of my frustrations. It helped for a bit but then I went to work. (Random side note: I went to work feeling somehow I'd end up at door even though I was concession. And when I got there Lane asked me to switch with her at door.) I was lucky though to be at door because I get to be alone at door so there isn't anyone that I'd be forced to really talk to, thus no one to explode at.
Through out the day I was alone though so it was bad being at door a bit because all I could do was think so I slowly just got angrier and angrier. Lane was kinda annoying though cuz when I told her I was going crazy at door alone all she said was "Thats what you get for being nice, Nice guys finish last!". I don't think she meant it but I wasn't in the mood for it. I also got a bit upset when I had to cut my hair tie off my finger because it got too tight. I tied it back on and it was all fine though. My finger also isn't being strangled anymore so thats good. Anyway.. Door started to get maddening because it was really slow today, and there were like two times when no one came in for 45 minutes so I just went a lil crazy standing still with no one really around.
I finally got to go on break and I got someone to switch with me tomorrow so I don't have to fucking close again. I was mad at the schedule again though. I swear I ask every time to get morning shifts and they never do. I fucking hate closing. And I got both fucking days at the stupid Family Shit Festival so I am pissed at that too. Am I just the fucking schedule bitch? Just fill the last spots of the schedule with Mike, yep.
Anyway.. Dan came in today which was cool for like 5 minutes, and when I went on break I went and sat in Batman with him for a bit. I got back and it was a ghost town again. Then I saw someone that just set everything off in my head. Everything that I am upset about just went FUCKING BOOM!! Stupid people, I swear.. I will lose it one of these days. I just started starring straight ahead to keep from losing it until they were gone. After which time I promptly SMASH my fist into the wall several times. My hand was sore as shit and very red but I really didn't care, I just kept hitting the wall. It is kinda bruised now though, still don't really care. That went on for about an hour until the sad little high light of my day came along.
Jessica came in with her mom to see The Mummy and they were like almost and hour early so they couldn't go in yet. So I convinced her to just hang out at door with me until they went in. And by convinced I mean.. Begged. So she just sat there with her mom and we all talked while I was at door for like 45 minutes. It was fun and it kept my mind off other shit so I was happy, if only for a moment.
They went in and then I stood at door for a bit longer.. Punched the wall some more and then got to go help close. I got to then leave and I went to watch the rest of The Mummy with Jessica and her mom.
( A second side note: Like I thought though the movie wasn't very good at all. One saving grace to the movie was that it had really cool and cute yetis.. I totally want one. Overall though it was kinda bad. It was kinda funny but the sappy wannabe romance just annoyed me. It is suppose to be an action-y movie not a boring story with random semi-funny jokes randomly placed in it. The Mummy story just wasn't there for me. Very disappointing. )
When that was over I came home and was hoping to have a reply to what I said before I left for work. It was actually something I was looking forward to reading through out the day. But there was no reply. So my shit-tacular day ended in disappointment which then fueled my insomnia to this time in the morning. I now have to wake up in less than 5 hours to go to work. And with my luck I will get home and find out Jenny isn't gonna be on. Which means I won't be able to talk to here again until fucking Monday or Tuesday. I swear if she isn't on tomorrow I might just explode.
Final Thoughts: I'm sure by the time I wake up all this anger will all just be sadness so I will surely have an amazing day tomorrow. Fun stuff..