i dont want to smell you and lose my senses
so today was good. work puts me in a good mood for some reason and its a good way to break the day. i hopefully get paid tomorrow which im totally excited about. gonna open a bank account. hmm what else? today was pretty dull actually. came home and ate and now im here. i took out a movie at the library in which i intend to maybe watch it tonight. that made no sense but you get the point. i cant wait till christmas. i think this is the first christmas in which i havent snooped. mainly because my parents went shopping for me while i was in NY and wrapped everything before i came home. so maybe it will actually be a bit more exciting this year. its going to be kinda sad without steve and joe. i usually count on steve being santa because i hate passing out presents to people and they are mostly all for me except what my parents got eachother. as sad as it sounds, id actually rather wait until steve comes down to open presents. maybe ill do that. i have no friends. heh. i need to go out and get some presents for my parents but i have no money and no ride. lalalala im bored. i need a boyfriend. not because i want to be in love and all that stuff, although it wouldnt be bad...i just want a friend who is a guy...ive never really had that because most of my guy friends were gay or not exactly manly. i get along with guys better because my mind thinks more like them beh.i should be sleeping. its only like 7. im gonna go do something. bye