Calm after the storm
I would like to say Thank You too all the commenters on my previous entry. Your kind words and suggestions are very much appreciated. You are all great :D
Things are much better. I've finally made up my mind. I needed to sit down and just clear my mind. And think. Hard. I came to the conclusion that my feelings for Mike were probably nothing more than strong friendship. I've known him for ages and I got confused by our relationship. I went to the beach with John, we sat and cuddled. I got things off my chest and was totally honest with him. I told him about my fears, about my pattern and about my confusion. He knew already. He's very intuitive. He knew how I felt and was ready for it. I told him I didn't want to hurt him and didn't want to lead him on. I have a tendency of doing so, because I don't want to hurt people, but end up hurting them a lot more in the end. After hours of discussing this and talking about our future, my mind was clear. I do want to be with him. He's the right guy for me. He's such a sweetheart, I'm so glad I met him. So yeah, I now have a boyfriend.
He's leaving for a week tomorrow, and I'm leaving for a week right before he gets back. :( So we won't be able to see each other for two weeks. I'm sad. I'm going to spend some time with him today seeing as it's our last day together. I'm going to miss him.
Alright guys, I need suggestions. I have a few projects that I'm currently working on to expand the Lavished.net network. If there are things you would like to see added, leave a comment or e-mail me at scott@lavished.net. :D
Things are much better. I've finally made up my mind. I needed to sit down and just clear my mind. And think. Hard. I came to the conclusion that my feelings for Mike were probably nothing more than strong friendship. I've known him for ages and I got confused by our relationship. I went to the beach with John, we sat and cuddled. I got things off my chest and was totally honest with him. I told him about my fears, about my pattern and about my confusion. He knew already. He's very intuitive. He knew how I felt and was ready for it. I told him I didn't want to hurt him and didn't want to lead him on. I have a tendency of doing so, because I don't want to hurt people, but end up hurting them a lot more in the end. After hours of discussing this and talking about our future, my mind was clear. I do want to be with him. He's the right guy for me. He's such a sweetheart, I'm so glad I met him. So yeah, I now have a boyfriend.
He's leaving for a week tomorrow, and I'm leaving for a week right before he gets back. :( So we won't be able to see each other for two weeks. I'm sad. I'm going to spend some time with him today seeing as it's our last day together. I'm going to miss him.
Alright guys, I need suggestions. I have a few projects that I'm currently working on to expand the Lavished.net network. If there are things you would like to see added, leave a comment or e-mail me at scott@lavished.net. :D