i need some coffee
sooooo yeah.
i didn't end up going to Ai today. i figured out that there was no need for it. i'm not waking up at 6am for a class i might not have to take. i'll be there alll day monday so i can do everything then.
apparently i have bad credit. that sucks. i owe cingular 188 dolars. thas it. i just haven't paid it yet coz i thought it wouldn't do anything. i went to go buy a new phone last night at verizon and in order to get a phone i need to put down a deposit.... a deposit that i get back, but still. really stupid, really insanly large deposit....... of a fucking $1000!!! yes 3 zeros. thas disgusting. it's not like cingular can't afford to run thier business without my $188. it's not like they don't have a billon and 7 other customers that pay a shit load a month just to have a cell phone. but because of my measly $188 i have to pay ATHOUSAND DOLLARS TO GET A PHONE?? how does that make sence. i'll pay the freakin 188. that better take away the whole deposit crap. if it doesn't then i'm gonna be more pissed.
today is a girlie day with Lydz and Tay. i need this more than anything right now. i'm so sick, my teeth hurt, i'm confused about school haha AGAIN. i have shitty credit, i'm trying to save up for a car but a but load of crap just gets put in my way. wut about CHRISTMAS?? so i'm tryign to save up for a car and an apt. but then lydie had to get preggers and freakin married to a guy no one wants her to marry.. let alone the fact that the guy is fuckin 36 years old. yeah. she's 19. i think i'm gonna throw up. so now i have to pay for a dress, a wedding gift, a bridal shower, bachelorette party?? a baby shower, tons of shit for the kid, Christmas presents, a present and a dress for my sisters wedding and wedding shower, bachelorett party, $700 in bills. yeah this sucks. PLUS money just to get to school and home, money for books, school stuff, School itself. yeah only my mom and I are paying for school. AI fucking a million dollar school. need about 7 jobs right now. i thought i was on the track to getting outta debt. i was all set with just paying off my credit card then getting a car. that was my plan and it was gonna work. after i got my car i work more towards an apartment. then i could move into boston and be all set.
i seriously feel like something is telling me never to get a car. i seriously feel like i'm going to die in a car accident. there has been soooooooooooooooooooooooo many times that i had the money to buy a car and was going to, then randomly outta no where something would come up, or i'd have to pay off a bill first or haha buy an apartment. it's just so werid. nothing likes to work out that well for me does it???
grrrrrrr. haah welp. atleast i got a little more hours at work. if only i could get another job, then i wouldn't worry so much.
i need coffe like no tomorrow and then it's off to hop in the showah.
oh yeah and incase u didn't know... money is stupid.
i didn't end up going to Ai today. i figured out that there was no need for it. i'm not waking up at 6am for a class i might not have to take. i'll be there alll day monday so i can do everything then.
apparently i have bad credit. that sucks. i owe cingular 188 dolars. thas it. i just haven't paid it yet coz i thought it wouldn't do anything. i went to go buy a new phone last night at verizon and in order to get a phone i need to put down a deposit.... a deposit that i get back, but still. really stupid, really insanly large deposit....... of a fucking $1000!!! yes 3 zeros. thas disgusting. it's not like cingular can't afford to run thier business without my $188. it's not like they don't have a billon and 7 other customers that pay a shit load a month just to have a cell phone. but because of my measly $188 i have to pay ATHOUSAND DOLLARS TO GET A PHONE?? how does that make sence. i'll pay the freakin 188. that better take away the whole deposit crap. if it doesn't then i'm gonna be more pissed.
today is a girlie day with Lydz and Tay. i need this more than anything right now. i'm so sick, my teeth hurt, i'm confused about school haha AGAIN. i have shitty credit, i'm trying to save up for a car but a but load of crap just gets put in my way. wut about CHRISTMAS?? so i'm tryign to save up for a car and an apt. but then lydie had to get preggers and freakin married to a guy no one wants her to marry.. let alone the fact that the guy is fuckin 36 years old. yeah. she's 19. i think i'm gonna throw up. so now i have to pay for a dress, a wedding gift, a bridal shower, bachelorette party?? a baby shower, tons of shit for the kid, Christmas presents, a present and a dress for my sisters wedding and wedding shower, bachelorett party, $700 in bills. yeah this sucks. PLUS money just to get to school and home, money for books, school stuff, School itself. yeah only my mom and I are paying for school. AI fucking a million dollar school. need about 7 jobs right now. i thought i was on the track to getting outta debt. i was all set with just paying off my credit card then getting a car. that was my plan and it was gonna work. after i got my car i work more towards an apartment. then i could move into boston and be all set.
i seriously feel like something is telling me never to get a car. i seriously feel like i'm going to die in a car accident. there has been soooooooooooooooooooooooo many times that i had the money to buy a car and was going to, then randomly outta no where something would come up, or i'd have to pay off a bill first or haha buy an apartment. it's just so werid. nothing likes to work out that well for me does it???
grrrrrrr. haah welp. atleast i got a little more hours at work. if only i could get another job, then i wouldn't worry so much.
i need coffe like no tomorrow and then it's off to hop in the showah.
oh yeah and incase u didn't know... money is stupid.