I speak how i feel. im not ever scared.

[sillymistakes]

So alot of people are mad at me because of what i said about brandon. This has been going on now for a few weeks now. And for me to bring it up may start drama and maybe this isnt the brightest idea, but i wanted to clear a few things one

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[soigounnoticed]

i'm with rachel on this. i never said i hated you brittani, and i don't. was i mad? hell yes, but you have to understand where i was coming from. i've experience a lot of death in my life and been to more funerals than i should. around 6. you'd think i'd be used to death kinda, after all, a kid i grew up with died of a drug overdose and a long time ago, he and i were real close. but his death was caused by stupidity. brandon's wasn't, and brandon was more like a brother than a friend to me, so naturally, it hit me harder. after i've broken up with someone, or gotten dumped, i've said "man, my heart hurts/aches" but when brandon died, that was the first time my heart actually physically hurt. i literally felt sick to my stomach and wanted to just curl up in HER (can't say who she is) arms and cry my eyes out for days. i cried so much that week it's rediculous. and when i read that and we had that whole conversation, it just came at a really bad time when i was thinking with my emotions. so i'm sorry. i know you blame everyone hating you on me, and for that, i'm sorry. i just figured thought that i'd let you know that i don't hate you and never did. i was furious, but now i'm not. yes it does bother me a little bit still, but i'll get over it in time. so this is my apology/reasoning. i'm sorry.
-mike