I speak how i feel. im not ever scared.
So alot of people are mad at me because of what i said about brandon. This has been going on now for a few weeks now. And for me to bring it up may start drama and maybe this isnt the brightest idea, but i wanted to clear a few things one.
ONE - if you do happen to hear about it, ask me what i said. i'll tell you the truth, better yet i'll show you mike's journal with my comment on there. Some people have came up to me with wild questions. One was "is it true you said brandon died because he never went to church?" Okay people. Now that is crazy talk and you know it. I never used the word church in my vocabulary. In fact i dont call church, church i call it fellowship. So its obvious stories have gotten mixed up. What i did was misunderstood, and i expect every single one of you mad. But i promise you from the bottom of my heart i didnt mean it the way you took it. Im not heartless. Do you know what heartless is? A girl came up to me saying "what did you say that got everyone so mad about that dead guy?" WOW. The way she worded that was really messed up, even I (the sick in the head girl) didnt even word anything involving those words. But if your curious what i did mean, please feel free to IM me and i will tell you the honest truth -- Aim : giving into you.
TWO - It's funny how after alot of people got very angry with me, a few days later some people put in there journals how this brandon incident affected them in many ways and they relized they should love more and forgive more easily and live everyday like it there last. and yet, not half the people mad at me has forgave me for using my bad choice of words, or has took the time to ask what i really meant. HM WHAT IS THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THAT PICTURE? you people contradicted yourself pretty bad there.
THREE - if you think i care that you all are mad. I AM. of course i care, exspecially for something that i didnt even mean the way you all took it. Now if i said it and i menat it and i relized later on that was fucked up, i can see where i wa sin the wrong, but in a way i wasnet because i meant good not bad.
So i was clearing all that up. If you disagree or have any rude comments to say, please dont waste your time cramping your fingers typing it to me. It wont get you anywhere because what i said is the truth, and God and brandon also in heaven know what i truely meant, and the last thing they all want is us fighting over something that i didnt mean.
Love more and forgive easily? Lets see you take action in that.
<3
btw ~ yes i am leaveing LJ i just wanted to voice that. thanks.
ONE - if you do happen to hear about it, ask me what i said. i'll tell you the truth, better yet i'll show you mike's journal with my comment on there. Some people have came up to me with wild questions. One was "is it true you said brandon died because he never went to church?" Okay people. Now that is crazy talk and you know it. I never used the word church in my vocabulary. In fact i dont call church, church i call it fellowship. So its obvious stories have gotten mixed up. What i did was misunderstood, and i expect every single one of you mad. But i promise you from the bottom of my heart i didnt mean it the way you took it. Im not heartless. Do you know what heartless is? A girl came up to me saying "what did you say that got everyone so mad about that dead guy?" WOW. The way she worded that was really messed up, even I (the sick in the head girl) didnt even word anything involving those words. But if your curious what i did mean, please feel free to IM me and i will tell you the honest truth -- Aim : giving into you.
TWO - It's funny how after alot of people got very angry with me, a few days later some people put in there journals how this brandon incident affected them in many ways and they relized they should love more and forgive more easily and live everyday like it there last. and yet, not half the people mad at me has forgave me for using my bad choice of words, or has took the time to ask what i really meant. HM WHAT IS THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THAT PICTURE? you people contradicted yourself pretty bad there.
THREE - if you think i care that you all are mad. I AM. of course i care, exspecially for something that i didnt even mean the way you all took it. Now if i said it and i menat it and i relized later on that was fucked up, i can see where i wa sin the wrong, but in a way i wasnet because i meant good not bad.
So i was clearing all that up. If you disagree or have any rude comments to say, please dont waste your time cramping your fingers typing it to me. It wont get you anywhere because what i said is the truth, and God and brandon also in heaven know what i truely meant, and the last thing they all want is us fighting over something that i didnt mean.
Love more and forgive easily? Lets see you take action in that.
<3
btw ~ yes i am leaveing LJ i just wanted to voice that. thanks.