GIFT AND HOPE Chapter 1
chapter 1 :
jaejoong's pov:
I like baozi ..well how to say ..love her and hate her ?..but then I don’t hate so just love her ?...hahahhahah im weird ..well what I mean is that she tells me her biggest darkest secrets and I love playing problems solver ..hahhhaha its cool and also not being able to solve my own problems makes me feel stupid but then solving others makes me feel like ..im worth living ?...
but then this girl ..her stories are interesting but umm..like she doesn’t know that im like a book warm I know all sickness and medical things and so when she talks medical problems I know she is lying ..but then ..i dont live with her and don’t know her for real and its not like im a god and know everything so maybe she is not lying …anyway I don’t care either way she is nice to talk to ..partly since she is always there and im always there ..
well I met her after meeting the loveliest girl in chat (in my opinion ) shorty ..hahahha I love her nickname lol..she is lesbian girl and she is always calling me oppa and I said she is my daughter ..she is sooooo cool I love her …not love romantic but like love her ..but then this baozi is like a dictator ..she gets upset if that girl talked to me and she will be mad saying shorty is not giving her attention and things like that and shorty will feel bad ..i felt bad too cause its becoming a problem to shorty so I said to her once when baozi not there to talk to me on pm and there I gave her my email and told her to talk to me on msn that way baozi wont be mad …and that was how we talked all the time ..i just say hi and she says hi back on chat and then I talk to other people while talking to her on msn ..kind of felt like we are two lovers hiding hhahaha…
When I wanted to adopt yoochun didn’t say no to me …he said yes and tried to find a baby girl for me like i wanted …
he is nice ..he is always nice ..but im too damaged ..too screwed up ..i cant even let him touch me like he wants to..im scared of him ..im not in my mind but I flinch from him and get away most of the time until one day he snapped and raped me …but then im used to rape and he didn’t hurt me badly so I forgave him right away …I thought if I didn’t come to net I wouldn’t even know the difference between rape and sex …
Then shorty had to leave ..she said she will keep coming from time to time but cant be on line like she used to …I felt so bad and cried a lot …she was my best friend…but then to my luck things got worse when one day I was looking around in the room and found a paper ..a piece of paper hidden in clothes …it was an ownership contract …mine …I was owned by yoochun …the whole room started spinning and I fell down …after sometime when I woke up yoochun was there and I was in bed …he was looking out of the window and when he heard me moving he looked back at me and ran quickly to my side then he said :
"im ..im really sorry jaejoong"
I said with a shaking voice :
"what does that paper mean yoochun ..tell me "
Yoochun looked down ,gulped then said :
"I bought you jae …I bought you from your dad …"
"bought?"
"you know im your dad's friend ..he told me to tell you that he wanted to make sure you are in good hands so he married you to his best friend while that was not the case …I loved you jaejoong for so long ..since you were 12 years old ..you were like my sunshine …I still remember how you would run to the room when you know its time for your check up and you would whisper to your sisters that "uncle handsome " is there and I remember once your sister "Tulane" hit your head saying he is the doctor not uncle handsome but you laughed and ran to me …I loved you since then jae …I know you were a little kid and it was wrong to love you but I did ..and since its wrong to love you I wanted for you to get older so maybe I can ask for your hand in marriage but …but when you were 15 you had a boyfriend …and well I gave up ..but after what happened with him your dad called me and said that he had a deal for me …that he will marry you to me on one condition …that I buy you from him ..he said he needed money …i..i wanted you badly and being older thought I had no chance …and even if you loved me ..your dad wont give you to me unless I marry you so …I bought you and we married …I bought you with almost all of my money…"
"dad sold me to you …"
It was the biggest shock of my life ..me ..his prince …he did alot but selling me was …
somehow I just got up and ran to the laptop turned it on with tears in my eyes and right away went to the chat site …yoochun looked at me for a while then he got his book and started reading …I know he is hurt too but no where as hurt as me …I was broken yet again …and to my luck it was baozi on chat and I felt dizzy talking to her ..there was another person on net ..changmin …he was talking to me about street kids ..i love that subject but I was about to go crazy …I was really about to go crazy that is ofcourse on addition that baozi was saying every three seconds im boreddddddddddddddd oppa entertain me ..you would think she think of me as a clown …
I was about to snap at her when she said she had to go I thanked god …that left me and changmin and somehow the word slave skipped me and I asked about what he think of slaves ..i am one ..i know I am a slave …I was my dad's and that somehow made it easier since well ..he is my dad …but now ..now im my husband's slave …it felt like I was burning …I think he felt this was deeper than what I was saying so he said :
"If you want to you can tell me what is your problem Jaejoong."
I felt I can …well partly I felt I can tell him and trust him and partly I just wanted to talk to someone …so I asked for his msn and he gave it ..
Changmin's POV
We talked.
Well I found out. He is not that bad. And I really felt sorry hearing his story.
I mean seriously? How can a father sells his own son?
We talk long time that day. Until somehow I fell asleep.
Hahahahah I was sorry i was falling asleep. Cause you know there are time difference and I fall asleep not because he boring but cause I need sleep.
I teased him alot. We will talk everyday since that day.
Then He said He will ask divorce from Yoochun. I said how about mmm ownership? He said he will saves his money to buy himself back. I am glad for him. He said he will live with his new lover. I was thinking isnt that too fast finding lover after u said u want to divorce ? But I hold back. Jaejoong said Yunho is His friend since little and Yunho said he loved Jaejoong from long time but keep holding back cause before Jaejoong had boyfriend and then husband. He said he prefer hold his feeling than cant see Jaejoong anymore.
I asked him what made him brave enough to ask for divorce. He said cause he already found a baby girl to adopt and if He still with Yoochun, Yoochun will register as baby's dad and He doesnt want to.
SHorty comes online. Jaejoong doesnt know me and shorty are close. And Shorty actually has 2 accounts. Shorty is nice. So Looks like Jaejoong loves SHorty too. And we talk about anything. They called me Meanie Min cause i keep teased them or jokily insult them. Then I said to Shorty that Jaejoong actually more expert than anyone in sex (Jaejoong said he did 5 somes well OT 5 at college). Shorty blushing. Shorty said Min You went SBS too with Oppa? I was like huh? SBS? What is SBS?
Then they explained to me they said SBS is Sex Buddy System. So Jaejoong will online and having sex and we will tell how Jae should act. Shorty still in early teenager. She said she is confused what to do. I was laughing.
The other day I told Lona about our chat and she sounds like little but jealous that i talked alot with Jaejoong. So we started to do conference Me Lona and Jae. Hahahahahha Jae invite us to do sbs. And somehow I fall asleep. When I wake up Jae already done having sex.
After that day it always me Jae and Lona talking at msn. We talked together almost everyday. Jae showed us baby girl he adopt her name is Uriela, we called her Uri. That baby girl is so cute.
But somehow like mmm I am being left out again. I guess not many people love talking to me. But me and Jae always talking with me always fall asleep. Not easy to keep up with time differences. Until one day I go online early. Jae said he is not okay. I asked why he said to ask Lona he doesnt want to explain again. I kinda feel mmmmm okay I am so out of their circle. I asked Lona , she said Yoochun came with few men and raped Jae when Yunho outside. Poor him.
Days and days I feel not comfortable anymore online. I got no friends now. Jae only talk to Lona i always the one who being do u know Jae or Lona has problem. Or Jae happy cause he got kind of graduation in this sites.
That day i feel like usual boring. Shorty come online and we talked but then Baozi comes online with another annoying girl. somehow they attack Shorty tell her a liar and many bad words. Shorty really a kid she afaid of that threat they told her. Jae try to defend Shorty. And I cant believe they insult Jae about he raped by his dad. I lazy to fight with stupid people like Baozi but she crossed the line. She kept saying she got heart attack and when we told her to check ( although we know she is a liar) she said doesnt want to. I silenced her by saying "Since you want to death so much I hope you get it at christmas".
Jae cried he cant believe someone can be that harsh. He said thank you , I said to him it is nothing I always stand up for my friend.
He sounded shock I called him friend. I feel ahhhh so he doesnt think me as friend, OFC not he talk more with Lona than me.
He even introduced Yunho to Loona but not me .
I think Lona has crush on Jae She really being possessive and jealous if anyone talk more to Jae or talk without her being there.
That day I decided to stop come online. Then before said goodbye. Jae say his goodbye he said he will have lot o surgery to fix broken bones and all that he got from rapes. He said maybe a year later he can talk to us again. I somehow feel like want to wait for him to make sure he is okay. I wished him goodluck.
I should not come online But I feel like I have to. Like hoping maybe Jae will wake up earlier than expected.
I see his msn online. I said Hi Jae. You online, is it you? can you be online at surgery? OFC not LOL.
Then a reply come.