GIFT AND HOPE (foreword)
Characters
jaejoong ,yoochun,yunho,junsu,changmin
Description
This is actually my friend story (yunjaechun88 )
well ours.
its a yunjae story and also has jaechun in the start ...but then it turns to yunjae and yoosu
its i think a weird story since i never wrote like this ...hope you like it
i love this story and it has special place in my heart
ofcourse i dont own tvxq but i do own the story
^^
Foreword
Jaejoong's pov:
"here you go bro ..this is for you "
I looked down at the laptop in my hands and then back at my twin sister then said :
"this …I cant have this …dad will be mad "
"he wont if he didn’t know "
"what should I do with it ?"
"write ..you always help me writing ..the only difference you will be the only one writing and you will do it directly on laptop not on papers .."
"but why now ?"
"because I will have my twins really soon ..i don’t think I can take care of the stories anymore ..and who is better than you to take over them ?"
I nodded and my sister kissed my forehead then said :
"I love you baby bro "
"im not that younger ..im your twin "
"you are my younger twin …im older by 2 minutes and also you are the youngest in the family "
I pouted and she pinched my nose then left throwing a wave at me from behind her back while getting out of the room …
I looked at the black small laptop gulped and opened it ..i looked at the black screen and set of keys then when I looked back up at the black screen I saw the reflection of my smiling face …ok this might not be a bad idea …just hopefully dad wont figure out what im doing …
I turned on the laptop and started learning how to use it little by little but the only thing I was able to do in the short time I got is to write on the Microsoft word…then after like one week my oldest sister ( soelai)came to my room and said :
"here hide this wire behind your bed and attach it to the laptop"
I looked up at her and she smiled then said :
"baby prince if you want to continue posting you need net right ? this will get you contacted to net "
I smiled so big ,kissed her cheek and ran to do as she told me then she opened the site where my sister posts and she told me how to post …I was so happy ..i right away wrote a sorry massage about being late in writing and wrote the next chapter …after posting it I felt like exploring the site …so I looked up and searched in the titles above and one of them was chat ..i thought that might be interesting ..ofcourse I wont talk I will just watch people talk ..and see what they talk about …
I clicked on chat and signed in ..i was surprised with so much funny talk ..alot of things that didn’t make sense to me …I laughed a lot reading …then one day I decided to say hi …and I wrote hi then after few minutes I hit enter …now my net was slow so I got the hi s late but was happy to get them so I said so what are you talking about ? ..but then it looked to me that it didn’t show so I wrote it several times but to my surprise suddenly the chat ran and I saw how the girls answered then thought I didn’t get it so they explained then again then they laughed thinking im joking
..i said sorry and my face was burning hot …
One girl said :
"so how old are you ?"
"22"
The girls started saying how im older and stuff then one girl said :
"oh you are a boy or a girl?"
I didn’t know what to say ..i mean its safer to just say a girl since well I don’t think they will except me if they knew im a boy and above that a gay one …but then im chatting in my pen name so if they found out later im a boy they will call me a lair and I don’t want that so I gathered my courage and said :
"im a man"
The girls were like wow and really ? I nodded then I hit my head realizing they cant see me ..so I wrote:
"I will say the truth ..im a gay man …is that alright with you?"
The girls were spazzing and said ofcourse and do you have a boyfriend and stuff like that and I felt for the first time in my life accepted for who I am with no conditions ..
One girl said :
"what is your name ..your nickname is too long ><"
I thought of what to say ..should I say my name ? well it doesn’t matter whatever the name I give its not my real name …but I will be as truthful as I can and that is those 5 years name …so I typed :
"jaejoong"
The girl said nice name and we continued chatting and I felt the happiest ever and to be able to chat freely I wrote under my name" gay uke " so if people don’t want to talk to gay they wont talk to me and I wont bother them …
That was before I married yoochun ….now sitting home waiting for him …my hands ran on the laptop keys and I couldn’t help a tear falling from my eyes ..yoochun is a good guy but …but I didn’t want to be marry off like that ..i didn’t want this marriage …I didn’t want any of this ….
I wiped my tears and tried to smile …he is my husband now ..i should not act like that …whatever the case is …he is my husband …
I looked at my msn and I saw the green light of lona …good maybe I can talk to her abit and change my mood …just when I thought of that a window popped and she said :
"hi love "
"hi lona "
"how are you ?"
I swallowed my tears and put a smile on my face though she cant see me and wrote :
"perfect ..you lona ?"
She talked about somethings with me and I was giving her all my attention partly because I love listening to people talk about themselves ,partly because i care about her and partly because I wanted to forget my own problems …
Then she suddenly said :
"jae I want you to meet someone ..he is a friend of mine and when I talked to him he said he wants to meet you ..how about it ?"
I shrugged ..what harm can that do ? so I nodded and again remembered she cant see me and wrote :
"yes sure ..who is he ?"
"his name is changmin ..but be careful he is really honest and kind of bitchy and smart ass "
I smiled thinking interesting and said :
"sure I would love to meet him "
Changmin …I wonder how he really is ..i never met guys on net before ..and surely didnt meet this kind of people on net …this should be interesting …hopefully ^_^
Changmin's POV
It feels weird when u extremely busy and now like got nothing to do. I am not actually good student but well u can think me as active? Hahahha I dont know. I was busy at college taking care student council. Now my time is over i feel weird. You know i was so busy i hardly come home at holiday, and now I feel empty. My friend said Post power Syndrome. So I go on net. Go to usual site tumblr, twitter facebook emails. Hmm nothing new. Then i remember a site that people wrote about Fanfiction. I sometimes went there to read fanction about serial like House or True Blood. Ahhhhh I want to search about a group my friend told me. Is there any fanfiction about them. I found it a little but I am not satisfy yet. How about googling it. There find it.
I read at that site. Ahhh something interesting, This site has chat section.
-days later-
I found 2 best friend already Key and Loona. They are so funny and bitchy. Key is a gay man when Loona horny girl. There is something about this site makes me comfortable I can tell them about how I am a man loves to read fanfiction and sometimes gay fanfiction or lebian fanfiction. I never tell to anyone about that. Me , Key and Lona become like Kingka and Quenka there . Hahahha it is like whenever we talk everyone disappear and only three of us talking there.
Without I realize I have been daily go to that site months about 3 months i think. This site somehow makes me laugh cause well I am blunt and I see many idiot there, but it is fun to laugh at them.
Wait what is this?
I got message from Key
NO way
Key leaving the site, he kinda like have something mental breakdown. Me and Loona kinda gloomy about that. After that i found out there was some stupid drama there and Key involved and somehow take it to heart too much. The site become less interesting.
And Suddenly everything change. Loona change we find other friend named Tracie.At the first time she kinda annoying but then times go on and we become friends.
Just somehow i feel that I keep being left out. Loona only talk to Tracie. Maybe because Tracie is a girl and I am boy. You know maybe she just feel comfortable. But then Loona getting weirder and weirder> i hardly talk to her anymore. She kinda like joined this group and all of them actually annoying. I stayed with some people we used to talk with.
One day Loona asked me Do I know user called Baozi. I said i know she is a weird girl who loves to lie. Well i know she is lying cause her story dont match with reality. I know many things so maybe she can trick other people but not me. Then Loona said She was talking on chatbox with a guy. He is gay and they talk about rape. They guy been raped by His dad since 6 years old. Then Suddenly Baozi said She is been raped too. I said dont believe Baozi No way in her country it can happen.
After that day I went to cbox. Sighhh there are only Baozi and another user. I know him . He is a guy gay and married. I talked to him about street kids in my country and he sounds like not interested. I dont mind the guy but he looks like close with Baozi. Everyone close with baozi never be cool.
So I just say hi and ask how his marriage. He said problems. And Suddenly Loona comes. Hahahha Thanks God Loona comes. After a long HI how are you and teased her. We talked then Loona private message me she said :"Changmin, that is the guy I told you about before."
So we just talked normally and suddenly This guy suddenly talked about slavery and should slave gives up to think about freedom or not. I answered him. Loona has to go to work so end up only both of us. So I asked about his plan adopting a baby. He sighhhh. I asked what happen and How is his husband. He sighs more.
"If you want to you can tell me what is your problem Jaejoong."
"Do You have MSN Changmin?"
"Yup, Here shim.changmin@hotmail.com "
Then there is a friend request.
I accepted him as friend
and we begin to talk
jaejoong ,yoochun,yunho,junsu,changmin
Description
This is actually my friend story (yunjaechun88 )
well ours.
its a yunjae story and also has jaechun in the start ...but then it turns to yunjae and yoosu
its i think a weird story since i never wrote like this ...hope you like it
i love this story and it has special place in my heart
ofcourse i dont own tvxq but i do own the story
^^
Foreword
Jaejoong's pov:
"here you go bro ..this is for you "
I looked down at the laptop in my hands and then back at my twin sister then said :
"this …I cant have this …dad will be mad "
"he wont if he didn’t know "
"what should I do with it ?"
"write ..you always help me writing ..the only difference you will be the only one writing and you will do it directly on laptop not on papers .."
"but why now ?"
"because I will have my twins really soon ..i don’t think I can take care of the stories anymore ..and who is better than you to take over them ?"
I nodded and my sister kissed my forehead then said :
"I love you baby bro "
"im not that younger ..im your twin "
"you are my younger twin …im older by 2 minutes and also you are the youngest in the family "
I pouted and she pinched my nose then left throwing a wave at me from behind her back while getting out of the room …
I looked at the black small laptop gulped and opened it ..i looked at the black screen and set of keys then when I looked back up at the black screen I saw the reflection of my smiling face …ok this might not be a bad idea …just hopefully dad wont figure out what im doing …
I turned on the laptop and started learning how to use it little by little but the only thing I was able to do in the short time I got is to write on the Microsoft word…then after like one week my oldest sister ( soelai)came to my room and said :
"here hide this wire behind your bed and attach it to the laptop"
I looked up at her and she smiled then said :
"baby prince if you want to continue posting you need net right ? this will get you contacted to net "
I smiled so big ,kissed her cheek and ran to do as she told me then she opened the site where my sister posts and she told me how to post …I was so happy ..i right away wrote a sorry massage about being late in writing and wrote the next chapter …after posting it I felt like exploring the site …so I looked up and searched in the titles above and one of them was chat ..i thought that might be interesting ..ofcourse I wont talk I will just watch people talk ..and see what they talk about …
I clicked on chat and signed in ..i was surprised with so much funny talk ..alot of things that didn’t make sense to me …I laughed a lot reading …then one day I decided to say hi …and I wrote hi then after few minutes I hit enter …now my net was slow so I got the hi s late but was happy to get them so I said so what are you talking about ? ..but then it looked to me that it didn’t show so I wrote it several times but to my surprise suddenly the chat ran and I saw how the girls answered then thought I didn’t get it so they explained then again then they laughed thinking im joking
..i said sorry and my face was burning hot …
One girl said :
"so how old are you ?"
"22"
The girls started saying how im older and stuff then one girl said :
"oh you are a boy or a girl?"
I didn’t know what to say ..i mean its safer to just say a girl since well I don’t think they will except me if they knew im a boy and above that a gay one …but then im chatting in my pen name so if they found out later im a boy they will call me a lair and I don’t want that so I gathered my courage and said :
"im a man"
The girls were like wow and really ? I nodded then I hit my head realizing they cant see me ..so I wrote:
"I will say the truth ..im a gay man …is that alright with you?"
The girls were spazzing and said ofcourse and do you have a boyfriend and stuff like that and I felt for the first time in my life accepted for who I am with no conditions ..
One girl said :
"what is your name ..your nickname is too long ><"
I thought of what to say ..should I say my name ? well it doesn’t matter whatever the name I give its not my real name …but I will be as truthful as I can and that is those 5 years name …so I typed :
"jaejoong"
The girl said nice name and we continued chatting and I felt the happiest ever and to be able to chat freely I wrote under my name" gay uke " so if people don’t want to talk to gay they wont talk to me and I wont bother them …
That was before I married yoochun ….now sitting home waiting for him …my hands ran on the laptop keys and I couldn’t help a tear falling from my eyes ..yoochun is a good guy but …but I didn’t want to be marry off like that ..i didn’t want this marriage …I didn’t want any of this ….
I wiped my tears and tried to smile …he is my husband now ..i should not act like that …whatever the case is …he is my husband …
I looked at my msn and I saw the green light of lona …good maybe I can talk to her abit and change my mood …just when I thought of that a window popped and she said :
"hi love "
"hi lona "
"how are you ?"
I swallowed my tears and put a smile on my face though she cant see me and wrote :
"perfect ..you lona ?"
She talked about somethings with me and I was giving her all my attention partly because I love listening to people talk about themselves ,partly because i care about her and partly because I wanted to forget my own problems …
Then she suddenly said :
"jae I want you to meet someone ..he is a friend of mine and when I talked to him he said he wants to meet you ..how about it ?"
I shrugged ..what harm can that do ? so I nodded and again remembered she cant see me and wrote :
"yes sure ..who is he ?"
"his name is changmin ..but be careful he is really honest and kind of bitchy and smart ass "
I smiled thinking interesting and said :
"sure I would love to meet him "
Changmin …I wonder how he really is ..i never met guys on net before ..and surely didnt meet this kind of people on net …this should be interesting …hopefully ^_^
Changmin's POV
It feels weird when u extremely busy and now like got nothing to do. I am not actually good student but well u can think me as active? Hahahha I dont know. I was busy at college taking care student council. Now my time is over i feel weird. You know i was so busy i hardly come home at holiday, and now I feel empty. My friend said Post power Syndrome. So I go on net. Go to usual site tumblr, twitter facebook emails. Hmm nothing new. Then i remember a site that people wrote about Fanfiction. I sometimes went there to read fanction about serial like House or True Blood. Ahhhhh I want to search about a group my friend told me. Is there any fanfiction about them. I found it a little but I am not satisfy yet. How about googling it. There find it.
I read at that site. Ahhh something interesting, This site has chat section.
-days later-
I found 2 best friend already Key and Loona. They are so funny and bitchy. Key is a gay man when Loona horny girl. There is something about this site makes me comfortable I can tell them about how I am a man loves to read fanfiction and sometimes gay fanfiction or lebian fanfiction. I never tell to anyone about that. Me , Key and Lona become like Kingka and Quenka there . Hahahha it is like whenever we talk everyone disappear and only three of us talking there.
Without I realize I have been daily go to that site months about 3 months i think. This site somehow makes me laugh cause well I am blunt and I see many idiot there, but it is fun to laugh at them.
Wait what is this?
I got message from Key
NO way
Key leaving the site, he kinda like have something mental breakdown. Me and Loona kinda gloomy about that. After that i found out there was some stupid drama there and Key involved and somehow take it to heart too much. The site become less interesting.
And Suddenly everything change. Loona change we find other friend named Tracie.At the first time she kinda annoying but then times go on and we become friends.
Just somehow i feel that I keep being left out. Loona only talk to Tracie. Maybe because Tracie is a girl and I am boy. You know maybe she just feel comfortable. But then Loona getting weirder and weirder> i hardly talk to her anymore. She kinda like joined this group and all of them actually annoying. I stayed with some people we used to talk with.
One day Loona asked me Do I know user called Baozi. I said i know she is a weird girl who loves to lie. Well i know she is lying cause her story dont match with reality. I know many things so maybe she can trick other people but not me. Then Loona said She was talking on chatbox with a guy. He is gay and they talk about rape. They guy been raped by His dad since 6 years old. Then Suddenly Baozi said She is been raped too. I said dont believe Baozi No way in her country it can happen.
After that day I went to cbox. Sighhh there are only Baozi and another user. I know him . He is a guy gay and married. I talked to him about street kids in my country and he sounds like not interested. I dont mind the guy but he looks like close with Baozi. Everyone close with baozi never be cool.
So I just say hi and ask how his marriage. He said problems. And Suddenly Loona comes. Hahahha Thanks God Loona comes. After a long HI how are you and teased her. We talked then Loona private message me she said :"Changmin, that is the guy I told you about before."
So we just talked normally and suddenly This guy suddenly talked about slavery and should slave gives up to think about freedom or not. I answered him. Loona has to go to work so end up only both of us. So I asked about his plan adopting a baby. He sighhhh. I asked what happen and How is his husband. He sighs more.
"If you want to you can tell me what is your problem Jaejoong."
"Do You have MSN Changmin?"
"Yup, Here shim.changmin@hotmail.com "
Then there is a friend request.
I accepted him as friend
and we begin to talk