Feb 25, 2010 19:54
FUCK snow. I hate that I've been teetering on a line between sane and mental breakdown all week, and Alex is one of the only things keeping me from going right over. I am so annoyed by a roommate, and an office mate, who are generally unfriendly towards me in social and work situations (i.e. treating everyone else in the office/ group with more general friendliness and respect than me). Of course, my closest friend at work is also friends with them, so when it is the five of us (myself, my friend, my good roommate, my rude roommate, and my rude officemate), in MY house, I sometimes feel like the odd one out. It's really frustrating. I am NICE, I ask them about their days, their lab work, their research, and I'm lucky to get two words as a response. Don't be my best friend, fine, but don't be a douche.
I have been reassuring this self esteem issue with the fact that Alex is supposed to be coming here as week speak, and tomorrow we are supposed to go to the Baltimore aquarium with some other grad students who I do like, and then go to sushi, and a nice, grown up night out of my house that looks like it's full of 18 year olds where I'm treated like we're still in middle school, and he's not coming tonight, and he might not be able to get here tomorrow, or even this weekend, and I just want to cry. Of course I insisted he stay home and stay safe (tonight), there's so many accidents in NY and NJ but it doesn't make it suck less.
Also frustrating is the amount of general filth in my house. Clean your dishes (really. even after multiple, nice, requests they remain uncleaned). And clean the stove, etc etc. I just spent an hour cleaning dishes, wiping down the top and back of the stove, wiping all of the disgusting counters that look like they haven't been wiped down in weeks, washing the moldy drying rack for our dishes, unloading and reloading the dishwasher (I did this yesterday too), taking all of the beer cans off the counter and putting them in the recycle bin, cleaning mold from behind and around the faucet, and more I'm sure. There are FIVE of us, people, someone besides just me get with the picture. I don't mind wiping down the counters etc, but it's hard to gauge how gross they are when they have been covered with beer cans and dirty dishes for the past week and a half.