Hmmm...
I am really happy school starts for one reason. I have something to do with my time. Been sitting around the house thinking too much lately... if that is possible. I don't really understand a few things and some of the people in my life right now. And it is funny... seems like somedays I know exactly what I want and other days, I feel... well, confused. If that makes any sense at all. I guess my thing is, I know what I want... but I know I can't have it. So, where does that lead me? Going on a year now and I feel like I haven't that many steps forward as I would have like to. May be it isn't so easy to let go as I would like to think. I have put efforts in to trying to yet I always seem to fall down right where I left off. Then again... there are times I feel like I don't know crap, may be I am just too hard on myself. Who knows... I think I am going to start going to the doctor soon and start working on my health. Because I know it is not where it should be... and I think I am in need of a serious change. I am just blahing right now... I think I just need to go to bed.
Until next time...
Until next time...