Just rambling...
Well... what can I say? I have been lucky for the last two weekends. I have had such a great time with my friends and family. On the weekend of the 20th, I went to Macon to party a little with some friends of mine and had a great time! It was a nice change of pace... but I enjoyed it. Then the next day, Saturday, my girl Sherita was in town so she decided to hang out with Brenda, Robyn, and I at the bowling ally. And we had a great time there too! I even got her to talk with this guy... which makes me wonder if he ever called her, hmmmmm. Anyways, I finally came home today since I had been out of town. I went to visit my sister and two nephews for the weekend. I enjoyed it completely. My baby (my youngest nephew who is only one) is a mess, but what can I say, I love him! There was something about holding him in my arms and putting him to sleep that was so relaxing and calming. It was like a sense of peace that came over me. Not sure if it is a "motherly instinct" or something else... I just know it was a good feeling to have. But, I have to say... there is no place like home.
School starts next week. Sorta looking forward to it, sorta not. I read in a friend's journal talking about change. And it made me think. We are all subject to change, yet most are afraid of it. I know fear the unknown but welcome it at the same time. I guess I am weird like that. Change is going to happen, it is inevitable. How we respond to it is the question. Are we going to fall short or are we going to push forward and fight it out? I know I want to fight it out. Sure I might fall along the way, but I have to dust myself off and keep pushing forward. Which brings me back to school; I wonder to myself if this is really my calling in life. Am I making the right decision to double major now? Am I right in thinking after a finally finish my undergraduate program to go right into working on my Masters or do I need to feel it out? Or what happens if I get into a situation where I can’t work and go back to school, then what? What happens if this teaching career I have always seen myself doing doesn’t work out? Questions I wonder about often. And trust me there are many more. Things get really frustrating at times since I am ready to be finish with school and get to working. It almost feels like my life is at a stand still at times until I finish up school. I guess a little more so since I know my friends around me will be graduating next spring while I still have another year after that to go. Blah.
As far as the love life in concerned, there really isn’t much of one. I had a date with a guy maybe about two months ago and he was well… not my type. So I tried it again with another guy and he just doesn’t have it. And I sorta feel guilty because he is really a nice guy but way too laid back. He isn’t the type of person to make decisions… just goes with what everyone else is doing. And that bothers me. I need someone who can at least think on their own two feet (for example, we decided to go to the movies, but he had no idea what he wanted to do before the movies and I looked at him and said well I guess I will have to drive until you decide something and he told me that it is going to be a long drive, what the hell, so I asked if he wanted to just grab something to eat and relax at the park and of course I got a sure)… someone is going to have an idea of what they would like to do instead of saying, “I don’t know, whatever you want is fine.” Granted I say that from time to time, but I don’t want to do all the work here… it takes two. Maybe I am just going off on a limb here, but is that too much to ask? I have also noticed I have had my moods where I have been lonely a little more out of the norm. Just someone to talk to, someone to relate to, someone to joke with, someone to have somewhat of a connection with…
I am starting a yawn, I didn’t get much sleep this weekend since I was up playing SIMS all weekend… and I was addicted. It was my first time and I am going to have to get me a few games so I can play them! And I am sure by now, I have bored y’all enough so I will call it a night.
Until next time…
Keep fighting the good fight!
School starts next week. Sorta looking forward to it, sorta not. I read in a friend's journal talking about change. And it made me think. We are all subject to change, yet most are afraid of it. I know fear the unknown but welcome it at the same time. I guess I am weird like that. Change is going to happen, it is inevitable. How we respond to it is the question. Are we going to fall short or are we going to push forward and fight it out? I know I want to fight it out. Sure I might fall along the way, but I have to dust myself off and keep pushing forward. Which brings me back to school; I wonder to myself if this is really my calling in life. Am I making the right decision to double major now? Am I right in thinking after a finally finish my undergraduate program to go right into working on my Masters or do I need to feel it out? Or what happens if I get into a situation where I can’t work and go back to school, then what? What happens if this teaching career I have always seen myself doing doesn’t work out? Questions I wonder about often. And trust me there are many more. Things get really frustrating at times since I am ready to be finish with school and get to working. It almost feels like my life is at a stand still at times until I finish up school. I guess a little more so since I know my friends around me will be graduating next spring while I still have another year after that to go. Blah.
As far as the love life in concerned, there really isn’t much of one. I had a date with a guy maybe about two months ago and he was well… not my type. So I tried it again with another guy and he just doesn’t have it. And I sorta feel guilty because he is really a nice guy but way too laid back. He isn’t the type of person to make decisions… just goes with what everyone else is doing. And that bothers me. I need someone who can at least think on their own two feet (for example, we decided to go to the movies, but he had no idea what he wanted to do before the movies and I looked at him and said well I guess I will have to drive until you decide something and he told me that it is going to be a long drive, what the hell, so I asked if he wanted to just grab something to eat and relax at the park and of course I got a sure)… someone is going to have an idea of what they would like to do instead of saying, “I don’t know, whatever you want is fine.” Granted I say that from time to time, but I don’t want to do all the work here… it takes two. Maybe I am just going off on a limb here, but is that too much to ask? I have also noticed I have had my moods where I have been lonely a little more out of the norm. Just someone to talk to, someone to relate to, someone to joke with, someone to have somewhat of a connection with…
I am starting a yawn, I didn’t get much sleep this weekend since I was up playing SIMS all weekend… and I was addicted. It was my first time and I am going to have to get me a few games so I can play them! And I am sure by now, I have bored y’all enough so I will call it a night.
Until next time…
Keep fighting the good fight!