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Yeah, I'm doing a real entry now after that. I just felt they were too different to put pictures and an entry in one. Yes, I'm using livejournal for real. Like as a journal. Be forwarned. And perhaps even mildly terrified.
I feel like my life is so completly off track right now. Coming back from this trip I learned SO much... and I want to apply everything I've learned so desperatly. But it's SO far from where I want it to be, I don't even know where to begin. I sit around and call myself a Christian, but my lifestyle and choices are hardly reflecting it. How am I supposed to be a witness to others, when the decisions I'm making in my own life are just as bad, if not worse that those of non-Christians. I keep wanting to change, but it hasn't happened. I'm two different people...
ARGH. I can't think straight enough to even make a valid point. I'm done.
I feel like my life is so completly off track right now. Coming back from this trip I learned SO much... and I want to apply everything I've learned so desperatly. But it's SO far from where I want it to be, I don't even know where to begin. I sit around and call myself a Christian, but my lifestyle and choices are hardly reflecting it. How am I supposed to be a witness to others, when the decisions I'm making in my own life are just as bad, if not worse that those of non-Christians. I keep wanting to change, but it hasn't happened. I'm two different people...
ARGH. I can't think straight enough to even make a valid point. I'm done.