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Well..... I went to dinner with some friends that I made through a singles group.
We met at a great Italian restaurant. The food was great and the company was a welcome distraction. They really are good people.
We discussed my idea of stopping the divorce and all that has gone on in my life since we had last talked.
They were none to happy to hear that I was contemplating stopping the divorce. They have been with me through the good and really, really bad times. They don't want to see me hurt anymore. They have the best intentions.
I just wish that I knew what the right answer was.
They asked me if I could see myself growing old with her and if I would be happy.
I told them that when I look at her, I see the ugliness inside of her that has grown over the last 1 1/2 years of our separation. They laughed at me. I said that we were at one point in time, very happy together. I seen her inner beauty and I thoroughly enjoyed our life together.
They think that I am being foolish. I may be, but I don't feel comfortable sitting back and letting my fate take care of itself... I don't want to have any regrets.
I feel that if I go to counseling then I will at least have an objective "outsider" to help with this difficult decision.
My friends only know "my side". I'm sure I don't tell it with the same emphasis as she would. I tried to let them know tonight that I am not the perfect one here. I have equal responsibility for this relationship being where it is.
I just wish that I could feel comfortable with the decisions that I'm going to be facing.
We met at a great Italian restaurant. The food was great and the company was a welcome distraction. They really are good people.
We discussed my idea of stopping the divorce and all that has gone on in my life since we had last talked.
They were none to happy to hear that I was contemplating stopping the divorce. They have been with me through the good and really, really bad times. They don't want to see me hurt anymore. They have the best intentions.
I just wish that I knew what the right answer was.
They asked me if I could see myself growing old with her and if I would be happy.
I told them that when I look at her, I see the ugliness inside of her that has grown over the last 1 1/2 years of our separation. They laughed at me. I said that we were at one point in time, very happy together. I seen her inner beauty and I thoroughly enjoyed our life together.
They think that I am being foolish. I may be, but I don't feel comfortable sitting back and letting my fate take care of itself... I don't want to have any regrets.
I feel that if I go to counseling then I will at least have an objective "outsider" to help with this difficult decision.
My friends only know "my side". I'm sure I don't tell it with the same emphasis as she would. I tried to let them know tonight that I am not the perfect one here. I have equal responsibility for this relationship being where it is.
I just wish that I could feel comfortable with the decisions that I'm going to be facing.