Marriage/Divorce
I'm struggling with my ability to continue with this divorce.
She filed a year ago, and now she wants to work things out.
I don't want to be judged when I am in front of my maker.
"Why did you do this?" "Why did you not use the strength that I blessed you with?" "Why did you give up?"
Even after she has left me twice, for extra-marital-affairs. I still feel obligated. Vows are just that, vows. I don't want to break them. I don't want to live with this guilt for the rest of my life.
I'm going to try marriage counseling and see what they have to say. I'm sure they will see clearly, whether we are compatible. Whether we can forgive each other. I don't want to be a doormat.
Constantly forgiving someone that doesn't care about my feelings, is tearing me up inside. I feel that I'm losing my heart, little bit-by-little bit.
I pray tomorrow will be a new day.
She filed a year ago, and now she wants to work things out.
I don't want to be judged when I am in front of my maker.
"Why did you do this?" "Why did you not use the strength that I blessed you with?" "Why did you give up?"
Even after she has left me twice, for extra-marital-affairs. I still feel obligated. Vows are just that, vows. I don't want to break them. I don't want to live with this guilt for the rest of my life.
I'm going to try marriage counseling and see what they have to say. I'm sure they will see clearly, whether we are compatible. Whether we can forgive each other. I don't want to be a doormat.
Constantly forgiving someone that doesn't care about my feelings, is tearing me up inside. I feel that I'm losing my heart, little bit-by-little bit.
I pray tomorrow will be a new day.