wildcats.
university is starting soon. I'm terrified, but at the same time, I'm incredibly excited. I finally get to live on my own and get to do something that I kinda want to do.
lately, I've become increasingly tired. I don't know if it's been the long nights staying awake to watch MuBank, MuCore, and Inkigayo, but it's possible that may be the reason why. my new psychologist who seems to not care much for his patients suggested that I get a sleeping aid. I thought about it for a while but then realized it may not be of any help at all. in fact, taking it while living alone and having to wake up at 7 AM each morning to leave for school before 9:30 would probably be a disaster. the last thing I want to do is mess this up.
as much as I say I'm doing this for myself, it feels more like I'm doing this for everyone else. I keep getting pressured with things like "c'mon, do this. don't do that. don't mess up. you're doing this for yourself." etc etc. if I was 100% doing it for myself, wouldn't I feel the push to do these things rather than just sit back and do nothing about them?
unfortunately, though, I must settle. the one thing I've always wanted out of life is impossible for someone like me, so this is the road I must take. I do have a dream of owning a restaurant, but it's not my BIGGEST dream. it's... I dunno. I get too sad just thinking about it.
now I'm going to become the 할아버지 (harabeoji... means grandpa) that I've been for the last few days and retire to my bed. 안녕히 주무세요!
lately, I've become increasingly tired. I don't know if it's been the long nights staying awake to watch MuBank, MuCore, and Inkigayo, but it's possible that may be the reason why. my new psychologist who seems to not care much for his patients suggested that I get a sleeping aid. I thought about it for a while but then realized it may not be of any help at all. in fact, taking it while living alone and having to wake up at 7 AM each morning to leave for school before 9:30 would probably be a disaster. the last thing I want to do is mess this up.
as much as I say I'm doing this for myself, it feels more like I'm doing this for everyone else. I keep getting pressured with things like "c'mon, do this. don't do that. don't mess up. you're doing this for yourself." etc etc. if I was 100% doing it for myself, wouldn't I feel the push to do these things rather than just sit back and do nothing about them?
unfortunately, though, I must settle. the one thing I've always wanted out of life is impossible for someone like me, so this is the road I must take. I do have a dream of owning a restaurant, but it's not my BIGGEST dream. it's... I dunno. I get too sad just thinking about it.
now I'm going to become the 할아버지 (harabeoji... means grandpa) that I've been for the last few days and retire to my bed. 안녕히 주무세요!