pardon this.
All around me are
Voices
Faces
Words
Letters
Commands
Demands
Questions
Answers
Be nice/clean up/don't lie/straighten your back/listen up/do your homework/stay in school/keep your head up high
BELIEVE in love.
Years of obliging have led me to nothing but doubt.
Then one day I was walking down the street
And a black hole opened up beneath my feet
I fell so far, so far I couldn't stop
No ground beneath my feet, nothing to walk upon
And the darkness around me was uninviting
The cold that surrounded me was made for biting skin
So weak and thin, everything could seep in
Then a malicious virus took over my pores
And I was made shallow and nothing more
But the only thing remaining that was true
Was the beating heart that lived only for you
You see, when I fall in love, I fall in fast,
Submerge myself in it completely until I drown
Yet it feels as if I'm always drowning
Which is not to say I'm always in love
When a wonderful girl catches my eye,
I merely swoon but do not fly
Yet on select moments (and I'm glad there's not more)
I'm given wings and start to soar
Straight into the skies
Until I reach the sun, yet I'm denied
Its warmth and beauty, it overcomes me
Because my love, she does not want me
It seems my heart wants not what can be attained
But the very things which aren't in my reach
I need help
I seek help
To cure this curse upon me.
This flesh eats away at itself
And I dig deep into my chest
Try to pull my heart out of its cavity
Want to tear it to pieces
Want to make it stop feeling
I feel not in this place, though
These things reside within my mind
Nothing more I can to than give it time
Time to diminish, but what may that be?
Some more pain for me? Something I can't rid from my body easily?
And what of these things that we call friends
We trust and love and consult and talk and laugh and learn and grow and cry and sigh and die a little on the inside and bleed and break and scream and take and... what else is there?
Is it worth trading over the freedom of loneliness
When you still feel alone and under stress?
Is it worth the pain of being alone in your head
When no one understands exactly what you said?
There is a lack of control with those on the outside
Looking in, they see more than you do
They pull you apart
Tear you down
Sort through the little pieces to attain what they want
What they've been looking for
And then they run
They run and ignore you
You're not a part of their smaller world
You can hold the planet on your shoulders for them
Circle the Milky Way a thousand times
Dance on the burning hot stars
And bring them the entire universe in a box
But what good is it all for?
You're just another face in the crowd
Not an A
Not a B
Maybe a C
But not a D
And surely not any of the other 23 letters of the alphabet - that's right
Twenty-seven in total
I've set open a spot for us
Between I and U
We've still a long way to go
So don't leave me alone
Don't leave me alone
I may not be great
I may not be different
But it's these things that make
Someone who makes sense
I know that didn't make sense
It's not supposed to make sense
Because that's who I am
I'm happy-go-lucky
Fun-loving
Go-getter
But maybe not so much
I'm boring
And stupid
Sad and dark.
Didn't you ever think for once you could change me?
Lead me toward a better place?
I may be better off not knowing
You've all got your place in each others' lives
And I've got mine
In my own
On my own
From beginning to end.
Voices
Faces
Words
Letters
Commands
Demands
Questions
Answers
Be nice/clean up/don't lie/straighten your back/listen up/do your homework/stay in school/keep your head up high
BELIEVE in love.
Years of obliging have led me to nothing but doubt.
Then one day I was walking down the street
And a black hole opened up beneath my feet
I fell so far, so far I couldn't stop
No ground beneath my feet, nothing to walk upon
And the darkness around me was uninviting
The cold that surrounded me was made for biting skin
So weak and thin, everything could seep in
Then a malicious virus took over my pores
And I was made shallow and nothing more
But the only thing remaining that was true
Was the beating heart that lived only for you
You see, when I fall in love, I fall in fast,
Submerge myself in it completely until I drown
Yet it feels as if I'm always drowning
Which is not to say I'm always in love
When a wonderful girl catches my eye,
I merely swoon but do not fly
Yet on select moments (and I'm glad there's not more)
I'm given wings and start to soar
Straight into the skies
Until I reach the sun, yet I'm denied
Its warmth and beauty, it overcomes me
Because my love, she does not want me
It seems my heart wants not what can be attained
But the very things which aren't in my reach
I need help
I seek help
To cure this curse upon me.
This flesh eats away at itself
And I dig deep into my chest
Try to pull my heart out of its cavity
Want to tear it to pieces
Want to make it stop feeling
I feel not in this place, though
These things reside within my mind
Nothing more I can to than give it time
Time to diminish, but what may that be?
Some more pain for me? Something I can't rid from my body easily?
And what of these things that we call friends
We trust and love and consult and talk and laugh and learn and grow and cry and sigh and die a little on the inside and bleed and break and scream and take and... what else is there?
Is it worth trading over the freedom of loneliness
When you still feel alone and under stress?
Is it worth the pain of being alone in your head
When no one understands exactly what you said?
There is a lack of control with those on the outside
Looking in, they see more than you do
They pull you apart
Tear you down
Sort through the little pieces to attain what they want
What they've been looking for
And then they run
They run and ignore you
You're not a part of their smaller world
You can hold the planet on your shoulders for them
Circle the Milky Way a thousand times
Dance on the burning hot stars
And bring them the entire universe in a box
But what good is it all for?
You're just another face in the crowd
Not an A
Not a B
Maybe a C
But not a D
And surely not any of the other 23 letters of the alphabet - that's right
Twenty-seven in total
I've set open a spot for us
Between I and U
We've still a long way to go
So don't leave me alone
Don't leave me alone
I may not be great
I may not be different
But it's these things that make
Someone who makes sense
I know that didn't make sense
It's not supposed to make sense
Because that's who I am
I'm happy-go-lucky
Fun-loving
Go-getter
But maybe not so much
I'm boring
And stupid
Sad and dark.
Didn't you ever think for once you could change me?
Lead me toward a better place?
I may be better off not knowing
You've all got your place in each others' lives
And I've got mine
In my own
On my own
From beginning to end.