re-posting that poem.

[silentshaft]

I turn off the lights and hide in my self destructive lullaby. We'll fly on wings of hatred as they carry us through this night. Joy and fear are both inside twisting and turning in my wrestless mind. All of this worrying has made happiness less rewarding

Comments

[jyyinhk]

feel better! :P

-toby

[gargamale]

Lily,

Don't fret. If Garrett is so quick to abandon you despite your loyalty as a friend, then I'd move on and enjoy the comfort of my existing friends (The Dereks, Lilith, etc). I was you at one point, about the same time, deep in sorrow and contemplating the very nature of my apathetic ways. I had but one really good friend, but that is all I needed. Take solace and comfort in the friends that treat you as an equal and don't second guess your feelings. It sounds as if Katie and Garrett aren't good friends at all nor do they care to be. You have a beautiful backyard, awesome parents, and a lot of really eccentric, intelligent, and open-minded friends (including myself). Cherish what surrounds you now as it will inevitably change as things tend to do.

Gargamale (aka "Ron John")