re-posting that poem.
I turn off the lights and hide in my self destructive lullaby. We'll fly on wings of hatred as they carry us through this night. Joy and fear are both inside twisting and turning in my wrestless mind. All of this worrying has made happiness less rewarding.
Guilt rips into me, you push into me, you think jsut like me but this is not my state of mind. In your fragile world they carry us away. we are lost but we're still breathing. praying we wont be found soaring above this solid ground.
I wish i could be sleeping, but i keep losing myself in memories of your eyes, the way you look at me while i sleep away my disguise. I can still feel you watching meand studying my ways, although I've been away from you for countless nights and countless days.
Guilt rips into me, you push into me, you think jsut like me but this is not my state of mind. In your fragile world they carry us away. we are lost but we're still breathing. praying we wont be found soaring above this solid ground.
SO It's been a really long time since I posted. Or for tha tmatter been on livejournal at all. So how is everyone doing? I'm doing better, but it's been rough.
My summer blew balls and I hated it and looked forward to school starting so bad. the only good thing from summer was me getting a tattoo.It's beatiful. But unfortunately the 1st day of school came and we got out to Mcormicks creek and I jsut wanted to leave instantly. I wound up leaving the 1st night after Garrett telling Lilith I'm too depressed to be worth anything to him, right afterwords him and Katie wandered off into the woods together. It was beautiful watching my 2 ex-bestfriends walk away together after hurting me probably more then i can recall ever being hurt. So Eva came ot get me and brought Jayna and Jayna keyed Garrett's car and it was a real big mess. It's now been a month and a day since Me and Garrett said a single word to eachother. Although he tortures me by staring at me alll the fucking time. Schol is going really well except for having to be around, Katie, Twatt, Hannah Watt and Garrett. Plus the rest of theprep clique, Madison, crystla and Andrew.I dont like them. I really miss Garrett though.
But all of that doesn't matter because I have so many fuckign friends that are all great. The bestest ones in the world are LILITH, HAWKINS and BROWNING, they ar emy loves. I dont know what I'd do without them.
Guilt rips into me, you push into me, you think jsut like me but this is not my state of mind. In your fragile world they carry us away. we are lost but we're still breathing. praying we wont be found soaring above this solid ground.
I wish i could be sleeping, but i keep losing myself in memories of your eyes, the way you look at me while i sleep away my disguise. I can still feel you watching meand studying my ways, although I've been away from you for countless nights and countless days.
Guilt rips into me, you push into me, you think jsut like me but this is not my state of mind. In your fragile world they carry us away. we are lost but we're still breathing. praying we wont be found soaring above this solid ground.
SO It's been a really long time since I posted. Or for tha tmatter been on livejournal at all. So how is everyone doing? I'm doing better, but it's been rough.
My summer blew balls and I hated it and looked forward to school starting so bad. the only good thing from summer was me getting a tattoo.It's beatiful. But unfortunately the 1st day of school came and we got out to Mcormicks creek and I jsut wanted to leave instantly. I wound up leaving the 1st night after Garrett telling Lilith I'm too depressed to be worth anything to him, right afterwords him and Katie wandered off into the woods together. It was beautiful watching my 2 ex-bestfriends walk away together after hurting me probably more then i can recall ever being hurt. So Eva came ot get me and brought Jayna and Jayna keyed Garrett's car and it was a real big mess. It's now been a month and a day since Me and Garrett said a single word to eachother. Although he tortures me by staring at me alll the fucking time. Schol is going really well except for having to be around, Katie, Twatt, Hannah Watt and Garrett. Plus the rest of theprep clique, Madison, crystla and Andrew.I dont like them. I really miss Garrett though.
But all of that doesn't matter because I have so many fuckign friends that are all great. The bestest ones in the world are LILITH, HAWKINS and BROWNING, they ar emy loves. I dont know what I'd do without them.