No We Don't Ever See the Light of Day
I didn't go to bed at all last night. Literally. I watched my OC dvds with cashula sleeping with me until 5:30 when my mom came storming into my room during " The Nana Cohen" episode god. Start bawling to me about how I'm completely nuts and there's something wrong with me cause I don't sleep ya de ya da ya da... how it's not humanly possible to function BLAH BLAH. God. Did it SEEM like I was upset? NO. Why should she. bleh.
So eventually, I left my house actually early and GOT AN ACTUAL SPOT! woo. I got there at fucking 6:38 and there were barely any spots left, those kids are nuts. Also by the way, I told my mom how you shouldn't be taking Ritalin when you have depression or anxiety, and how it was making me really depressed and how I was crying everyday and wanted to die. So she called Dr.Roseman I guess today so I don't have to take it anymore, and I need to be put on something else meh. The thought of taking medication for the rest of my life makes me want to die. GAAAAAAAAAH.
So I was pretty fucking hyper throughout school until we got around 10:30 and all of a sudden everything got real fucking weird my eyes felt like 1000 pounds and everything was moving all weird... meh. Eventually I just left school around 12:30 snuck out of Barrows class and got Barb Chick at Zeg's by myself cause SOMEONE ( AKA MARK) wouldn't meet me. Then I went to Derek's cause I wanted to nap before rehearsal, but I'm starting to notice I KNOW i can't sleep in the bed with him just cause it is too small and my stomach always makes weird noises and it makes me self conscious and I'm always afraid I'm gonna fart by accident. HAHAHha Oh lord.
You know the feeling where you woke up to go to school, depressing of course, you are tired, then your mom comes in and tells you school was cancelled for a snow day... and when you pop back into bed to go to sleep it's the best sleep ever heheheh. That's how it felt when I woke up from my 15 minute nap at home to go to rehearsal ... get there.. it is cancelled! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. BEST DAY OF MY LIFE. Slept til 9:30 or 9 I can't remember.. felt amaaaaaaazing.
I wanted to say something about how I stalk people too much, but I'll save that for another time . bye.
So eventually, I left my house actually early and GOT AN ACTUAL SPOT! woo. I got there at fucking 6:38 and there were barely any spots left, those kids are nuts. Also by the way, I told my mom how you shouldn't be taking Ritalin when you have depression or anxiety, and how it was making me really depressed and how I was crying everyday and wanted to die. So she called Dr.Roseman I guess today so I don't have to take it anymore, and I need to be put on something else meh. The thought of taking medication for the rest of my life makes me want to die. GAAAAAAAAAH.
So I was pretty fucking hyper throughout school until we got around 10:30 and all of a sudden everything got real fucking weird my eyes felt like 1000 pounds and everything was moving all weird... meh. Eventually I just left school around 12:30 snuck out of Barrows class and got Barb Chick at Zeg's by myself cause SOMEONE ( AKA MARK) wouldn't meet me. Then I went to Derek's cause I wanted to nap before rehearsal, but I'm starting to notice I KNOW i can't sleep in the bed with him just cause it is too small and my stomach always makes weird noises and it makes me self conscious and I'm always afraid I'm gonna fart by accident. HAHAHha Oh lord.
You know the feeling where you woke up to go to school, depressing of course, you are tired, then your mom comes in and tells you school was cancelled for a snow day... and when you pop back into bed to go to sleep it's the best sleep ever heheheh. That's how it felt when I woke up from my 15 minute nap at home to go to rehearsal ... get there.. it is cancelled! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. BEST DAY OF MY LIFE. Slept til 9:30 or 9 I can't remember.. felt amaaaaaaazing.
I wanted to say something about how I stalk people too much, but I'll save that for another time . bye.