Minds are lame.
Thought is so powerful. Ive found that my brain needs something to worry about, and to dwell on... by brain actually seeks it out. If everything is going fine, and I feel great, my brain looks for something that I can feel sad or guilty or hurt or down about, its heaps weird... I cant feel at ease. And normal worrys dont actually effect me as much anymore, such as: "That person insulted me, maybe theyre right" doesnt even trip the mechanisim to start to worry about it, cos its not a big deal, and ive already worried about that before. But the problem is, im starting to worry about really strange things... such as when I was walking to work today, past a construction site outside the mall, and I thought all this in about 1.3 seconds: "What if I was to walk in the wrong place and a huge slab of concrete fell on my head and I got brain damage and ended up losing most of my intelligence and all that came out of it was a small news article in the advertiser that said there should be workplace reviews to stop such incidents from occuring and I wouldnt even know because I was fucked and it would all be because I was walking somewhere which could have been averted easily..." And then ill worry about it... hahaha. My other theory is that I think my mind has to be active and when its not, it just starts to create random events and things to worry about, and they get progressivey stranger and worse to actually effect a brain that is used to it, it goes to extremes to get a response... Gah, no matter, just thought id share that with all you chums.